anger is a secondary emotion
first i was hurt

That caught your attention.

But the moments leading up to it didn’t.

my stomach drops when i think about you
entering me

my heart pounds when i think about your
soft whispers

your breaths heavy
teeth in my shoulders
hands around my throat

you took me
all of me
and left me with none
of myself

i am accepted for now
superficial or real

i need this
i NEED this

you whisper “i’m about to come”
i whisper “i love you”

what are empty promises on the lips of a
stranger?
just words
no, what are they?
a personification of my blind trust

so, who are you?

my heart hurts right now
not because you didn't reply to me

im anxious right now
not because you left me on read

my heart hurts because
i am feeling the pain of rejection
i am anxious because
i am scared of being lonely

my fears of us

are a projection
of the fears inside
of me

i understand now
it helps the hurt
a little

you're trying to protect yourself from feeling
pain, again
valid

my heart aches for you
i am protecting myself
too
my heart is heavy
too

ignore everything else but don't ignore
the feeling inside you
i understand
i hope it is telling you to jump
i'll be waiting down here for you