Sometimes it's hard to dismiss the constant clenching that takes place underneath my rib cage

What's even harder, is that my heart breaks all over again once I realize I am not always strong enough to fight for myself

As I sit here, on the edge of my bed, wearing your clothes, hugging the sheets and pillows as if they are you, the emptiness surrounds me..

What's the hardest though, is the fact that you're worth every little fight. And it's so ******* hard to look past that.

Kisses on the head and hugs,
that's how it all started.
And I never thought this would happen,
To love someone I could not stand,
cause you were colliding with me all the time,
but now I like you and you're so far away. So far that it is impossible to touch.
I keep the simple things that you give to me,
because they are important to me and now I don't know what I saw in you.
And maybe even know it's those special hugs that pulled me to you,
but this can't exist because you're too far away.
so this can't happen and it leaves me shattered.
I don't know if it's a true feeling or it's just a part time love but I'm sorry that it can't never happen.
Cuz i don't live in you but u probably live in me.
And at the end i don't want lose your friendship.
-d.a

Her blood is the blood of the stars,
Haven’t you heard?
They’ve played your dismissal in the choir of misfortune
And the roses you grew have found their perish
Long before the season of blossom.
Your name can’t be read in constellations anymore,
Nor can you see what you once were.

In a moment, the world turns
And the girl you knew escapes.
From the rings of Saturn she leaps,
And from her fingertips she lets go.

so i’m sitting here, watching the thunder and
lighting crash against the night sky
and i cannot help but think of you,
and the way your electric smile resembles that of lighting dancing
across the night sky, illuminating it,
your booming laugh, imitating the thunder that shakes the earth beneath me.
it is in this moment that i realize that i see you in everything i do,
you make me think such profound thoughts,
your essence serves as a muse for every poem i am now writing,
everything you do it’s so- so intriguing to me.
i see your presence in everything, even the storms that shake me so deeply.