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Dec 2017 · 456
Today
AD Sifford Dec 2017
I wouldn’t ask You to forgive
if I thought that I was worth it
Shut You out, turn around,
I do my own and I feel worthless
But I’m holding to the promise
that I know I don’t deserve
You sent your Son to pay the price for me,
and knowing this has changed my world

Yet it’s not a one-side deal;
Christ washed the blood that I have spilled
but You require that I follow
and obey, to know your Grace
You came to make me not condemned,
so You said, “Go and sin no more.”
If I can’t turn and follow You,
then what was it all for?

Why can’t I give you just a speck
of the wages that I owe
I could never pay You back
I’m a sinner, and You know
You didn’t come to heal the healthy
You didn’t die to pay the wealthy
You came to heal a sinner’s heart,
to wash all sin out from the start

One thing You ask in return,
one tiny little payment:
that I would repent from the life that wasn’t life
and cast it to the grave, spent
That I would rise anew and worship You
That through You I’d be remade
So why is it that I refuse
to give back some of what You paid?

When does apology lose its taste?
Like this I’ll never see your Face
Lord see this darkness in my heart
Cast it out with shame
Fill me with your holy light
Take my lust away
and renew me,
restore me today
|Written Saturday, March 24, 2012|

© 2017 A.D. Sifford
I'm okay with you sharing my poems, but I ask that you show courtesy. Please be honest about the authorship by attributing it to my name. Thank you,
- Sifford
Dec 2017 · 971
Take it.
AD Sifford Dec 2017
Take it
where I cannot go
Take it
where I cannot follow
Bury it
in the ground,
far below
where it can't be found

Burn it, Lord
all to ash
Pick me up
like shattered glass
Find the pieces
here in me
Take me, now
and crucify me

Because I can't do this
on my own
You know that
You've seen that
You see this
You see me now
in the ground,
dying,
not breathing,
lying far beneath,
and grasping
just for air to breathe

Well this dirt on me
has made me see
exactly what I need

So take it, Lord,
all away
Wake me up
to a brand new day
I'm holding up
a yoke of shame
Replace it, God
Don't leave me the same

This load's too much
for me to bear
You see the Truth
in every tear
But I can't turn,
so please come here
And take me to a place
where I can look You in the face
And feel the comfort of your Grace
Because

I long to crucify this sin
I hope that You will take me in
I want to take it
to the grave,
throw it down,
and be remade
(I've tried, I've tried, I've tried)
But I can't do it,
not alone

So I ask You now,
please,
once and for all,
to intercede
for me
I’m asking You, Lord,
please,
just *take it
|Written March 24, 2012|

**Story**
Still religious and still struggling with addiction at the time this poem was written, it was a prayer of desperation.

_______

© 2017 A.D. Sifford
I'm okay with you sharing my poems, but I ask that you show courtesy. Please be honest about the authorship by attributing it to my name. Thank you,
- Sifford
Nov 2016 · 571
Nothing to Love
AD Sifford Nov 2016
You beat me and bruised me
You left me broken
You drained the blood from me,
Cut my heart open
You hung me up
And watched me die
You spit in my face
You laugh while I cry

I want to still love you
But there's nothing to love
You burned most of my heart
Now there's just not enough
But amidst my pain
I start to remember
That I've done my own part
To kindle embers

Still, the fact remains:

You beat me and bruised me
You left me broken
You drained the blood from me,
Cut my heart open
You hung me up
And watched me die
You spit in my face
You laugh while I cry

You did what I did
To my Lord, my King
Despite all of it
Our God still loves me
So I will not hate you
When there's nothing to love
I'll follow the way
Of my good Savior above

For amidst my resentment
I can hear Jesus
Heart pounding, I hear Him
Saying to us:

"
You beat me and bruised me
You left me broken
You drained the blood from me
Cut my heart open
You hung me up
And watched me die
You spit in my face
You laugh while I cry*

But still I will always
Love you, O child
Of the glorious Father above
Yes I will still love you
When there's nothing to love
So when others hurt you
Show them how to know love"

God said to me today:

"When they beat you and bruise you
And leave you broken
When they drain the blood from you
Just keep your heart open
And teach them how to love

Children, don't hate each other
Just love one another
Always, don't hate each other
Just love one another

Even when there's nothing to love"
|Written by early 2012|
(possibly written Oct. 3, 2011)

**Story**
Like many of my 2011 & 2012 poems, this was written amidst pain from a devastating heartbreak. I'd started developing some resentment and anger in the pain at this point, and began this poem by simply describing how I felt emotionally, through the imagery of physical torture.
I was very religious, and partway through this poem I began "hearing the voice of God" (as I used to be trained to often interpret many spiritual thoughts and emotions) and the direction of the poem changed, as I remembered the Christian conviction to have love and forgiveness for others because I myself am not perfect and yet had been allegedly forgiven even by my perfect savior. The imagery quickly shifted in my mind as I realized how well the chorus I had written applied to the image of Jesus being crucified. My emotion had changed from anger in the beginning, to joy at the end. I truly think these values of humility and forgiveness are some of the best effects of Christianity. That is a lesson I hope to learn more of in the future. It has helped me much in the past to be a better person.
To clarify, Christians believe that everything each individual does wrong, every sin, contributes in someway to why Jesus allegedly had to sacrifice himself. Additionally, shame of my personal struggles was still a pretty heavy weight on me at this time.

**Trivia**
If I recall correctly, this is one of the only poems I've ever written pretty much straight through, in one go. Eventually a few subtle changes were made, but this poem has essentially always been completed in about the same form from the minute I finished, and I finished it without stopping from the moment I started. It's practically pure free-flowing thought as I had it that night, captured in text.

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© 2017 A.D. Sifford
I'm okay with you sharing my poems, but I ask that you show courtesy. Please be honest about the authorship by attributing it to my name. Thank you,
- Sifford
Dec 2015 · 519
When I Write Poetry...
AD Sifford Dec 2015
Normally when I write, I dump my mind upside down with the lid off and let my thoughts spill out onto the page. But when I write poetry, I pour my thoughts into an inkwell, then, with a fine-tipped pen, I dip into the inkwell and obtain a small amount of my ink on the end. I then use careful calligraphy to write out my thoughts in the proper way. It takes more time, and each time I stop writing to dip the pen back into the inkwell, God has room to speak some of his own words into my thoughts, so the writing improves throughout, until by the end it's no longer my own thoughts being used for the ink. I simply write God's words with my own hand, in his language: poetry.
|Written January 1, 2012|

I wanted to keep my posts in chronological order as best as I could! My last few posts have been out of order, and I would have corrected the order if possible upon finding more poems in-between or coming across more correct dates, but, alas, I cannot fix them, because Hello Poetry offers neither a way to re-order poems, nor even to delete them once posted. Despite all I like about Hello Poetry, those are definitely complaints of mine. I find it very surprising and unfortunate that we can't delete a post! It really is like using ink :s

© 2017 A.D. Sifford.
I'm okay with you sharing my poems, but I ask that you show courtesy. Please be honest about the authorship by attributing it to my name. Thank you,
- Sifford
Dec 2015 · 665
Turn Away
AD Sifford Dec 2015
Do you remember
when we first laughed together?
I liked your smile
Something inside me changed
when I saw your face
And all I remember thinking
was just, “Please don’t turn away.”

When we first met
I thought that I’d met perfection
You made me feel
something so much more real
than anything that I’ve ever felt
for any other girl that I have ever seen
I knew right then that I could never try to dream up
One with more beauty
And I remember wishing
You and I would be together
When my heart beat, I swear I could hear
Could hear the thunder

Do you remember?
We were laughing together
I loved your smile;
it would take me away to a better place
We locked eyes; I was barely breathing
I thought, “I'll never turn away."

Because you make me feel
something so much more real
Than anything that I’ve ever felt
For any other girl that I have ever seen.
I knew right then that I could never dream up
One with more beauty
And I remember wishing
You and I would be together
When my heart beat, I swear I could hear
Could hear the thunder

I still remember
When we could laugh together
I miss your smile
Those days feel so far away, so misplaced
They’re gone and I’m left here thinking:
“Just why’d you turn away?”

Well those days are gone away
Those days are gone away
It doesn’t matter what I say,
now, all those days are far away
And they are never coming back,
I couldn’t keep you from turning away

Now I’m just keeping pace
While memories fade away
Surviving day by day
Since the day you turned away
Tears fall for so long
And tears have dried away
But as the days go on
I’m just keeping pace
No longer asking why
I can’t forget your face
With few more tears to cry
I’m just keeping pace

With eyes filled
Heart peeled
Through the blur I can hardly see
Still I’m gazing at the memories
Each one multiplies the pain
But I just can’t turn away

I’ll always remember
At times I dream we’re together
I’ll never forget your smile
Because when I close my eyes to sleep,
I still see your face
I’m just left here thinking
About the day you turned away
|Written early 2012|

**Story**
I fell in love with a girl in the summer of 2011, and went through a heartbreak that devastated me and has affected me to this day. I don't want to share details, and you likely don't want to hear them.
During my final year of high school, I lost a friend I cared a lot about. I began writing an emotional song on my guitar about her, adding lyrics a bit at a time after I had the basic melody, starting with, "Do you remember...when we first laughed together?"
However, as I continued, ultimately the girl I was more deeply heartbroken over and the even more painful memories came heavily upon my mind, and I ended up writing the song about her. This is the original version of the lyric to that song.

**Trivia**
While I very much like the melody, and wish you could hear it, I have never been completely satisfied with all of the lyrics to this song, or even the title, and I consider it very much incomplete...kind of an indefinite WIP on standby.
I've switched titles a few times. Alternate titles I've considered include "The Thunder" and "Remember". I will eventually post a new incarnation of this lyric once I am satisfied and feel that it has arrived where I really want to take it.

© 2017 A.D. Sifford.
I'm okay with you sharing my poems, but I ask that you show courtesy. Please be honest about the authorship by attributing it to my name. Thank you,
- Sifford
Dec 2015 · 913
Real Value
AD Sifford Dec 2015
Hello beauties, my name is Austin D. Sifford.
If I may, please spare a moment;
I've prepared some needed words.
I'll get straight down to business,
and make short this introduction.
So if your ears are not too full
let them taste this sweet concoction:

So, I take care of my hair
Keep it cool, keep from frizzin'
I hit the gym five days of seven
Just the basics, not body-buildin'
I like my clothes, rock the shades,
but I've got a major question:
Who cares* what I look like,
Why's it matter what I'm wearin',
What good is outer style
If I'm a beast behind the skin?

Too many people, is the answer, I guess
I mean it's cool, right, everyone sins
But not to me, you see, I see it different
I strive my life to conquer sin
Why?
'Cause, listen: one Man didn't
He lived every second to please our Father
So don't you try to tell me we're Self-Pleasure's sons & daughters

Why you checkin' on externals
When the heart inside's infernal?
Now, God knows I love my beanie
But if I had myself a genie
I wouldn't be wishing for a cap
Or some Levis or the Lugz
I'd be wishing for a hand to hold,
Just some love, a friendly hug
For one to show me that they care
For a heart that's not afraid to dare
To be a better man within

I'd rather shine behind the skin

We don't need cash, and I don't want bling
No-- what we need, people, is a reason to sing
We need a Savior, man,
We need a bigger plan
I hope you'll understand this,
Guys, we've gotta take his hand

The world will never be happy
With shirts at three-hundred fifty
That ring may give you style
But what gives hope to your child?
Does your house? Does your car?
Do his toys? Or does his father?

Look I'm not trying to bother,
I ain't just here to preach
But you're flashing those ******, tanning at the beach
Ladies, where is your beauty?
On your skin? They just leech,
you know? Those guys all over,
they don't care about you,
just wanna know what you will do

It's time you wake up, and shake up
All this fake-up with your make-up
The jewel is in your heart,
and, girl, it's been there from the start

Look what Hollywood's paying, guys,
Now I'm not playing, right?

Now people are killing,
they're serial
While your just obsessing
with material

Hey media, whatchyoo saying'?
Sell your lies to the world
But I'M NOT PAYING

People, ask what matters here,
While you look in the mirror
Who's the preacher?
Go in deeper
You buy what they sell
You wear what they tell

But is it really worth it all
Is there Botox in Hell?

We've gotta ask ourselves
Really ask yourself
Where will I be taking
All these trends and this wealth?

What I'm saying: this is bogus
All this fashion hocus pocus
What you need is to refocus
And don't let society choke us

Now you've got an empty feeling
And your culture keeps on stealing
Your sinking deeper and deeper
While your cost just gets steeper

But wealth's not found inside your wallet
And it's about time someone called it
Happiness is only found when the masks all hit the ground
Don't live up to what they say,
You won't reach that anyway
The heart is what needs fixing
Not your hair, drop the bags
Tell the truth, show some love--
now that, my friends, that's swag

Let's get rich, people, let's get beautiful
Let's get real, and let's get valuable

Now listen to this, you People Mag
Seventeen, yo, this is rad:
Happiness is found one place
One thing will put a smile on that face,
All sorrow gone, without a trace
It's the love and the Truth
That will set you free
True class created you
Real value lives in me
| Written on, or sooner than, February 6, 2012 |

**Story**
I've never been popular. I'm also very short, so have often been made fun of as the small one. The weak one. And I've certainly never been popular with girls.
In high school, I began weightlifting, took a fitness & strength class, and did parkour. I started getting pretty muscular, and could impress guys in the weightroom who were way bigger than me, because of how much I could lift in comparison to my size and body-weight. I like to show off with backflips, handsprings, etc. A few girls were finally attracted to me. A female friend of mine said she liked how "buff" I was and that she was impressed. It felt good to finally have something, to finally not be the loser, I guess. To finally, maybe, be valuable in the eyes of some of my peers.
I found myself looking at my growing physique too much, and worrying about my hair too much...putting too much effort into making myself externally attractive.
I was a devout Christian at this time, and my constant attempt to grow spiritually and have a "relationship" with God really started to remind me that the outside isn't what matters, and isn't where my focus of improvement or of beauty should be. What I put the spotlight on for others to should, instead, be the things with real, lasting value.
While that stuff was in my mind during this time, the moment that actually sparked the poem was while talking with a friend (over text) whom I cared about like a sister. She was very insecure, and was reading Seventeen Magazine during our conversation, soaking up more destructive lies. My protective nature angered me for her sake and got me thinking about how the popular media has damaged us with its influence in all these ways, so I sat down and wrote this poem on the spot, after explaining to her why I wish she wouldn't read those. I then sent it to her. Her name's Markay.

**Trivia**
The intro was not written with the rest of the poem. I added it over a year later, on March 10, 2013.
I originally had this titled "True Value". My last line says "real value". Why did I then call the poem "true value"? Beats me.

© 2017 A.D. Sifford.
I'm okay with you sharing my poems, but I ask that you show courtesy. Please be honest about the authorship by attributing it to my name. Thank you,
- Sifford
Apr 2015 · 726
The Land Beyond
AD Sifford Apr 2015
The land beyond...
What lies out there?
What lingers, what dwells
Behind that veiling, icy air

My heart, curiously, draws near
As my feet stay their place
This cold window keeps me,
And, recreating my face
Like my own eerie shell
Looking coldly back at me,
The glass shows me myself,
And a world, wide and free

The land beyond...
What lies out there?
What journey awaits
Beyond that veiling, icy air

My life, there, is written,
In that novel land beyond
In that hazy world, uncharted,
Where my worries are all but gone
But it’s here that I remain
In the small, boxed-in cage
And it’s up to the Writer
When to turn the next page

Until then, the story waits
And I may not know destiny
I’ve never glimpsed fate
But the heart knows no lie,
Not of this, at any rate:
Its desire within,
The chapped thirst of the soul
lt just knows that it’s looking
For a new place to go

That land beyond...
What lies out there?
Well I may never know
But, well, I don’t really care

Because what if the longing, what if the dream,
What if the thirst,
Is not to know what it means?
Maybe the adventure,
The journey, the task,
Is not to know why, but simply to ask

A world lies ahead,
All the looking, the mystery,
And these few pages we’ve read
Herald something more interesting

We have not seen it all,
Explored what lies there beyond,
All we’ve to do now is begin
Cherish this page, and read on

And the pages beyond...
What’s written there?
The truth is, quite frankly,
I don’t know and don’t care
I’ll let the Writer turn the pages,
Let His words take me there
And I’ll just smile and read,
Breathing in the veiling, icy air
|Written December 5, 2011|

**Story**
My final year of high school, I did not have a class during the 5th class period. So, I spent my time in the library. Since I was in the deepest depression of my life that year due to heartbreak the previous summer, I was very contemplative. I listened to music, and thought. A lot.  I wrote a lot of poetry that year, and much of it turned out to be some of my very best. Our library had big windows across the entire wall. One day, I was looking out of that window, thinking about life, and my potential future. I was very curious and drawn to the beauty of an icy fog, visible out of the distant bluffs surrounding the town. It made the land beyond seem like a mystical, mysterious place, similar to my own future.

**Trivia**
The Land Beyond (alternate title: Unread) is one of my favorite poems of mine to date.

© 2017 A.D. Sifford.
I'm okay with you sharing my poems, but I ask that you show courtesy. Please be honest about the authorship by attributing it to my name. Thank you,
- Sifford
Apr 2015 · 467
Waiting For The Mender
AD Sifford Apr 2015
So there's this girl...

And her name is Misery.
_____

My heart was boxed
I had hid the key
Until the lock she picked
granted entry

Her hands were warm
When they grabbed my heart
But when she released,
The thing fell apart

I found some pieces,
Bound them all
My love looked away,
With no care at all

So here I am,
Still gathering pieces
Red, ripped, and torn,
Please hold them, Jesus

All it takes
Is the thought of her
To see her smile
Through teary blur
To hear her voice,
So sweet and warm,
Throws me right back out
Into the raging storm
Of thundering pain,
And pouring tears
O, if love can die,
It must take years

So here I am,
Still scrambling for shreds
Of my cold, beating heart,
Torn, ******, and red

But I know there's a Mender
That will stitch every thread
Of my heart back to whole
For I trust what God said
I'll wait for a Mender
Who'll bring peace to my soul
At God's nod, she'll come fill this
Jagged, gaping black hole

In time, He'll send a Mender
Who will heal every wound
She will mend with a smile
That's as bright as the moon
In time, He'll send a Mender
To repair every seam
When I gaze into her eyes
I will witness Heaven's gleam
|Written November 29, 2011 or sooner|

**Story**
In the summer of 2011, when I was 16, almost 17, I fell in love with a girl who broke my heart. Deep pain lasted for years. During the time I wrote this poem, I believed I could hear the voice of God. "Inspired" poetry directly from the real-time flow of emotions was something I interpreted as Him communicating with me. Through some feeling or thought during prayer prior to these events, I believed God had promised me a wife, a soul mate whom I have always longed & hoped for. I believed that even though I'd fallen for this girl in a deeper way than I ever have for anyone else, God would send someone else who was a more perfect match, and in the end my wounds would be healed, while I likewise healed my soul mate's, and a Job-style happy ending would take place. I wrote this poem in faith of that perceived promise.

**Trivia**
Stanza 4 originally read differently. I don't remember exactly how it went, but after

*So here I am,
Still gathering pieces*

there were lines saying my heart was

*     ...like Reese's
Peanut butter cups
That have been squeezed too much*

This partially related to the fact that the common mispronunciation of "Reese's" candy has always bugged me, and through rhyming with "pieces" I may cause the reader to utter the correct pronunciation. Alas!
Upon reading my poem, my Mom told me that the image of melting chocolate in the hands was too light, and contrasted in an almost silly way with the relatively dark and sorrowful tone of the rest of the poem. I looked over it and agreed, ultimately shortening that stanza and changing the final lines to

*Red, ripped, and torn,
Please hold them, Jesus*

which I liked better.

More recently, when approaching this poem to add onto here, I noticed that, in accordance with my Mom's evaluation, stanza 3 could also use a change for the same reason. The second line therein originally read,

*Glued them all*

and so I recently had it in my mind to change it, too. I ended up changing it upon posting it here now, to

*Bound them all*

Which also holds imagery of guarding my heart from others, while especially illustrating the result keeping my heart in a state of locked, or bound attachment to, and longing for her specifically, and my long-held hope that I could still have a chance with her some day. Unable to move on and not wanting to, I bound my heart to her for too long. I still have difficulty with letting go of my desire for here completely, and my sorrowful longing, even now, nearly four years later.

© 2017 A.D. Sifford.
I'm okay with you sharing my poems, but I ask that you show courtesy. Please be honest about the authorship by attributing it to my name. Thank you,
- Sifford
Apr 2015 · 447
Too Far Gone
AD Sifford Apr 2015
Sometimes we all just feel like giving up
Sometimes we feel like we're just too far gone
To be welcome by the One who made it all
So far we fall

But the truth is He loves us through it all
And the truth is we can never fall
Where we are too far gone
Where we're too far gone
You're never too far gone

Sometimes the walls press in on us too hard
Sometimes we break into the dark beyond
And when life is hitting harder than you're strong
It won't let up
But don't give up!

The truth is He loves us through it all
And the truth is we can never fall
Where we are too far gone (gone)
Where we're too far gone (gone)
You're never too far gone
|Written October 30, 2011|

I never actually finished this one. The second verse was a temporary placeholder, and after the second chorus there was supposed to be a bridge, which I never wrote, then a final chorus. Overall I was never satisfied with it, and as it stands the lyrics are far too shallow for my taste.
While Too Far Gone is based in my former religious beliefs, perhaps I'd like to reincarnate the root idea into a new song sometime in the future. But this particular version is no longer at work-in-progress status, so I'm posting it in accordance with my goal of tracking a viewable journey of myself through poetry over the years.

© 2017 A.D. Sifford.
I'm okay with you sharing my poems, but I ask that you show courtesy. Please be honest about the authorship by attributing it to my name. Thank you,
- Sifford
Dec 2014 · 798
Then
AD Sifford Dec 2014
Remember us?
Remember then?
Those days we were the best of friends
Our hearts were close
And our bond was strong
But placement of my hope was wrong

Remember us?
Remember when?
I thought our love would never end
You took my heart
Made me believe
But now it's hard to even see

Once you felt
And once you cared
What of the passion that we shared?
That love is gone
No you and me
I think of you and I can't breathe
I've lost a precious part of me

Losing you has always been
Among my greatest fears
To have what you and I had then
I yearn with every tear
I miss the tie that we had then
And think of what we could have been
I love you now
As I did then
For you were my most cherished friend

Now, as I try to get my head clear,
I'm hopelessly wishing those days were still here
Each thought of you is
A brand new tear
While I'm left alone wishing
That you were still here
|Written August 4th, 2011|

"Then" is a rewrite of "Faded", based this time on a real and very personal experience.


© 2017 A.D. Sifford.
I'm okay with you sharing my poems, but I ask that you show courtesy. Please be honest about the authorship by attributing it to my name. Thank you,
- Sifford
Aug 2014 · 1.9k
Deep In Grace
AD Sifford Aug 2014
I don't really know what to say
But I've got to say something
Because I'm buried deep in your grace
It's piling up on me
'Cause time and time again I sin
But you've forgiven me
You do not condemn me

Lord I don't really know what to do
So again I come to You
In hopes that you will give me the strength
I need to finally change
'Cause I'm drowning in this sin
This sin that's holding me
God come and set me free

It's time for me to be the man
You created me to be
O God, I need You; take my soul
It's in You I shall be free
I'd die to live for You, My King
And I'll do anything
Just take my heart and dig me out
From this sin that's holding me

I don't really know what to say
But I'm crying out to You
And I will do whatever it takes
Lord, bring me home to You
God cleanse my heart and wash my stains
O, make this spirit new

'Cause here I am, deep in your grace
Just crying out to You
From deep, I call to You,
God make this Spirit new

My merciful, loving God
So deep, I long for You
|Written 2011--minor edits carried over from song version, made May, 2013|

"Deep In Grace" was written on the same day, and the same two papers, as "One Click". For more background information on these poems, see my collection page Ignite, and the poem "One Click" (my second most recent self-written post before this one). These poems birth out of the same time period in my life and struggle, and follow closely after my Ignite collection.
God bless, and may this poem affect you in a positive way, and stir your affection for our Savior, and Creator, Jesus, The LORD, our God, as I certainly hope it does.


© 2017 A.D. Sifford.
I'm okay with you sharing my poems, but I ask that you show courtesy. Please be honest about the authorship by attributing it to my name. Thank you,
- Sifford
Aug 2014 · 911
Posion-seed
AD Sifford Aug 2014
Doubt is the most poisonous of all seeds
It has the power to destroy everything you have ever known
And I am in the midst of it

God, please help me
Lead me to the doors of your salvation--
Up the steps of your mercy,
Into the Abode of your love,
That I might abide there within it

Call me by the name of your Child
and let that title never be revoked
Never again
If it ever was, or ever has been

Let me live securely in you forever
All the days of my life
Forever, then forever more

Wrapped by your presence,
Held by your grace,
And standing on the truth of your Word,
The Lamb,
Jesus, and in his Name Alone,
Yours, God,
I pray Amen, Amen, and Amen

All power, and glory,
and honor, and praise,
Forever and ever,
Then forever more
To my Savior, my King, and my God
|Written & posted August 26th, 2014|

Normally I go in order of date written, but this little bonus poem is one I posted on the day I wrote it. The usual chronological order picks up again right after this one.


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May 2014 · 1.5k
One Click
AD Sifford May 2014
One click was all it took
And I was hooked
Once glance, yeah just one look
And my faith was shook
One sin, my world caved in
Flooding in with water to my chin
And I still can't believe it all came down
With one click

And the devil said to me,
"Boy, you belong to me
And you'll never be free
Your heart is bound to me with

One click" was all it took
And I was hooked
Once glance, yeah just one look
And my faith was shook
One sin, my world caved in
Flooding in with water to my chin
And I still can't believe it all came down
With one click

Now God I'm on my knees
For the millionth time I plead
Do not abandon me
Pour your light down on me

One man is what it took
It's in your book
A lamb who had not sinned
One cross, his blood was lost
But you raised Him up again
One hope is all I have
And I am glad
That You are the God You are
Because I know that by your strength I'll overcome
That once click
|Written 2011|

I thought of myself as a "good" Christian boy. I'd loved God my whole life. Never let a cuss word come to my lips, opposed every kind of evil, and loved for good to triumph in all things. I wanted God's way--his Will to be done.
It all came down with one click of the mouse. MY sense of innocence--along with my misplaced pride--was broken. Instantly I was ensnared by a new beast I never knew or could have imagined lived within me. I became addicted to *******, a slave to all available forms of lust. I was a sinner, fully realized. I tasted death and slept with it. And some point after that breaking point, I finally truly understood the Love of the God who yet pursued me, and offered me freedom, grace, and forgiveness. It was then I learned his love. Then I began to be truly humbled. Then I learned to love others. And then that I realized just what Christ has truly done for me--for you...for us all.
He taught me how to take hold of the freedom from sin, the freedom that He purchased for us by taking our place on the cross. The cross, where horizontal met vertical, heaven met earth, righteousness and sin, God and man collided.

Though scars remain, as do struggles, and temptations, and weakness, healing and growth, maturity and refining do come through Him.

I was freed from a daily, 2+ year addiction, about 3 years ago. Do I still slip up? Yes. Am I perfect? Not even close. But God reminds me of my dependence on Him, shows me his faithfulness through me, grants me more strength as I grow into it and learn, and I become better, slowly, all the time. There are slips and backslides, but where I lose footing once, God brings me a greater number steps forward.
Maturity is a slow thing. Faithfulness is formed through years of fire. But it all works for the better in the end.

And through my experiences, addiction, depression, brokenness, shame, and hopelessness, this heart in me has formed in new ways; I can relate to you, know your struggle, walk you with me back through the processes that bettered me, and healed me, and allowed me to know freedom. I can show you why I have hope, and that God has always been faithful, and how He has. I have love for my enemies, and have compassion for the worst, the most lost, of sinners.  I am a sinner.  But a righteous God knows me. He loves us. All of us. And He grace for every one. We're his children. Nothing can ever change that. Literally, nothing can. He will always forgive the repentance in the heart of one of his broken children, and He understands our weakness better than we even do. And He even felt it as a man, and knows it as God. Trust Him. And He will give you a better life. The one He made you for.

God bless.

- ADSciple // A.D. Sifford,  [May 22, 2014; 18:24]

I've done some songwork with One Click. All that's finished at this time is the vocal melody.

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May 2014 · 1.0k
Spread My Fire
AD Sifford May 2014
Thank you God
For the flame You've sparked in me

Lord, burn my heart
With the light of your Spirit
Set Fire to my soul

I want to live for You forever
God consume me in the flames
Of your blazing love
May my life be a burnt offering to You

Use me, O Lord
As a match
To light the world

Ignite me, God
Then let loose my soul
As a leaf set afire
Fluttering in your mighty wind
Spinning across the fields of this world,
Heating everything I touch

May the fire spread to all who will hear
So that they too may burn with passion
For the One and only God

God use me
My life
My testimony

Make my mouth a furnace
May my words consume the world
May my tongue burn for You
May those who hear me burn like the Sun
May I be as the brightest star in heaven

God, let your fire spread
It cannot be contained in me
I'm but a single blade of grass
The flames reach out from me
Longing for more to burn

Spread my flame
May it become a blaze

Reach across the fields
And through the woods
And up the mountains

Lord, may I burn across the sea
To reach the ends of the earth
With the fire of your Spirit

May You kindle this flame within me
Never let it flicker
Never let it wink
But let it burn brightly in my eyes
And pour out from my lungs

You have set a fire within me
Your Spirit burns in me
A flame that cannot be quenched

I am melted by your love

But the world is cold
It lives without warmth
And it finds no light of fire
It knows not of the flame
It seeks warmth but has no match
No flint that will ignite it

In your hands You hold many torches
Lord I am but one
Throw your torches down on the world
So that it too may burn
Warm with your love
Glowing with your hope and peace
Throw your fire on them
So that they may know
The comfort of your flame
So they too can light their paths
And see in dark places

Oh, dear God
You have ignited a flame within me
A flame that cannot be quenched
Now let your light shine
And let your heat rise
Let my faith burn
Until the world is all ablaze

God set this world on fire
As You have done for me
Lord set your world on fire
Let your children burn
So by your light the world may see
|Written 2011|
*from my Ignite collection, being poem #5. Please see the collection page itself.

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Apr 2014 · 843
No More Games
AD Sifford Apr 2014
Why
Why
Why
Why

Why did I follow you?
And why did I listen to you?

(
Why, O Why
O why, O Why)

Why did I trust in you?
(In my pain)
Why did I go to you?
(Well I've been changed)

You can, you can,
You can try

But I've got some news for you
(I've got news;
I'm through with you)
Listen, now I'm done with you

I'm sick of your game
I don't want to play
My time with you is done
So just go away

I've got news for you
(This is long past due)
And punk, I'm done with you
(Devil, I am through)

I am sick of your game
I don't wanna play
My time with you is done
So just go away

I am not your slave
I've got the key to your chains
By the *Blood
I was saved
So, devil, no more games

That's right, I'm done with your game
I'm not going to play
I have felt your pain
And Jesus is the way

Sin, you've had your fun
But now I'm free
And this is done
(If you were smart
Then you would run)
I've got the key
God sent his Son

You came after me
Now I'm coming after you
You took over like a ****
But, see, now my heart is new

You're still chasing after me
I do not belong to you
I am done with your games
I'm not going to play
I'm not following you
I know Jesus is the way

You came after me
Now I'm coming after you
And today now you will see
What I'm gonna do to you

I'll expose your lies
And I'll cut your ties
I will spread the Truth
And you will be despised

Light will burn your ships
And it will melt your chains
Oh, you made me sick
But I am not the same

I am done with your game
I have found the way
(Now whatch'you gotta say,
devil, whatch'you gotta say?)

You came after me
Now I'm coming after you
You should run, now, when you see
What I'm gonna do to you

I'll expose your lies
(Yeah, I'm coming back at you)
I will cut your ties
(I am gonna scream the truth)
I have played your game
And you had me asking why
But I am free of your chains
And your turn has come to cry

You came after me
(Now I've been set free)
Now I finally see
(Soon the world will see)
It's time for you to flee
(You've no power over me)

'Cause only God has victory
I said only God has victory
(and soon the world will see)
That only He has victory

Every tongue and every knee
One day all the world will see
That only *God
has victory
You've no power over me

Only God has victory
So, devil, listen to me
I've been freed from your chains
See, only God has victory
So, devil,
       *No. More. Games.
|Written April 8th, 2011|
*from my Ignite collection, being poem #3. Please see the collection page itself. P.S. I made a mistake in the order when I originally posted this. This was written the day before "Alive", and so should come first.

I wrote this one with some musical intention, but finished it in a form that didn't fully work for a song. I tried later refining it more into a working song form, i.e. with a fluid, consistent verse/chorus format, and while there are some ideas I like, I haven't got far in making progress on the true song version of this one, and have had trouble sorting it all out in a way that I like that feels natural and works.

The imagery of an army's ships being burned while docked on enemy shores was still fresh in my mind from reading Homer's The Illiad the previous year in Language Arts.

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Apr 2014 · 924
Alive
AD Sifford Apr 2014
You took me by the neck
And slit it with a knife
You told me I was dead
But I am alive

You lied to me
You buried me


But now I've changed
No longer in your chains
I am free to fly
And I am alive

He carried me
He set me free


Now I see
I've opened up my eyes
To eternity
I am alive

You lied to me
You buried me
He carried me
He set me free


My Savior's words of truth
Are stronger than your lies
So just know I am done with you
Because now I am alive

All I got was pain from you
Shame that cut me like a knife
But I'm no longer chained to you
No, I am free to fly

Through God I have escaped from you
And now I am alive
I never will return to you
I know that I'm alive
By the blood of Jesus Christ
In He I am alive

You lied to me
And buried me

But I am alive

He carried me
He set me free

And I am alive

By the blood of Jesus Christ,

**I am alive
|Written April 9, 2011|
*from my Ignite collection, being poem #4. Please see the collection page itself. P.S. I made a mistake in the order when I originally posted this. "No More Games" was written the day before this one, so this should come after.

A statement of freedom against the enemy. God was teaching me at this time, largely through a series of devotional books called Tribe by Michael Ross, and mainly the third and final book I read, "A Warrior's Battles", that Christ HAS WON the victory over any and all sin and addiction and weakness and shame for every believer and you DON'T NEED to struggle anymore. Freedom comes through RESTing and BELIEVing that  HE HAS WON and that YOU HAVE VICTORY in Him.

I later expanded/added to Alive when making a song out of it. That form of it is incomplete.

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Apr 2014 · 1.0k
Through the Open Door
AD Sifford Apr 2014
I am without hope
Until I look upon the One
The holy One, my God
Who sent His only Son

I've been here before
Time and time again
Same old story
Same familiar place
I'm so frighteningly far from perfect
I want to hide my face

But through the open door
Blinding me again
Light so holy
Promises your grace
When I feel like I'm helplessly shipwrecked
I long to see your face

I am without hope
But then I look upon the One
The loving One, my God
Through whom all can be undone

I feel so weak now
I feel controlled by sin
I can't do this
I am my own slave
My dark desires keep me where I am
My heart's a dark, black cave

So I give up now
I know I will give in
I aim, I miss
Only You can save
So I give control to the great I Am
God, make it You I crave

I am filled with hope
For when I look upon the One
I know that in His hands
My battles will be won

I am filled with hope
Now as I look upon the One
Thank You, O my God
For giving me your Son

I am filled with hope
For I know the battle's won

I am filled with hope
For my Lord said, “It is done.”
|Written June 10, 2011|
* from my Ignite collection, being poem #2. Please see the collection page itself.

For the context of when and why this poem was written, see the Ignite page.

After writing it, my grandma read through it and I told her I was still having trouble coming up with a name. She said, "Hope!" I read through it again, and it hit me as obvious when I came across stanza 3. line 1. I named it Through the Open Door, and she said something like, "I'll leave it to you." haha :)

Being one of my favorite poems, especially at the time of its conception, I eventually converted it into song form, like many of my poems, and added some small parts.

This one's dear to me. Please let me know what you think.
God bless.

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Apr 2014 · 839
A Prodigal's Prayer
AD Sifford Apr 2014
You see me now
You know I've sinned
I've blown it all, Lord
Yet again

I've broken them,
My promises
A fault's been made
And mine it is

I know it brings you pain inside
To turn from you
And feed my pride
So Lord I lift my hands to Thee
God, take this pride away from me
Lord, see my heart from on Your throne
I offer it to You alone

For without You,
Who would I be?
In you alone is my soul free
O, without You,
What could I do?
It's by Your grace I've been renewed

And Father God, please hear my prayer,
Imperfect as I am,
My slate is clean
Because You care
So thank you for your Lamb
|Written May 12, 2011|
* from my first, brief, wholly personal collection, Ignite, being poem #1. Please see the collection page itself.

"A Prodigal's Prayer" was the first of my poems written purely of my own free will (rather than as a school assignment).

A legitimate prayer, APP was written during the time when I was learning about true Grace, the power Christ's sacrifice HAS ALREADY given me (and all believers) over sin, and how to overcome shame, throughout a process by which God slowly broke my then perpetual addiction to *******.

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Apr 2014 · 3.7k
The Ladder
AD Sifford Apr 2014
There is a ladder that I climb
And climb I shall through all of time
The wood is rough and splintery
And so the task is hard, you see
And as I climb my arms grow weak
My bones, like the rungs, bend and creak
Sometimes resolve abandons me
My head goes down and I can't see
When climbing in this careless way
I lose my hold and slip away
So, quickly I fall ten feet down
I tell myself to not look down
I grab hold of the rung again
Then meditate and rest my chin
The rung has now a coat of slime
It feels I'll slip another time
I push the thought out of my head
For if I fall, then I'll be dead
I wipe away the dreadful slime
And climb again, step at a time
And though the top I'll never see,
I keep my gaze ahead of me.

"Why do you climb", a man once asked
"...If you cannot complete the task?"
"There are two worlds", I said to him
"...And one of them is filled with sin
Within that world, you'll find no light
Your soul is bound by fear and spite
In the other, you can see
Your heart's made whole and you are free
The line between these worlds is broad
That is the world on which we trod

But even here amidst our strife
You'll find there are two sides of life
We start between and go one way
By choices we make every day
This road we take is gradual
We slowly fall as blinded fools
Unless we climb the other way
And so please hear these things I say

As I climb, the light gets brighter
And the load on me becomes much lighter
The truth's revealed and my heart made full
As I climb away from sin's dark rule

So, where's this ladder that I climb?
He's here; take hold. He's yours and mine"
|Written 2010|
*from my Emerge collection, being poem #10. Please see the collection page itself.

The final original poem in the Emerge project set, "The Ladder" brought my own poem contribution to Emerge to a close, wrapping up my part in the theme with an open invitation to the reader to follow the God of my own lessons learned--The Father of Jesus Christ--Yahweh!

The Ladder was my most popular poem in my Emerge collection among my friends and family, and I feel it's one of my most favored and respected/appreciated poems I've ever written, even to this day. It's one people I know still bring up when my poetry is in conversation. Perhaps childishly, I think this bittered me towards it a bit. I love this poem, and it was certainly lead by The Spirit, and I hope it will have an impact in the world. But were other poems in the set that have deeper personal significance and treasured value for me, that I guess others will never be able, by no fault of their own, to appreciate.

At the time, TL was the longest poem I had ever written, and I believe it was actually the last one I wrote for Emerge.

The word "rung" all throughout the poem was originally "bar". I didn't know what they were called! :P

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Apr 2014 · 716
Unwelcome Visitor
AD Sifford Apr 2014
It stands outside my window
It knocks upon my door
To it, I say "I will not go
You do not own me anymore"
It then casts back a wicked grin
And with a voice too foul and vile
It says to me "We'll meet again
And I'll be waiting all the while"
It turns away and leaves me be
And though it will return one day
Sin never shall have victory
Because to God, for strength, I pray
|Written 2010|
*from my Emerge collection, being poem #9. Please see the collection page itself.

In the heart and spirit of "The Living Fire" and "Snare", I wrote "Unwelcome Visitor" in prayerful inspiration, but in more of a quick burst than the others. I believe I wrote it the same night as "Snare".

It's a reminder that though sin and temptation always crouch at the door, calling us back, God gives us the strength we need; let's keep our eyes on Him. Because despite the fact that we fell, and at times even may still stumble, God carries us by the hand. And that lion crouching at the door, waiting to devour us? Well, God's already crushed it, shackled its feet, and bound in it chains. You have freedom through Jesus Christ. Believe it. And should you stumble, pick up, accept God's grace which is more than your own, and move on, move forward in Him. Our victory awaits ahead, in Heaven, where our Advocate sits seated at God's right Hand. Amen.

I revisited "Unwelcome Visitor" in 2012, expanding it and tweaking it as I converted it into the form of a song. It's the most progress I've ever achieved on a song I've written, and it was done for a school project in my guitar class. I wrote (with some help from a friend on chord choice & arrangement) and recorded it with vocals, chords, a melody, and some extra effects. Unfortunately, the compiled recording file got corrupted and is lost forever. But I'd love to make and finish it in recorded form.
The expanded song lyric version is probably about 6-7 times the length of the poem in this original form.

I liked UWV so much, I even started writing a supernatural thriller novel based on it (but I've had some writer's block), and have had thorough ideas for a music video for the song version.

Like many of my other poems and writings, Unwelcome Visitor is a gift from God.

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Apr 2014 · 628
The Living Fire
AD Sifford Apr 2014
I'm here again?
How can it be?
What is this fiend inside of me?
Is there a more malicious place
Than that for which my heart makes space?
What is the cause
For all I've done?
O, from myself where can I run?
I'm trapped inside a wretched cave
Now, as I watch, the last light fades

Can I escape?
Is there a way
To best my own internal fray?
Who could forgive that which I am?
But You, the One they call the Lamb?

I feel it deep
I truly know
Clear is the way that I must go

A flame proceeds to light the way
Its heat dries all my tears away

To you I run
You are my fire
And only you do I desire

I once was pierced by sin's cold knife
You've saved my soul; I have new life
|Written 2010|
*from my Emerge collection, being poem #8. Please see the collection page itself.

"The Living Fire" was at once one of my favorite poems I had ever written. It was of the first that I knew and could feel undeniably that The Holy Spirit was involved in my writing it, leading its construction fluidly as it poured out from my soul. I had never experienced that before, and it sparked a love for poetry in me, in contrast with my previous disposition towards it. TLF is deeply personal for me and its birth was a significant moment in my life. I still remember the night.
I wrote it after a repentant prayer, pleading to God for forgiveness, help, and freedom from an addiction to ****. I felt his all-encompassing Love consume me in a way that lit my path for a forward journey in forgiveness and grace, as I learned what it is to be a child of God, walking in freedom and not being restrained by shame that comes not from him but from the enemy.

Like "Snare" and "Unwelcome Visitor", I later revisited this special landmark, applying a vocal melody and tweaking it some to be better suited as song lyrics.

If I remember correctly, "The Living Fire" predates "Snare" by hours, or less. I think I wrote them on the same night, or at most, consecutive nights.

Line 10 originally said, "the last beams fade", but I thought it was too unclear that I was referring to beams of light, and could not fit both of those key words into the proper # of syllables, so changed it ultimately to its current form.

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Apr 2014 · 1.9k
Good Job, Christian
AD Sifford Apr 2014
Good job!
You went to church for Grama on Sunday

...And you texted the whole service

Good job!
You helped out and watched your siblings

...And showed them R-rated movies

Good job!
You wore a Bible verse T-shirt to school

...After buying it with stolen cash

Good job!
You got a purity cross necklace to wear

...Then "hooked up" that same night

Good job!
You got a brand new Bible

...And stored it under your bed with the rest of your " junk"

Good job!
You visited your church's website

...And bookmarked it right beneath *******

Good job!
You went to that Bible-study group

...And afterward, to a party

Good job!
You turned down a smoke while you were there

...'Cause at the time you were just thirsty

Good job!
You prayed at the dinner table

...To get your turn over with for the week

Good job!
You call out to God before falling asleep

...To blame Him for your problems

Good job!
You plan on going to church again tomorrow

Just don't forget your cell-phone

Good job, Christian
Keep it up.
|Written 2010|
*from my Emerge collection, being poem #7. Please see the collection page itself.

This poem is one I've never felt quite satisfied with, yet it's a concept I want to address in this same basic form. Now that my poetry and mind has matured more, I may re-write this as a new poem addressing the issue I intended to in this one, in an improved, or heavier, more emotional, or more clear way. I'm not sure.
Line 18 originally said "under *******", but I thought that could come across as the bookmark bearing that name, rather than the new bookmark being beneath it in the least, to signify lesser priority as added weight to the hypocrisy.

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Apr 2014 · 767
Snare
AD Sifford Apr 2014
Hello, my friend.
...Why think like that?
Now, be assured,
I'm not that bad
There's nothing wrong with having fun
Though, once you do, you cannot run
...Did I forget to mention that?
Oh, well, too late
Guess that's too bad

Ah, from the start, it felt so good
But you were trapped there where you stood
You played the game
Now you are mine
I have to thank you for your time

Another down
A point for me!
Who will play next?
I guess we'll see
|Written 2010|
*from my Emerge collection, being poem #6.

Snare was and remains one of my favorite poems I have ever written.
It was the first truly deeply personal poem I'd ever written, and of the first I truly enjoyed writing or was genuinely inspired to write--of the first I was lead to write by The Holy Spirit.
At least 2 or 3 years after its original creation, I vastly expanded Snare into a song complete with vocal melody accompanying a full and elaborate lyric. While existing mostly in voice recording form, written text, or simply in my head, I also have had many different ideas for instrumental parts, effects, a music video, an album cover, and more, if it were ever to reach that point of being completely produced in the form in which I envision its true fulfillment. The song version is one of my favorite songs I have ever written, and quite possibly in fact my #1 favorite. It is also, by far, the longest song I have ever written with finished lyrics & vocals to. When completed and recorded, it would likely clock in at 6 minutes or longer, as an epic, despite being one of my shortest poems in its original form.

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Apr 2014 · 430
Thread
AD Sifford Apr 2014
Brick by brick the world will crumble
By enmity's hammer, all are humbled

One by one the numbers fall
The standing fight as wounded crawl
But how quickly one joins the other
No matter how brave or strong or tall

And one by one along the way
Throughout each night and everyday
The hungry beast consumes and feeds
a continual feast upon the fray

One by one the nations die
All hope fades and strong men cry
But never, never will it end
And so tempestuous time will fly

From this bleak hour and all hereby
Thread by thread unravels time
And evermore does man subside
While, thread by thread, unravels time
|Written 2010|
*from my Emerge collection, being poem #5. Please see the collection page itself.

On the original poem, Bradley Hand ITC font was used so that it appeared thinner and more thread-like than the other fonts used in the collection.

© 2017 A.D. Sifford.
I'm okay with you sharing my poetry, I just ask that you show courtesy bey being honest and attributing it to my name. Thank you,
- Sifford
Apr 2014 · 732
My Life, Your Obsession
AD Sifford Apr 2014
You speak of things you know not of
You lecture things you're incapable of
You accuse of things you know not true
You deny the things you know to be true

They're absurd, really, the things you say
The things that only you would say
It's unfair, really, the way you act
Demanding the things of the stuff you lacked

The way you wish that you could be
You will not find inside of me

Just turn around and view yourself
I promise I don't need your help
Just focus on the life you own
And learn that my life is my own
|Written 2010|
*from my Emerge collection, being poem #4. Please see the collection page itself.

Line #7 originally said "It's illogical" instead of "It's unfair". I had a tough time finding a word I was happy with for a while, and changed it much later.
This poem was birthed from anger, and I regretted writing it later, and wince at typing it up again even now. But it's a part of my story that from that week that gave birth to the poet in me. So I feel it should be included.

© 2017 A.D. Sifford.
I'm okay with you sharing my poetry, I just ask that you show courtesy bey being honest and attributing it to my name. Thank you,
- Sifford
Apr 2014 · 473
Faded
AD Sifford Apr 2014
Remember us?
Remember then?
Those days you used to call me friend

Our hearts were close
Our bond was strong
Now it feels it's been so long

Once you felt
And once you cared
For all the moments that we shared

Now, as I try to get my head clear
I find myself wishing
That you were still here
|Written 2010}
from my *Emerge collection, being poem #3.

The original poem had a very much lighter color applied to it than the other poems in the collection, so that it looked faded.
I later revisited and altered/expanded this poem, under the title "Then".

© 2017 A.D. Sifford.
I'm okay with you sharing my poetry, I just ask that you show courtesy bey being honest and attributing it to my name. Thank you,
- Sifford
Apr 2014 · 363
Topple
AD Sifford Apr 2014
Life wildly spins
It rocks and tilts and wavers
And as time tumbles on
It grows more and more unstable
And with each revolution passed
Fewer more will come
So each new moment gains new worth
As soon its turns are done

Regard these words
And know the last will come
How will you spend this time
Before this wild ride is done?
Although it seems it will go on
Time will see its end
And when it's done and fine'ly falls,
It won't be spun again
|Written 2010|
*from my Emerge collection, being poem #2.

The original title was "Top", as in the type of spinning toy, but I later thought that title was too broad to pick up on without a picture or context with it to clue people into what I meant by the word "Top", so I changed the name to "Topple" to convey the meaning more accurately.

© 2017 A.D. Sifford.
I'm okay with you sharing my poetry, I just ask that you show courtesy bey being honest and attributing it to my name. Thank you,
- Sifford
Apr 2014 · 501
Boxed
AD Sifford Apr 2014
You keep it there in the corner of your attic
And thus it remains unfulfilled and useless
It's never been opened; not once touched
Is this wastage to be its ultimate destiny?
Or shall it one day see light and freedom?
Won't you open the box in which it rests?
It wants to bloom and flourish and grow!
It can't be kept inside some box like junk
Release it now, from its dark cube prison
Discover its potential; unleash your soul.
|Written 2010|
*from my Emerge collection., being poem #1.

© 2017 A.D. Sifford.
I'm okay with you sharing my poetry, I just ask that you show courtesy bey being honest and attributing it to my name. Thank you,
- Sifford

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