There are soft kisses
Hand kisses
Forehead kisses
Playful kisses
Goodbye kisses
And hello kisses
You spoil me with so many kisses
You have given me
Passionate kisses
Loving kisses
Good morning kisses
Good night just as we are about to go to bed kisses
When we were apart, you always gave me air kisses
But there was this one kiss
I never felt before
This particular kiss
Gave me a vision
That kiss made my heart leap through mountains
when it returned to my body
It made sense
Your hands were in your pockets
You looked just as shy as me
The vision I had, could it be?
A glimpse into the future?
This would be the only kiss you haven’t given me...

There’s a metallic taste on my tongue
It’s weird and unknown
I have the past running through my thoughts
Visiting each time I was wronged
Like a scrap book I flip through the memories
Asking the lingering question
why
How
Why didn’t I see it coming
Behind the smiling faces and pleasant eyes
The intentions of those that want to hurt you
How can they live with that?
How are they able to forget that
Why can’t I be like that?
How can I trust the wrong people?
Why don’t they feel bad?

Do you remember this
We were surrounded by all your friends
I remember the chattering of people in the background.
It was hard to hear everyone over the music and clinking of beer bottles
You were right next to me
I was talking to your friend
I heard you say you wanted a kiss.
In front of all your friends
I was caught off guard
I saw the look in your eyes
You knew, I was nervous
I knew you meant it
I think you liked how shy it made me
I felt your heartbeat race
then our lips embraced
The party disappeared
It was just us in that moment
This was a different kiss
It was passionate
Soft
Intoxicating
It stole my breath
Left me addicted
This kiss, you never gave to me again

Expressing myself on paper is what I do best
I feel you’ve silenced me
You stolen my voice
Tucked away in your selfish ways
You liked it better when I was always quiet
You always talk over me
My words always had to compete with yours
Your words get louder and louder
my words turned into whispers
My feelings you ignored
Overlooked and unheard
You push them aside
Left on the curb like yesterday’s trash
Is this how you think a friendship works?
You never heard a word I said
You ignored every whisper
Now all that’s left is silence
I’m tired of whispering to make you feel better
You say I was pushy
I call it giving you a better direction
You say you’re  miserable but you do nothing to solve it
I gave you a map
Wrote down the directions
Handed you a compass to find your way
But you like where you are
It doesn’t matter what you say

I’ve found a new love
A love to carry on
A love that will never leave me
A love in its purest form
A love sweeter than anything you’ve tasted
Sweeter than candy given to a baby for the first time
My eyes light up in wonder
Pupils dilate with excitement
My mind journeys far and wide
Searching and seeking for the perfect words to write
My body is waiting in anticipation to hear the scribble of the pen on ****** paper
The same feeling as any solider feels when waiting to attack
The same intense emotions
feeling every one build up until it explodes
All my senses and all my emotions
Explodes like grenades in war
Shrapnel piercing paper like bodies
Silence follows
I read every word
Uncovering the mystery of what I just wrote
Reading how my own mind skips around
Shining light onto the darkness
Loving the beauty in every word
My mind doesn’t always make sense
I love seeing how my mind works on ****** paper