I am a male.
I am straight,
like many males.
But,
I have desires.
I want to be lusted for..
I want to be wanted.
I want to be loved.
I want to feel like someone would die for me at the drop of a hat.
I ask myself.
Is that okay to feel?
Is it okay for me to want people to love me?
Is that selfish?
Because it seems like i do all of these for others,
but they don't for me.
What is it?
What did I do?
Why am I not worth your admiration?
Do I deserve this?
Do I deserve the constant shunning?
Isn't that why I write?
Isn't that why I shall be in silence?
Is it bad to want someone to have a crush on me?
To want to know me.
Or does it show all that i have lived without...

The light beams through the shades
I roll away from the brightness
And smile as I see your sleeping face
How pure and innocent you appear
Like an angel sent to make me forget
All the negativity in the universe
I see the rising and falling of your bare chest
I feel the life pulsing through you as I caress your arm
You moan so lightly I cannot be sure you ever made a sound
Your eyes slowly open and a golden smile spreads across your face
You are here
In this moment
With me
That is all that will ever matter.