She(I) goes(go) out of her(my) way to put me down nowadays. Like she(I) wants(want) to convince herself(myself) I was always beneath her. She(I) wants(want) me to see she never cared yet doesn't(I don't) leave. Like shes(I'm) doing me(myself) some kind of twisted favor.

I know she(I) still resents(resent) me(myself) for what happened to her. Maybe(I want to believe) she feels awful for going through the hardest moment of her life with someone barely worth the trouble in the first place. How am(is) I(she) to even respond to that? What am(is) I(she) supposed to do? What WAS I(she) supposed to do in a situation like that?

I only really feel alone now when shes(I'm) like this. As if the child weren't mine(hers) too. She(I) probably wishes(wish) it wasn't. Yet I'm constantly reminded why I was the worst man for her. Did she(I) truly want to keep me(her) as a friend? Or am I around simply to receive her(my own) passive anger and cold unforgiving distance.

I'm almost certain some part of her(me) fell in love with me(her), but had no courage to speak it. Silently counting her(my) blessings she(I) never got the chance to be let down.