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Oct 2014 · 216
x
ketsia Oct 2014
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one day we'll be
ourselves at best.
|thc.|
Oct 2014 · 185
utld. (iii)
ketsia Oct 2014
i'll be there for myself
where you couldn't be for me.
maybe you're right
maybe this is all that i can be
but what if it's you
and it wasn't me?
Oct 2014 · 228
utld. (ii)
ketsia Oct 2014
i came a long way from down there
to get over you, over them, over this

and i still think it's unreal
that i've found myself

these tears are finally
the ones i'd let flow
for a lifetime.
in a few days, it'll be my fifth month clean. five months without cutting, or crying myself to sleep. five months without all those voices tormenting me, all the screams that echooed in the walls of this empty house. i finally feel this warmth i craved for; happiness. || 22.10.14
Oct 2014 · 289
7w.
ketsia Oct 2014
7w.
did i even ******* matter to you?
Oct 2014 · 570
utld.
ketsia Oct 2014
you didn't even love me
you loved the thought
of having somebody.
utld : untitled.
Oct 2014 · 342
Untitled
ketsia Oct 2014
i was yours

not your friend with benefits
not your girlfriend
not your wife

i was simply
deeply
madly
yours.
I was Yours with a capital Y.
Oct 2014 · 139
19:59
ketsia Oct 2014
never in million years
could you tell me
i'd fall this hard.
Sep 2014 · 818
maybe
ketsia Sep 2014
maybe we're satellites
maybe we're friends
maybe we're more

maybe we are the lucky ones
maybe we're soulmates
maybe we're not meant to be

maybe we're meant to meet the wrong people

maybe we're all just cabinets of wonder.
maybe, just maybe.
Sep 2014 · 180
Untitled
ketsia Sep 2014
and still, my most cruel enemy must be myself.
Sep 2014 · 305
amèretume
ketsia Sep 2014
"wait, i want you to know that you weren't bothering me, you actually made me happy while it lasted."

why are you making it *last
then
|19.09.14|

the pain inspires me to come back here.
Jun 2014 · 3.5k
Untitled
ketsia Jun 2014
Because the first time I got *****, my boyfriend broke up with me because I had “cheated” on him.
Because the word “****” is considered a joke.
Because there over 70% of women let their partners **** them when they don’t want it.
Because 17% of American women have been the victim of ****** assault at some point in their lives.
Because only 39% of rapists get reported to the police, and only 3% of them go to jail.
Because about 13% of the **** victims commits suicide.
Because the first time I got *****, he put a knife to my throat and told me he would **** me if I said I didn’t want it.
Because when I wanted to report him, people told me I couldn’t because I hadn’t said “no” to him.
Because at least half of all babies born to minor women are fathered by adult men. (10+ years age difference)
Because I can’t wear a skirt without being told “I’m asking for it.
Because when I went to a party when I was 14 and I wore a skirt and a guy kept touching my *** all night, my mother told me it shouldn’t have happened if I wore sweatpants.
Because a 16 year old girl who had her first ****** while getting *****, had to watch her 34 (!) year old ****** go free because she had had an ******.
Because when my guy friend told me and some friends he got ***** by a women when he was 13, a “friend” laughed at him and said he should be happy he got laid that young.
Because my 17 year old best friend’s parents let her 14 year old brother walk outside until 12pm, but she has to be home at 10.
Because a guy from my old school got ***** by another guy, but because he is ***, they said it wasn’t considered ****.
Because a 19 year old lesbian got ***** by a guy, and he didn’t go to prison because he said “he only tried to turn her straight so she would get accepted by her parents”.
Because in some cultures, girls (and boys) still get thrown out of the family because some guy/girl sexually assaulted them.
Because they’re still teaching girls to walk faster at night instead of teaching guys they shouldn’t ****.
Because I have to explain why I’m angry because of ****.
This is not mine, credits to:
http://the-fault-in-our-scars.tumblr.com/
Jun 2014 · 448
blue eyes
ketsia Jun 2014
you were so beautiful
but you seemed oblivious
towards your own beauty.
i fall in love with strangers often.

[i haven't wrote here in a while, sorry.]
Jun 2014 · 197
✖️
ketsia Jun 2014
even when i think
i sank too deep
and it's too late
i still wait for you
to grab my hand

damaged i became
fixed i may become
i don't know whether to cry or laugh
about my constant enthusiasm to recover.
Jun 2014 · 478
graciousness. viii.
ketsia Jun 2014
and the taste of your lips is what i feel like
i missed the most *all my life
to my sweetheart. :)
Jun 2014 · 805
you make me go cliché
ketsia Jun 2014
i think i really really like you
and i think it's adorable
how your nose crinkle
when you're laughing

and let's not even talk
about your smile
oh my, just a grin
and i go weak in the knees
also everywhere else, honestly
i want to kiss and cuddle the **** out of you ♡
Jun 2014 · 232
i'd rather talk to the moon
ketsia Jun 2014
it's been a while, i got used to it
but if you want to leave me
don't even talk to me
because it still hurts
like the first time.
Jun 2014 · 296
lyrics.
ketsia Jun 2014
i have a million different kinds of fun
when i'm asleep and in a dream that i'm your only one.

can we create something beautiful and destroy it?
nobody knows i dream about it, this is my imagination.
Disasterology - Pierce The Veil

PTV > life.
May 2014 · 246
tristesse. ii.
ketsia May 2014
is it normal
to feel like there's
a hole in my chest
and sort of venom
down my spine?
May 2014 · 730
graciousness. vii.
ketsia May 2014
darkness is the only thing
that took my breath away
other than you.
May 2014 · 310
things i can't
ketsia May 2014
"You make me so mad!
Why aren't you taking this seriously?!"*

my friend
screamed at me
since i just fell speechless
and kept laughing
as she asked me
about self-harm

i was scared
of breaking down
in front of her

and i really did
all i could
to not start
crying in pain

so i went off laughing
and for a minute
it was suddenly
harder to breathe.
this wasn't really a poem; i just hate talking to people about it, since it brings me to tears easily; self-harm's not a thing to joke about.
ketsia May 2014
"Even the most beautiful girl, only gives what she has."

so, even the saddest one
could only give
what she has;
sadness*
or her life?
i don't know if the quote's actually like that, since i've only heard of it in French.
May 2014 · 160
8w
ketsia May 2014
8w
i needed something
as deep as my thoughts.
May 2014 · 200
7w [ii]
ketsia May 2014
✿ i wish things
didn't go this way.
May 2014 · 154
7w
ketsia May 2014
7w
i just got used
to this feeling.
ugh.
May 2014 · 354
ketsia May 2014
i never wanted for you
to live on my expectations

i never wanted for you
to get hurt because of me

i never wanted for you
to be anything but yourself

you should know
that i fell for you
way before you could
hide the true you

you should know
i'll try to do as you wish
and find something better
that i supposedly deserve

but my mind and soul
became suprisingly
attached to you

now i wish
i'd move on
but i truly can't.
May 2014 · 522
pourquoi
ketsia May 2014
why are you sorry?

i know you mean it but there's nothing
that you should apologize about, darling

i feel sad, and it's my fault
i'm responsible of each of my feelings

you're not to blame
she's not to blame
i'm blaming myself

for telling you too late
that i love you
for letting you go
without fighting.
i am the one who should apologize.
May 2014 · 269
ouragans.
ketsia May 2014
she taught me why hurricanes
were named after people.
an old poem i've found in my drafts.
May 2014 · 186
indécise.
ketsia May 2014
i'd like to tell you
i truthfully feel bad

but i don't want
to bother you.

i'd like to stop pretending
but i don't want your pity.

i'd like to say
i don't care anymore

but i do.
May 2014 · 179
desesperée
ketsia May 2014
would you tell me
my eyes are beautiful
even when they're
all red and swollen?

would you flush away
the blade and my sorrows
and hold me in the dark?

would you hold
my hand and
rescue me from
this sadness?


i keep questioning
myself about it
when i know
you wouldn't
even if your life
depended on it.
it hurts to be so down for someone,
one day i hope i'll be my own hero
May 2014 · 163
sigh.
ketsia May 2014
they said,
"Two wrongs always makes a right."

i'm still wondering
if i'm part of
   the exceptions of it.
not even wise words
can mend a broken heart.
ketsia May 2014
funny how
out of anyone
i'd still choose you

out of my indecisiveness
my love for you
is the only thing
i've never doubted on

while you'd take an eternity
to make a choice
between her and me.
sigh, i get jealous so easily, it's not even funny anymore ugh.
ketsia May 2014
i love you
you love me
but you love her too

i would say
whatever
if she makes you smile
whatever
get with her

you would say
don't make it hard for me
and make me feel bad
it's not that easy

✘✘✘

but why shouldn't i
make it as hard
as you made it for me?

why shouldn't i
just let you go
       the way it should be?

✘✘✘

i wish
i didn't care

i wish
you'd make a choice

i wish
i could have
            your whole heart.
May 2014 · 159
lyrics.
ketsia May 2014
you could be my lady
and we'll walk the streets
for no reason maybe
just 'till you see
you won't be so lonely
when you're with me
you won't ever be so lonely.
She's A Riot - The Jungle Giants
May 2014 · 553
graciousness. vi.
ketsia May 2014
as much as it's over
i'd like for you to know
i am so thankful
for the smallest time
i could've called you mine

but i'm also
the selfish type
wishing it could last forever.
May 2014 · 663
graciousness. v.
ketsia May 2014
i really wish
we wouldn't have
******* everything
since we can't
         make up our minds.
hopeless romantics
loving hopeless romantics
is quite problematic.
May 2014 · 640
graciousness. iv.
ketsia May 2014
everytime i see you
i believe i've already
seen what love looks like.
You Had Me At Hello, by A Day To Remember,
came on as i wrote this and i thought of someone.
May 2014 · 234
je suis confuse.
ketsia May 2014
and i love you endlessly
i hope you love me too
hopefully but dear
                 times became tough


friends
  enemies
    lovers
     strangers



now tell me
which ones
should we act like?
i don't know about you
but i can't make it out
without calling you mine.
May 2014 · 115
eleven words.
ketsia May 2014
would you mind
holding me
a little more
for a while?
May 2014 · 154
Untitled
ketsia May 2014
his voice
the only thing
capable of
breaking my heart
while mending it.
May 2014 · 175
lyrics.
ketsia May 2014
i've lost my ******* mind
it happens all the time
i can't believe i'm actually
meant to be here
trying to consume
the drug in me is you
and i'm so high on misery
can't you see?
The Drug In Me Is You - Falling In Reverse.
May 2014 · 463
graciousness. iii
ketsia May 2014
and as your eyes led on me
                                            warmth
was all i could feel
       all i could ever ask for.
would you mind
keeping your gaze on me?
May 2014 · 252
noir.
ketsia May 2014
something
inside me died
as his pitch black eyes
pierced through me
like the feeling
of the silver blade

*"Darkness will consume you,
darkness you'll become."
May 2014 · 405
fragile
ketsia May 2014
how did i
come to the point
of breaking down
for such small details?
those kind of things couldn't reach me, not so long ago.
May 2014 · 839
graciousness. ii
ketsia May 2014
she* had a way of seeing the world
she felt like a disapointment
and i was offended
to think
she criticized
the only light
i ever saw
May 2014 · 1.1k
graciousness.
ketsia May 2014
i just wanted him
in the bluntest way possible
his eyes
his arms
his hair
his smile
him

enticing little thing was he.
May 2014 · 195
my loathing towards you
ketsia May 2014
until i'll be brave
enough to run away
from you
and all the troubles
you throw out at me
i'll just sit here
and make out
with the enemy.
our love/hate relationship, it sickens me, dear.
May 2014 · 442
la distance.
ketsia May 2014
we're thousand miles away
it's getting harder to breathe
knowing i can't hold you right now

and to think
i am asleep
when you need me
the most

and to figure out
we are not
meant to be
or are we?

i hope so, love.
#Zan is love, #Zan is life. << OTP.

Also dedicated to my first love;
i still love her, no matter what.
May 2014 · 301
thank you. :)
ketsia May 2014
i'd like to thank you
for making my life
better than it ever could be
your voice's the only thing
that makes my day

i don't think
you know me
but i think
you know
well enough
about my heart.
did you know that bands decrease suicide attempts by 70% ?
this is for all the days were bands made me smile.
May 2014 · 159
b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l.
ketsia May 2014
"If you don't stop cutting,"
she said *"nobody will ever want you."


i rolled my eyes

my scars may be burdens

but
i want somebody
who'll kiss them
and tell me
it'll be alright

if it never happens
my demons are still there
i'll never be really alone.
May 2014 · 230
i like you.
ketsia May 2014
i feel less sad
when you're with me
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