To never see the intimacy
Paint my throat with gravel
Swallow every word
perfection holds for only a moment
The feeling flutters like a bird
I stumble as they fly by
Memories of the light pulled away
I'd never see your face again
One final grip to say farewell
Wrapped the story in duct tape
Soon the edges fray
Wrote a poem in sharpie marker
I fear the words will fade away

This is not poetry. These are just journal entries dude..

Golden trees light up the day
A winding path leading the way
Glorious hues of porcelain and blue
The peaceful presence of you so new
Wind bells chyme and I love their sound
Being laid sweetly upon crumpled ground

Pink silky pillows of soft skin
Hidden in memories resting deep within
I can see beams of blue and maroon
Outlined by pale skin dancing with the moon
I can see gentle gestures from strawberry tongues
And i can hear whispers urging us to come
But these are now only memories
Kept in the dark slowly slipping away

Ornaments of olive eyes
Wading sleepy through starry skies
A silver window of heavens light
Sing me to sleep this winter night
Azalea, lay your flowers in the snow
As I lay, the wind shivers aching bones
Waiting calm for lower tides
I etched a poem in the stone
Rusty sheets, broken boards
Broken folds we call our homes
Azalea, the prettiest face
As I wait, for the dead to come back home

Azure sapphires
Glare like sharpened stone
The raven beaked rapture
Swooped down, to **** and capture
And carry me away to their home

Full moon shining silver light
Over head it named tonight
Underneath swirls of grey
Outside the doors have called my name
The twilight spoke in a golden tongue
Over and over it must be done
****** fingers captivate
Condemning the beast to demonstrate

Glance through dirtied glass and see
Masses of fog, filth and disease
Grimy, and fundamentally weak
Crawling out from the bowels of the earth
Squirming like the worms feeding on dirt
The prime race soon to be extinct
Buried in murky mud far beneath
A light-less torch burning miles of trees
With darkness stretching to the corners of the world
Reaching into the depths of the deepest seas

We are lavender mosaics
Made of broken glass
Our pain withered faces
Shine through pierced cracks
We’ve lived through cold days
Seen the light as it fades away
Looking upon a countenance
For a reason to stay
Time is shaping mosaics
Out of pieces of broken clay

I saw the flower die
it was drained by the butterfly

Bluish grey light like bleeding ink
Creeping through the sleepy sky
And blending together like pencil shade
All of earth is a constant shadow
Concrete stained like pale skin on aching bones
Unconscious organisms holding still
Holding tough throughout the rain
Unaware they feel no pain
Mornings come to wake the day
Time has come to sip on sugar grain

Capped at the knees again,
Just another year flying with its scythe,
Cut back down with my feet rooting in cold soil,
Continue the rebuild for lifes reap,
Waiting for the clasp of hopeless farmers hand,
I know why with all the analytical purpose,
To serve life chain propaganda,
Evolutionary biome's scandal,
Breaking free from the loop you have set on full speed,
Watching the track play out,
Another record hollowed out,
High on the repetitive sound,
Loud it rings around space,
Lacing milky ways courted silence,
Rays transfer and escalate along empty darkness,
Light reflected gas,
Champagne bubbled star sky,
Here I lie severed before decay curls,
Wrapping a broken brain

Darkness is pure
Untouched by light
Convert of be consumed
Creatures creep around
Never wanting to be found
Crawling and shifting about
Pure black without a face
Is the other half of the human race
Folded hands reach out
To folded faces who never get the point
We drop our pens and burn our papers
When our efforts are through
Even from the start
Brightness will die soon
Light is pure
Unless perverted by darkness
But in the fight for space darkness wins when the wind is blown and the candle dies
The candle dies
The baby cries
But the hungry dog is smiling wide
Splitting open scabbing stitches
Blood seeping into rough ridges
It's his time to consume
Eat or be eaten, only that is fair
Look around the darkened room
You're the only one there
Ask around ask around
You're the only one who cares
Drain the clothes to make room for new stains
Our clothes are too new, too clean, too plain
The person in front stares just the same
Carbon copies copying carbon copies copied by carbon copies
What is life but a series of constant repetition

The last doll on the wall timorous
The last sound in the hall rings separate
The first twinkling in the night glamorous
The first tiptoes through to death arrives
While wading easefully through sleepy skies
Forceful apprehensions are pushing
The detridus rubble mocking all soft cushions
A damaging entanglement of precious threads
Finding yourself where the sidewalk ends
The purifying fog replaced by gloomy smoke
Inhaled once then died the starved dog.

The surface a porcelain pond hold my milky reflection
Lips like lavender clouds smeared across the sky
Put the Angels of heaven to shame
Seraph my love, with the glow of fresh fallen snow
Shadows section her face like statue of gold
Sun kissed brass speckles twinkle with the grass
Wondered of words and soul
Will you be my precious flower
Golden glow oh behold the moon beneath the stars
I see you like ice crystal carved
Diamondesque ripe like a summer peach
Flow like cool winds on springtime leafs
You drip and roll like cursive ink
You whisper like tortured silence
Whither alone like an orchid
Oh hooded widow don't hide your precious face

Oh how feeble I was so lost amongst bitter thorns
And how the light twined like ivy vine in every curve
How she blossomed like a rose in the spring
Almond eyes like diamonds floating in space
Her viridescant presence made my very heart sing
I will crumble like a rock turns to sand
My gift to you my empty hand..

Quickly sketching paths in fresh snow when there was no smooth path etched in stone
Sickly I'm sliding with wet shoes on a slippery *****
Whiskey is my only lullaby
Let go of hope the ashen past
You cannot escape your lonely fate
In my fist clenched a ****** t shirt inscribed my aspirations and my apathy
My sullen sleep ridden dreams echoing with such painful screams
I sit feverishly take a dram just one last sip before I slip
Still quietly curdling in the corner when the sun came out
When the flowers did bloom blossoming a sweetened sappy odor
Where can you say lays the man who's hand beholds the golden cup
In the dark forgotten plains
Tending to lambs and pillowy sheep
All the while the wind withered a beast whom the world denied him sleep

As you hold it in your hand
You watch it slip away
Keep your thoughts so still
Drowning in icy rain
Hail-fellow-well-met
Smiling though her coat is wet
I smile to the stranger known
In her company we are alone
I miss you friend
Your smiling face
Diamond eyes floating through space
The fog split when you walked in
I felt storms raging deep within

Never again a sight of previous gold
Let go of the moments we so dearly hold
Remember the words whispered upon a many lips
Remember swimming within lovers deep kiss
Remember towers stacking into the sky
Rain showers, wishing we could fly
Remember the songs of the angels pain
Voices smooth like a milky dream
Be no more are the broken streets
Where lost souls wonder on ****** feet
Never again will the mother cry
Or the child be pushed to suicide
Remember the sound of whispered sighs
Exasperated over again, time after time
Exhaust waits in every sidewalk line
In every aching minute of human life
From the corpses bloodied body on which we dine
To cave paintings of a different time
And so no more will we hold
Precious moments framed in gold
And no one will be here to remember
The light leaving the very last dying ember

For all the lost ones
Who didn't see the light shine today
We stand weeping at your graves
Its a tragic ending
To all those moments filled with pain
Never again will we see your face
And we will miss you,
We will not forget your name
Like fallen leaves on the ground,
First turned golden then decayed
The light of sunrise, first fresh then fades to grey
We will not forget your name
We raise our fingers to the sky
Faces tilted saying "Fly high"
Raise your fingers to the sky
Say it with me
Oh brother fly high
Now we know of your silent pain
We didn't know you weren't okay
Now we stand weeping upon your grave
We wish we could tell you
We wish you could be with us today
But you're gone now
The light is burdened by a shade of grey
We wish we had helped you through the pain
So raise your fingers to the sky
And say with me
Oh brother fly high
We will not forget your name
My brothers and sisters, fly high.

We are barely the flakes of feathers
Circumstances the universe has created
Collecting around and pooling together
Delicate complexities spinning off
Branching off and dancing on their own
Split apart the splinters
Then disintegrate into dirt
Oddly separate are all the same things
Organized only in different ways
Circling around into different shapes
Different things, all in all, being just the same

******* write a love poem
That's all your minds can do
Shed a tear and wonder why
Your poetry will never make me cry
What's the point of poetry
To only follow primitive tenancies
So write a ******* love poem
If that's the deepest you can be
Tell a tale and whine and wail
How your emotions are suffocating
***** and moan and disgustingly drone
About how your drowning in the deepest sea
Or please shut your hole and just go home
Don't want to hear your love poetry

Standing and spinning motion rests
My core feels cold as ice
Flutter me by
I'm but a ribbon in the breeze
Blanket the earth in snow
the insignificant blade of grass
I was alone in a field of strange faces
Suddenly spotting a flower I can not forget
Words trample me helpless
Calm my patience I regret
The world quit whirling
But It is so terribly silent
Wandering lands full of empty hands
I felt so far from home
Panting like a dog in head
blood wraps brittle bone

God is not in church, God is in your mind.

Beautiful girls with golden curls
Mock my creepy face
Porcelain smiles boarded straight like tiles
Swirl in murky ponds of memories

Silken air my breath is low
Echoes of footprints in the snow
Shadows drift through misty air
The silence is deafening

Forever in motion
I am forever still
I trip on my esoteric tongue
The mystery ensues

Perceive the process
Flashes framed in place
Outside is in your head
An ocean swirls around you

Skin crafted porcelain
Fitts an alabaster face
Diamond stars of rufescent glow
Floating weightlessly in space
She's the sweetest honey swirl
The youngest cusp of a beautiful girl
Hold the weight of my empty world
My blood is heavy as an ocean

Human emotions are but pain and commotion
Swirling around like a storm on the ocean
Betrayal is born when you offer your devotion
And your mind breaks down when your heart splits open

Your eyes start swirling
The world turns grey
You're no longer curious
The enormity fades
With an open book, turn the page
With a closed mind, deny your rage
Spend a lifetime waiting to die
At the edge of the cliff, it's darkness you'll find
No glory, no sacred light
Only darkness when life leaves your eyes

You looked too close, you made the mistake
You saw how smooth her bones were shaped
Now you cannot seem to look away!
You saw the light twinkling off her face
Now a dreadful feeling of pain awaits
Her hues of silver drift around the bend
Her sultry song will never end
You search the empty lacuna over again
Though knowing the gold you'll never win
So grasp gently at curdled sins!
Let the cold seep through your skin
And remember her symmetry
As you're reaching out to empty wind

**** all of you
With a ladle or a spoon
Die! All of you
You **** filled ugly *****!
Wretched stomas leak their filth
Spilled upon the page
Plastic clichéd phrases
Recited spins me in a rage!
Just shut the **** up all of you
Drown or go to hell
Just shut the **** up all of you
Please, drown or go to hell

Look through a foggy mist
Behold a shadowy form
Remove your hands
the being is torn
life forged ashes to dust
Small the vastness of it all
Entropy is the only relevancy
Irrelevancies controlling secretly
Convoluted pirouettes, I trip on my own tongue
Footsteps churning like gears in a
machine
Oh the many angles in which to be seen
Iridescence, my face a birds wing
Flutter through the clusters
Hear the saraph as she sings

Warm feelings and cool light
Reverberating like a humming low
Cover the ground in ash and snow
Actions taken through courses of lies
Deception is perception
I stand in a castle of string ties
Cast aside shadowed stones for eyes
Is the datkness only in your mind

Shades of cyan
Dancing on the sky
A luminescent surface
On the backdrop in my eye
Pantone twinkles peeking through the trees
A gentle breeze waking up the leaves
Even respiration as I walk
Minutes paint the sky
With clouds of chalk

Ashen leafs cling absently to sleepy trees
Hiding behind hues of asphodel and pink
Clouds danced across the morning sky
The enormous pillows slowly changing shape
Across the day they are loosely draped
With meaning in every morning
And all the varying shades of light
I marvel, what a sight
So sparkle! A state of fabulosity
My drunken heart beating crapulously
Oh all the colors of this world
Such a treasure to behold
More precious to me than diamond and cold
More sacred than any stone
My heart hopes this will not grow old
The magnificent light, oh behold!

Caressing the curves of the earth
I know the world is big
Seeing the many masses squirm
I know that I am small
I watch the time elapse and swirl
I know I am but dust in the wind
I am the breeze that blows insignificant
Ever present and crystal clear
But I am but s puff of smoke
Thinning out to disappear

Oh a wasted sea of humanity
Watch as it crumbles to confetti
Open doors quietly welcoming
We say goodnight
The masses shout hurray
Years roll past our deaths but wilting ashes
Dashes whip the *****
My face a mockery but it passes
Fabulous darling your face dripps with paint
I stumble for words oh I only hope you'll wait
Pray my friend you're as lonely as me
Pry your eyes open
See what we can be
Oh run my curious friend
Flee to the sloping hills
Your God is in your head pay attention when the air is still

My precious porcelain flower
Full chrysanthemum lips
Soft aster pillows, and cold smooth skin
Sapphire stones warm my bones
And sooth my aching core
My precious porcelain flower
Oh how I do adore

Loud and all around i hear the bells ring
I am but one cell being pumped through the bloodstream
Pushed and shoved side to side
Too quickly with haste to even cry
I clench my fists and close my eyes
Feeling panicked i want to hide
I see an opening and duck inside
My fists un-clench
I relax my eyes
My heart stops racing as i have arrived

I am not alone for I made friends with me
I am the world outside dwelling beneath
Pried open the world twirling free
Like little ribbons shaking in the breeze
I am afraid the world shakes my feet
I have made my home where my heart beats
Iron roses turn to rust
A beautiful tower cascading to dust
Stuff with the sound of the silence ringing
Eyes closed white light hear the saraph singing

The dark existed before the light ever showed its face.

It is ignorant to think we know
Maybe the light was made to shine
Perhaps merely meant to die
We wish to believe here lies a purpose
But we may never see curious truths surface
Who holds the head of the mighty heavens glow
Only hope to learn when a winter wrath is shown

Silent nobodies
Hidden in our rooms
Time passed on
Turning yellow to blue
Concrete surroundings spell out curses
The cold torment of our tomb

Alone the black sheep caries his thorns,
Through thick thickets thin skin is torn,
The hooded king garbed in golden rings,
Wears his hood to hide his horns,
The quick snip of sharpened scissors,
No more sheep are to be born,
One quick flick of the match,
Candle burning furiously,
One cloud of smoke vapor swirling in the air turbulent,
One moment and misty spark fades into empty space,
Wind blows through new time is here you are quickly replaced,
Left now but empty sketches on an ancient pad,
You are too quickly erased

Diamond droplets softly dripped on a fragile plain
The surface is subtly disturbed
It's puny ripples a-flutter away
The outside quietly echoing
Hear the song of crystal rain
The light is darkened
Grey skies bled a pale ashen plate
Word to the mountains crumbling Adret!
Her eyes softly glisten, but her face turned away
Exhale the silence, your breath a weak shiver
Small bodies cower, your voice but a quiver
Your fingertips gold as they tap frozen glitter
Porcelain wind blows ribbons of cold silver

Admire secretly from afar
That beautiful girl
Behold the face of a dying star
You never tried so you ran so far
You couldn't stop your anxious shaking
Go home alone and quietly pace
Back and forth wild eyes agape
Her charm, the enchantment
You could not escape
For a chance in tomorrow you're ****** to wait..

I think maybe we were all meant to be miserable.

Our golden world has a twisted spine
It's face is darkened with a shadowed mind
The fault in the stars of human kind
Manipulating each other time after time
Upon our children's corpses with greed we shall dine
When indifference wins, the corporations deny
Like an angered child shreaking "NEIN!"
Here stands the hooded mask of a darkened face
The familiar truth of our beautiful race
Passing slowly, painfully with time
Will go the golden world with the twisted spine

Waves of maggots
Swimm in oceans of rot
We spread and multiply like fungus
Dull the many minds
Nullify the lower kind
Post your face and deify
What a shame
The masses maimed
The horse is wearing stilts

Tell me, oh tell me
For I lust I must know
Why does my heart beat
And why does the wind blow

Processes keep repeat
monotony set on track
Dawn cracks stand *****,
To sleep again we drift back

I cannot see the grand makers hand
All I can know are his sheep and his land
The body is in motion the face shadowed and veiled
Try and try to understand our explanations failed