Walking through the darkness
A world made of ash
Everyday I keep on walking
My feet keep on burning

Tyrants live in temples
Made of the broken
Relaxing with their
Model girlfriend

Shareholders count their
War dividends as they send
Their children to Eton
While in a distant land
a little girl
just got Shot

Lost in the darkness
Brutality has no ending
Looking to balance the equation
Only finding a black hole
a never ending continuum

As people preach of hope
But are so often wrong
More flowers placed by
The roadside why do the good
Often die young

As single mums struggle
tormented by ex lovers
Who walk away smiling
With their new girlfriend

As the faint hearted
Seek reason where there is none
And sense in the senseless
Like broken glass
can ever have any purpose

But as good deeds do lie
Buried unseen forgotten
In their life only find ruin
Let us not betray the scattered
Lights discarded by life  
Thrown to the wind like ash
Let them be our stars

For however dim my shine
However weak I may feel
I stand with God by my side
Holding my hand

Softly whispering
" Please not you Adam
don't let me loose you
too
hang on  
let me just love you"

As I promise to hold  
Onto goodness
Like a flower
On a cliff edge

And however faint
I maybe
Like a distant star
I shine
And shine
I do
with new  hope

I am a floating weightless rabbit
So let me bring a soft spring
As my fury pads
Softly pass like a
Silky silent stream
Still in silence you must be
If you ever wish to see me
As I am so very shy
And will soon fly
As I meet the world
With a gentle touch
While I dance and play

Many lords and land owners
Clumsily wade and trample
Over life and emotion
Colorful cars and coats
Controlling , as I am bulldozed
Out  to societies edges
Sharing land with farmed animals
Who have long since lost
Their control on fate
As we are left like
Miserly maggots just surviving

Looking up at grand stately home
A  bubbling , curdling
And Blood thirsty envy
Rises  up in me
What am I saying
Have I lost mind  
For  I am vegetarian
No jealousy in me
As I can only lightly nibble
At the great green abundance
The world always offers me

Never seeking to change
The outside world
Like stampeding ego's
Building boundary fences
I spend my time only
Seeing and understanding
As i borrow deeper and deeper
How deep can  go  
Breaking away from above
I feel as free as a dove
Sinking searching deeply
I love this hidden world
A deep internal Love
Exploring many pathways
While always feeling protected
From the clashing worlds above
As i feel the earths embrace
My heart unfolds into
An unlimited space

Very many are we
Common are we
So common you see
Wearing our grey coats
We are a mediocre day
We have such an ordinary way
As I  vanish into grey
Such a blissful way
As there is more expansion in
Grey than there is ever in
The confines of great expectation
As nothing warms my heart more
Fondly than the simple life on
The edge of town , where
The grass is green and tender
So in this blending  relaxation
How ordinary can I be

In a humble state
I pop in , pop out
Pop up , pop down
Never needing to
Challenge and conquer
As I live lightly under
Softly accepting and accepting
As the world drops my importance
I am found completely free
Listening and listening
I drop into a watchful silence
As I navigate the world
With the most delicate  foot
As I lightly tickle the world
I hear the earth's laughter

Living life like a weightless Rabbit
We find out life much easier to face
As we humbly embrace our place

Black hats, purple robes
Magicians love
To serve us all
Bubbling bubbles of desire
Lift me up
Higher and higher
Somewhere buried
In the sky

I discover
A taste a feel
On my finger tips
Touching with my very hand
In an unknown land
I realize
That I can have
Absolutely
ANYTHING !!
anything the world
Can bring

So  each and every day
Solid bricks
Fly out of me
As I build
With building blocks
Desire pushes me
Up and up
Spiraling stairways, climbing spires
Take me to the very top

And then one crooked day
Bursting bubbles, worlds collide
Broken stairs, broken bones
short end of a wish bone
Steep steps rolling down
Once again
I find I am crying
Rubble all around
Falling tumbling down

But in
Crumbling castles of desire
I find my essence purified
Like a living flower
Sweetness springs
From inside
With a song
It sings
Out loud

I only wish to hear
The sea
To feel the sand
Beneath my feet
The wind blowing
Through my hair
And take a breath
Of clean fresh air

As I am lifted
With every step
All desires fulfilled
With every stride
10 thousand steps
I walk each day
Each one filled
with
JOY!

So in this
Crumbling castle of desire
I feel a LOVE of life
In every part
I find my wishes
Just right here
Desire so very close to me
I can only feel
So blissfully

Each and every single day !

A honored knight  
Reporting  for duty
But caught in the
Nets of insecurity
For I am a wordless wreak
As my eyes varnish
Already polished floors
And I walk with
An imaginary limp
As I nervously wait

All turned out swell
In the ritz glitz
Disco drive
One way ticket to freedom
And check out the
Check out lady
She is pretty hot
And what a beautiful spot
CHECK OUT
That  check out lady
She is red hot
Must catch her smile
Collect and file

Spirits gliding
ON smiles colliding
Gifted and gifted
High sea's are so enticing
So inviting
Water starts knocking
And knocking
Yelling
Leave your chores
Come out doors

Who are the biters
Those little blitters
Guess I am lunch
Or even brunch
Minds start dropping
Hearts rising
With spirits kissing
So many friends
As no one pretends
Milky ice cream
Topped with full moon
Gentle whispering waves
Wishful for our future
So altogether delightful
The time I spent in Greece

Shush please
Silence your mind
For I hear you
predicting my future
But I tell you
As I tell myself
I am no
Commodity

As I sometimes feel
The earth from under me
Kind of crumbles
Only to find  
My rockets
My vibrations

Like a bat i fly
My future a blank
For me it is
An adventure
Out of my cast
I explode I blast

For a moment please
Stretch out a place
Dig a hole
right
Through
your mind
Into an
outer space  
Help me find

Leave a moment
A gap
Just a chance
For a new future
To be found
But I need silence
All around

I am a flower in a forest
Filled with trees
And wisdom
Please take of your cloths
And slip in for  
something new to begin

Frustrated by these tireless wars
The world rages against
As I am plunged into battle
Caught in the many hooks
As his red eyes burn into me
Their desires seek all of  me  
I just want to be free

As the empty heart craves
All their worldly possession
Can they make a personal confession
Filling lives full of glory and triumph
Many materials rattle and clatter
As echos fall in the hollowness
Of an empty heart

Prodded , provoked and paraded
My enemy draws and clenches
As he seeks to take and take
Greed seeks the juice out of me
My pride , my dignity

Stripped by the world of
Everything , I hear my heart beat
As I am drawn to the edge
Of fire and conflict
Torn by Love and vengeance
I am consumed by the world of
LOVE   AND   HATE

But deep in my heart
Lives a silent beast
A shiny blue dragon
That sails with the doves
And roars a white peace
The world has its great feast  
As I sit ,  to look and  see
My surrendered violence be

As my peaceful heart melts
And drifts away from
The worlds  blistering battle
Many lost men attack
My abandoned Castle and  
Stamp on my garments of war
I have long since left lying
I look at the world of the dying
As the world rages
My soul slips into the
Realms of expansive bliss

For I have chosen
To DROP INTO PEACE
Some thing the world
Can never take

Gentle friends gather
some where between
A tear and Anger
As we march like silent thunder
Into cloudy hill tops higher
To free the minds of forgotten children
While lifting mist from their future

Children burned by the fires
Of societies scorn
They are rejected and rejected
For does anyone know
When someone last said
I love you Johnny
or jenny
or James

So together we march
To mark an awareness in God

Good moods are blown
Through life saying
Trust in God
Trust in existence  
But they are as weak
As houses made of
Flaky straw
In a world full of hungry  Wolves

So me and my friends together march

For Becki and Debbie
Who's parents cancelled Christmas
On Christmas morning
Or Rachel's lost innocence

FOR I ASK GOD
   Do you even know their name
   Even know they live
  
This  shame  needs a home

For I ask anyone
If you see God
Please tell him about the children
Who live betrayed in the
Shadows of existence

In the mean time me and my friends
Will march to higher states on Snowdon
Some where between a tear and anger

Turning into peach
I feel a tender baby
My young ****** heart
Unspoiled by the world
Like a seed it carries
All my future growth

Living within an empty casket
A vessel of infinite space
The hardest peach stone
Two half's , In GODS two
Hands he holds me tight
Within the hardest rock
I feel cradled and protected
Trusting the whole
As it carries me safely

Shinning brightly within
My blistering white core
Curled up deeply
My space , I site silently
Contemplating peacefully
As all attacks from the
World can not touch me
My chest expands with the
Growing space inside me
Where I feel the world
And my love ,which
Sit beside me

Rolling outwardly I radiate
Yellow like the sun
Shining brightly
As I feel many flavored
Layers of delicious juice
Wrapped in my body
Bathed in a fleshy beauty
I am rich in blissful
Golden bounty

As I reach out
I touch the world
With a delicate hair
On my furry surface
Of soft carpets and sofa's
Fluffy blankets and cushions
Where hearts and souls
Collapse into lovers arms
With abandoned minds

As we roll around
In each other charms
With the ease of
Bended knee's
As we hear resonatingT
Tones of humming
Heart strings collide
As our empty center's
Can only attract
As we fall and embrace

As together in Intimacy
We turn into delicate peach

Please let me tell you
About your positivity
The way you patch
Me up and send me out
Sorry to be melodramatic
But I somehow feel dramatic
As I am thrown out to the wolves

And I am sorry to have
To tell you but I have just
somehow become immune
to all your positives, like steroids
you keep on pumping  into me
And I am afraid that my soul
has just retract and gone different
way
sorry but I can no longer
pretend to be made of steel
Not for you
Or any positive view

Ok then lets go out
put on a jacket
Hunter gatherer
Lets go get her
Stand in a queue
talk to a girl or two
pretend that what
she had just said    
did not hurt you
And maybe instead
of getting kissed
We can just get ******

We can start to look a mess
while they judge us on our dress
The way we speak
The job we have
The money we don't have
The size of our house
the car we drive
Can we make them laugh
or are we just a bit boring
You say I have no confidence
But is this just a coincidence

You tell me I am all
of this and all of that
But I am tired of all that
As you lift me in
a hydrogen balloon  
Just a little *****
again I feel a ****
So I will tell you
Who I am
ADAM is who I am
always have been  
Always will be
just Adam
nothing more
nothing less  

And what I say to you
As a friend
I really
LOVE YOU
But what I don't
need from you
is your positive view
All I need
IS JUST YOU

Sometimes the nights never end
Like an unrelenting storm they keeps pouring
As unforgiving black holes never find their bottom

As every drop of hope finds itself
absorbed into the deepest darkest ocean
As no one can escape reality no more than gravity

And when everyone's positive thought
optimistic sentiment becomes nothing
empty words on a sinking float

As you find that promises they made
were never really promises, after
which you are told, life just goes on.

And as one sinks a little deeper into
darkness surrounded by the Devils cloak
preparing his jaws for his final bit.

A little flicker from a little heart as fragile
as a candle in the storm, but as
as a tenacious  Ox or Elephant.

Says why don't we make darkness our home
As we learn the beauty of becoming forgotten
driftwood floating in the ocean.

So that is what I did I simply
made darkness my home.

Living through my  life
Swimming up stream
My mind smashing  
Against Rocks and Rocks
As I am rejected and rejected
As am constantly
thrown back and back  
Again and again  

As I am a small fish weighed down
By the cranking cogs  
that compress and jam
For in my mechanical mind
I  carry the scales
Of past and future
Success and failure

But as I slip  into
My silvery salmon body
I release the many  battles
Fought within  
As positive and negative
Are both rejected
For I seek the silent
Narrow path  

Freed from my ego
Rocks make no impression
As all dissolves away
And I feel the rush so lush  
Of my white  wonderful stream
As I effortlessly bounce
And bounce up stream  

I leap and reach
Once more I stretch
But once again
I am defeated
This time  landed
Devoured and massacred
By the great grizzly bear
For he has his
scrumptious feast
My life no more
My purpose complete
For all my failures
Feed the world

But then I discretely whisper
In to the ears of fate
There is so so much more  
Than just me
What about  
ME
and me
And me and me
As a thousand I's collect
Within my flashing soul
As I feel my heart sparkle and shine  
As it teams with many glittering Salmon
As a giant school  gathers
  
I feel the rush and rush
As the many break through
The gateways of my heart
As I glide on their force
For you cannot conquer
The many that live in me
My heart thrills with its spills
As I leap and leap
The white water gushes
My heart rushes
And I sparkle in the sun
For I feel so free
Letting go into my silver stream
For  I can almost fly

Living within nature pursuit
Sheltered in the salmon stream
We can all surf our way
UP STREAM

Cheap is what they call me
as the play their game of
parse the parcel with
laughter and a chuckle.

Walking with a sleepy smile
in my waking dream
an inner nightmare
I cannot scream

Needing some company
I sell my body, accelerating
into a black hole as I look
for another soul.

An abandoned child
who has no father
waiting for a missing piece
to fill an empty space

Feeling invaded has become my
normal as I hide a million wounds
in the camera.

As the audience
becomes my shelter
bright lights are my protection

Always lived in a glass room
the whole world looking in
as my sense of boundaries
disappear trampled on.

As I sometimes find a full on
invasion like carpet bombing
much easier than a more
secret drone intrusion.

Images taken passed on
like domino's falling
spread like butter across
the internet for digestion.

I some how wish i had boundaries
that there was someone who could
help me rebuild them.
  
But maybe that is not me
maybe it is true what they say
maybe i am ...........

Me and my dreams
Super hero's we are
Sailing on surf boards
Gliding high up in the sky
How we dare to fly
With all our beautiful caps
Rippling in different shapes
Hanging still in the air
Outside time and space
We float up in outer space
As we all gain pace
As the super hero's we are

Detached from reality
Broken away form the world
As I am completely free
To dream , what ever maybe
Anything rich and creamy
Perfect job , Beautiful wife
A lovely house what ever
For I  totally fly free
As Super hero' we be
In this limitless world of dream
I sew a master piece in my heart

Living in this blissful
Landscape of dreams
I feel a lively growth of greens
As I drift and trickle
Lightly down a stream
So far away where
Boundaries melt away
In a dream like joy
I delve into dreamy juice

Flying freely in the streams
Of all our dreams
Where anything is possible
We find that we just never
Know what might come true
Especially when we fly
high up in the sky
As the super hero's
We really are

Please do not loose heart Scotland
Though feelings maybe strong
As hearts spill a gentle tear
For you are strong

You may feel a need to weep
As we sold out cheap
But let your tears now fall
For they will feed our
Scottish soil

Do not be angered by hearts
That can only hear cha-ching
And forgotten the ring
Of the Scottish highland sing

For now is the time
To love each other thickly
Holding together now richly
As we rise together like cream
For this is more than a dream

Though we failed to break free
We will keep growing like a tree
And our Stag will bring a reason
A new spring rutting season
To stop English  butting in

Though we wasted chances
Only kissed then missed
We know it is wrong
So we will come back strong

Do not think we will finish on this note
Or that you have wasted a vote
For our lady Scotland
Has heard our every yes
each delighting her
Like the opening
And discovery of
A fresh new flower

Caught in the snares
of beauty
I am a willing victim

As I lie next to Tate
Naked in many ways

As I am lost in every
Curve and lock of hair

             As she proclaims
               " YOU ARE ****
                  YOU ARE **** "

I paint over my nerves
with directionless words
of work and horses

Returning  to me a bright smile
with  sparkling eyes
she climbs onto me  giggling

          And says  
           "YOU LOVE HORSES
             YOU ARE A GOOD PERSON
              AND YOU ARE **** "

Dumbfounded by her words
But i feel no need to question  
For i am wiery soul that seeks rest
So gather your lies around me
So I may shelter in your branches    

Tell me your
       Sweet lies
Take my money
  I will close my eyes

As I bury my sight like
A mole in his hole
A dark insecurity
Eyes shut like a baby mouse
Not ready for the world

But on opening my eyes
I see her unmoved
Striking eyes fixed on me
Wide open like nets
As though collecting
All my past mistakes
Grinding them into two shiny pearls
As she looks back into me            

And with a russian accent she says
              " I  NO LIE
                  I  NO LIE"
she shakes her head
                "  YOU ARE **** "
Fumbling hands reach out of my heart
Wishing to catch such words
But they are spilled
As my disbelieveing soul
Is already full with  rejection
Mine or the worlds
It has all become blurred

But I care not for my heart rests easy
As I am filled with  gratitude
Letting  my Love just flow and flow

I am the queen of the sea
And when you swim with me
Hightoned is your awareness
As my super senses spill over
And danger catapults you
Into higher states
As I hunger for life
With a ferocious appetite
As my jaws propel me forward
As I bit into life I clamp
Myself into this precious world
loosing teeth as I bit
With a detailed precision
But the power of my hunger
Replaces tooth after tooth
Feeding desire I swim freely

All flee from me as they
Build higher and higher
Towers far above
But no one escapes me
As I will always swim faster
For I am the Queen of death
They only wish to meet me
In a cozy bed space ,a sleepy place
Unaware that they are even alive
But they miss the marriage
Of life and death
As I am both black and white
And offer Life and death
As I am the GREAT WHITE

My eyes black holes of nothingness
Swallow the world of life
So dare you stare into me
Eyes , a bottomless abyss
As I am the black sphinx
So I hope you have done
Your homework like
Jesus and budha before you
As I am the ultimate test
The perfect mirror
And most honest voice
As only the biggest souls can
Look and find the bottom of me
As they transcend all
Because in their death
I offer them life

Great are those who stare at me
Greater are those who look and took
For death is my very nature
As my being will feed  
On  your ego with
Every day you stay near
Often hunting alone as the
World see's  me as a devil
But I truly only follow my nature
For if i am not supposed
To be this way
Then why did GOD make me
The world tries to shoulder me
With expectation
But I swiftly pass through
As I have no shoulders
For I am totally free
As I glide and float
Never hurried but always fast
As I Go for it and Go for it
No shackles on me
I am just free

No where is the marriage
And spiraling dance
between Life and death
Seen so clearly than in the
Black eye of the GREAT WHITE

My God My Master
How it feels so good
To come back to you
With a melting heart
And movement back in
My remembering chest  
Let us together stir those
   waters once again  

You know I have been
Timidly anxiously hiding
Waiting for all your wroth
To repay all my anger
When I cursed everything
From above and higher
  
but I can only hear your
Chuckle and laughter

You know you made
me look a fool
used me like a tool
As you took all my
egocentric narcissistic vanity
My personal power obsessed
Western mentality
And tricked me like
A red rag too a bull

But now I know what
you were trying to do
As I see what you have
been trying to show

And i am really glad you took
the time because now I feel
So much
CLOSER
IN LOVE
with you

With the knowledge of celebration
I gaze into night skies
Slipping into a vast black nothingness
But there are  no stars which sparkle in me
As I wonder how a life
Which began so centered
And carried such conviction
Sailing towards success and freedom
Finds itself scattered  like drift wood
Across many shores

Deep inside my being lives
A brave young Knight , on a quest
As he strides with purpose
Of to slay the Red Dragon
That hoards boundless wealth

Back on the outside I puff in displeasure  
As i guess its a masked ball for me
As I placing a smile on my gristly face
And wear my orange chorus party coat

The young Knight reaches the
Great Red Dragon's kingdom
And finds him  deep in his lair
With beautiful bright  red scales that glitter
As he restlessly guards  his huge  treasure

Back at the party I force my demeanor
But like a iron breast plate my heart
Weighs heavy underneath my
Orange chorus coat
As I am split in two

In the lair the dragon breaths out
A both tantalizing and ferocious firey focus
Warning the Knight well away
As the dragon holds on and holds on
As he knows the world seeks  his treasure
But deep down ,  he is divided as an
Imprisoned part  longs for the sky
And to stretch his wings

Back at the party I am an onlooker
Feeling numb and divided as
Though my past had placed
One of my feet in the grave

At the lair the Dragon remains
Torn between his treasure and the sky
But in a moment of madness
He takes flight leaving his treasure behind

At the party i accidentally catch a young ladies eye
And for a moment my stone heart is pliable like butter
As I feel a new relaxed rigor in my stride

The dragon looks down and see's his treasure disappear
And feels naked like they were ripping his cloths away
But carries on flying high searching the sky

Back at the party , I am totally let go
As my heavy heart drops away
And I dissolve into my ORANGE CHORUS COAT
I become the very essence of party
I feel light as through the wind blew  
Through me and I am lifted
Sparkling wine and stars shine

Sailing through the skies the
RED DRAGON returns to his castle
To find an amazing  surprise
As all the people through out the land
Now worship him and have put on a
Celebration and  great feast in his honor
And all promise to forever share their bounty
And bring many gifts to the
GREAT RED DRAGON  

Back at the party I gain a new lease of life
As though I had gained great  red wings
As I feel the space of my inner being fly

Softly closing my eyes
As I let
The world depart

Gently close my hands
Upon my heart

As I cradle
Lord Jesus Christ
In my palms

I hold him
So very near
So very dear

Lord

In your strength
I feel so weak

So help me daily
To take a careful step

As I care for you
You care for me

So please
Draw me close
Into
Love for you

For
LORD
I love you
SO

ANOTHER PRAYER I WROTE A LONG TIME AGO

Please great mother
Help us to feel
And know the female energy
From your womb we are all born
As you are lovingly
Creating everything
And I realize
You give such unconditional Love
What ever we do
You want us to be Happy
And help me to be a happy
Grateful child of yours
Who shares his toys willingly
With all our brothers and sisters
Thank you so much
For giving me this Life

AMEN

Please do not tell me
I am a God because I
tell you I am only human.
And I am really pleased
that your God really loves
you.
Make a wish and he will
supply you lovely job, beautiful
wife he will give you  
And how it all really worked
out for you and your respectful
family

Look I really am delighted for
all that has been given you.
But can you please please
go over there because we
are drowning over here.
And do not say we do not
paddle because we really
do so very fast.
And we are still sinking not
sure how long we can last.

I know by the look in your
face that you do not trust
that I am sincere when I
say I am joyous for your
happiness.
But what I will say is that
I am really trying
And when you wear your
happiness like a golden robe
I really try hard not to pull
on you.
As am sincere when I say
I want to be a good friend
as you seem so much better

They say knock and he will
come and I am glad your
God came.
But my hands gone numb
I now having bruised
and bleeding knuckles
and no one came.

I am truly really happy
for you but please
Remember some of us
are still drowning

To my dear Kay
You hold me up
After a long day
As you speak from
So far far away
It is as though
It was only yesterday

If only I could
hold you tonight
It would be with
such a delight
You would make my
life a great play
So come without delay
I ask you pretty please
you **** little tease

And let your heart
open up to me
And tell me what
You want to see
You may think me
A silly little cheese  
But I will shock
you with a squeeze

How I so adore
The tiger's tempers roar
releasing you to soar
How this fruitful fire
helps you to aspire
capturing all my desire
And remember when
the day is dawning
I will be totally
naked in the morning

As the song of Scotland
starts to sing
All sounds of fear muffled
By our resonating hearts
For she is the silver stream
The babbling brook
There is no need
For a crook
As we sink in
The silver stream

We do not question
The English heart
For she loves
Our very own flower
But while clasping and
Gripping our thistle
So very tightly
She remains so confused
By the prickles of
Angst and hate
When our open hands
Remain without a blemish
As we do not hold your
Precious Rose

As it is the open hand
That offers the way
And the integrity of nations
Is like the purity
Of a precious stone
As we delve into
Ruby and sapphire
We see ourselves clearly
Letting the other shine
We realize all boundaries
Are never the separations
Of men but gate ways to love
So breathing Scottish being
We all start seeing
Our great lady love
As we are high above
Flying like a dove

When deciding our future path
Seek within our Scottish being
And you will find she holds us tight
As we live in Scottish being
Foundations built in the eternal
We float freely together

The battle field of
My being never sleeps
Where sweet sugar from
My soul lives in trenches
As the battle  rages on
Bombarded by shells
My heart nests in bunkers
Where ears become death
With the sound of hatred

My heart consolidates its
Strength in the shared
Responsibility of war
As I fight for brother and sister
And honor all those
Who came before
Let no one die in vain
As the stillness in my center
Marches out like thunder
As armies are accessed
I fight the silent war

For my gentle acceptance is far
More bolder and carries greater
Power than you world
And my silence carries
Ferocious fires from
Many dragons
As my heart drinks the
Bitter taste of unfairness
And  sprinkles sugar
Making  lemonade

With the strength of
Charging Rhino
I fight the peaceful war
Sitting still and softly
I let nestle and rest
Upon my chest
Fear , anger and depression
Where they make a cosy nest
Fended of by fountain spring
My loving heart turns
The battle field green
As I fight the passive war

All dressed up for the ball
I remain locked away
From the dancing floor of love
Marooned on the side lines
As couples dance and swing
Within there completed circles
Am I to sing on the roof tops
Dance naked in the rain
What will it be
For them to see

As I silently beg
like a lost child
I wonder around a giant maze
Desperately looking for the center
And only find many dead ends
Searching with a fear
As a chasing Minotaur
Is on my back
As every romantic triumph
Dissolves into a chaotic car crash
I throw myself into
A swamp of disgust

I am the old romantic steam
Engine all run out of puff
Stationed on the platform of self
I am just a novel excursion
For the kind soul to play
Placed so so far away
In an antagonized frustration
I hammer the last nail into
The coffin of the other as all
Thoughts and dreams of a
Partner die buried in the ground
Bare foot on pebbles
I wobble in the thought
Of a life with aloneness

As many beasts surround me
Wishing to devour my happiness
Like a T-REX! I stand tall
And I gobble , them all ! up
YUMMY YUMMY
For my heart reins
Like a king over all
As it is my heart that sparkles
When the music plays
With many dashes and flashes
Fluctuating colors within my heart
I am a walking road show
A disco fever
With the Minotaur slain
I find the center of my maze

No longer at the mercy
Of the fickle other
Released from the confines
Of my political mind
A million jack in the boxes
Spring out of me
As I am surprised
By the many treasures
The Lord placed in me
As many ring and sing
All birds collect in me
In the end the old romantic
Finds his steam and iron strength
Puff puff puff into the country I chug
As i whined myself into Gods beauty

The death of the other
Can be the beginning
A deeper adventure
Into your sweet self
So off we all chug

I just want to say I love this site
whether i feel I have created some art
or just improved my head space
when I post a piece.
I love the the way support each other
through our emotions

There are words that haunt me
Which hide in the shadows
Under the bed
Or in the closet
And even when I bury my head
Sleep at the bottom of the bed

  Such words  

Are you really leaving
I thought we were going
To be together

"you   never     asked

      You never asked      Adam "

Such words rattle like
pebbles in a barrel
within my soul

Such words
Such crumbs

How I adore them
For they offer more light
In this night
Than any day has to offer

Such words

"Do you have feelings for
Me Adam because
I have feelings for you"

Then why must you go

Such words haunt me
Fill me and I long for them back  
For they carry time and space

I Love you
  I really Love you

"I Love you too
       I actually do
         I actually do

And for just one moment
Everything was just perfect

As she smiled
I gazed

How those words still haunt me

OUTSIDE VOICES

I have been troubled by
Many outside voices

who say "You did not try "

Please do not say I never tried
Because I saw her turmoil
I saw her tortured confusion
As she was pulled and twisted
From here to here by all
For am I to take part
Tie her in the racks
Stretch and contort her
For I could only Love her

Other voices thought me a looser

Said I must not falter
Like its all about
Bricks and mortar
Like how many houses
Do you own
Like how many lady's
Do you own

Other voices said "where is your strength
Where is your passion "

Well I say my inaction
Showed far more affection
And passion for her soul
And the strength to hold her
While not grabbing her
As she passed through
Took the roots from
A Thousand forests
As all my love is free
And I can only make her a nest
And offer her a place to erst

Other voices said " Spill the beans
to reclaim your power "

I see reclaim my power
So I may stand on a tower
While she slips into a whirlpool
Of contorted emotional chaos
I am sorry but I am not infected
With the human disease
POWER AND CONTROL
And is not inspired
To rip and tear
Even if women secretly declare
They like being dragged by their hair
If that is the way they choose
I guess I really do loose

For my love could only carry her through

But I say to all of this
It is the Love that lets go
Which lives the longest
As I still here her laughter
My LOVE will be felt long after

A PRAYER I WROTE A LONG TIME AGO

Lord can you help us
see everyday the Love
You put into your creation
Help us to learn from this
And help us to replicate it
In our daily lives
Help us to put more Love into
Our work and small creations
And lord help us to see
The great Love
The great Love , your son felt
The Love that inspired him
To sacrifice himself for our sins
And help us to learn from that
Help us to make small sacrifices
In our daily lives
Help us to see your Love and desire for
A relationship with us
And help us to have the same desire
For a relationship back
And finally help us to
Show your Love through giving

AMEN

Bereft of all dignity
Stricken with wounds of humiliation
My shield of honor ripped away
As I am trampled under foot
And dragged for all to see
Bellowing screams steal
The dark caverns of my belly
Like a thousand lost souls
Leaving my mind destitute

Fearing the worst
And Sensing the forces of pride gathering
As he searches for an allie
The soul cries out
NOT TONIGHT , NOT TONIGHT
The soul sinks into solitude
And prays for silence
But all is lost
As pride rings the trumpets of war
For freedom has joined his side

The heart splits in two
Half a heart cries for lost love
All dreams like caged birds set free
Released into the vast blue skies
By the powers of freedom
The soul watches powerless
As they drift away
While the other half roars
like 10 Hungary Lions

Pride picks up his shield of honor
And defiantly stairs
Into the eyes of fate
Carried forward on the chariots of freedom
That know no boundary
Between life and death
The enemy shudder
As with his last breath
He spits in there face

Broken free he now floats
Freely , on the cool winds
With all the caged birds
He has now set free

To the girl that never came
I would like
You to know
I am still waiting

They told me
Something better
Around the corner
Is just waiting
But she never came

I have been waiting
By the window
Around the corner
On  the phone
And on my own
But she never came

I wish she only knew
I have been weeding
A very sacred place
For our love to grow
On a daily base

As hope ran away
Some where dark
I would rather , not say
Did she ever hear
The song of my
Humming bird heart

Now lost its voice
I wish she would
Consider me a choice
bended  knees  
I am still asking

Oh God
My friend is now helping
Dignity needs saving
Catch me God
My heart is breaking

As I am still waiting  
For the girl
That never came

As the Lord , now speaks
Your the grace I give this earth
Fore that you must be shore
Your the gracious loving child
I will always much adore
Bringing in new Kingdoms
Of peace love and joy
For this you must always know
Forever I will be near

She maybe very wild
But at the same time
So very mild
Like a towering volcano
She breaths fire every where
So never try to engulf her
Or even try to solve her
Breaking in  new pathways
So everyone can see
For she is the girl
I most cherish
For everyone must do

As she stands there all free
Flames bellow from her heart
As she rockets through the sky
Propelled by her own desire
The Lord feels her inspire
And sings to her go higher
Great companions they become
Burning through the land
She leaves inspiration all around
Crossing nations like a forest fire
We can only stand and watch

Many men try and chain her
Wrapping ropes up all around her
But as they will all see
She can only be free
Turning chains into charcoal
With the fires of her heart
And with her boiling lava
She creates earthquakes
In our soul
But grateful we remain
As she is our new teacher
We only know and love

Our time maybe quite brief
Just moments at a time
But it is always seems so eternal
when it is only you and me

A PRAYER I WROTE WHEN I WAS YOUNGER

Dear almighty God
Could you please help us
To find your Love
We know you are have Love
A great Love
Far beyond our comprehension
But please help us to comprehend
And feel your Love
In not just the beautiful things
But in angry wounded souls to
And more importantly help us
To express your Love
As we know through  
The expression of your Love
The world maybe healed
And our hearts purified
Lord we pray that you may
Wrap your Love around this world
Through our hearts and deeds
And we pray that your Love
May drive out all the fear in Mankind
And bring us peace
Lord with your great Love
May you rule

AMEN

Come on Labour,
let the sounds
Of your gentle chimes,
of destiny ring

Drown out those drums,
beaten by over privileged
men.

Who bath in a nostalgia ,
for a glory that has never been.
Who have never seen combat
let alone
the true
HORROR
of a ****** battle
or world war.

As white strings are pulled
we hear a sinister song.

So let us all Roar with a different
sound, with a heart in its center
and hope all around.

As all they really need to know
is whether inside or out
we Labour,

Have Their Back.

Time now is to dispel
all economic myth
the fear of Apocalypse

And unearth a
Utopian Dream

High above
                                   With a silent watch

                                         I feel the quivers
                                                   of
                                        twists and turns

                                          My unsettled
                                           body parts

                                    I try to sing a gentle song
                                         to reach far below

                                     But my voice so silent
                                        my arms so short
                                    
                                          I cannot reach
                                    the anguish beneath

                                            My only desire
                                                To steady  
                                         such uncertain steps
                  
                                       That tremble bellow
                                             would yell
                                           if I only could
                                            
              ­                          Be soft, be silent
                                          
                     ­                     And like a bird

                                          Stay connected
                                           But also Free

                                     And just let that Future go