I've never wanted anything more than this
I've always longed for that last kiss
I've been told that I'll be alright
That there's nothing to fear in the night

You all told me I'd get better
That this storm is just bitter weather

No one told me the truth
No one told me I'd be this way forever
That my crys for help would go unanswered.

I've never wanted this
I've always just wanted happiness
I've been lied to my whole life
And now I fear what's resting inside.

You all sit there and see me hurting
Watching as I brake.

No one told you it would come to this
No one had the heart to warn you
So now ill sit back in silence watching as you all go mad.

Watching my heart beat
Feeling my breath
And wishing
It would just stop
And I would be found dead.

I'm afraid I'm going mad,
You see.
Everything turns to blood,
In my dreams.
I never wake scared,
Only curious.
Not curious for who's blood
This is,
But curious,
As to why it is,
that I'm still here.

My mom was abused by her dad
My dad abused my mom
My sister was abused by her boyfriend.    
    
(and my dad)
My lover was abused by her ex
My closest friends abuse themselves
I keep  my distance

How do you commit suicide without hurting the ones around you?

So young
So beautiful
So much like me
Your smile is breath taking
After seeing your photo
I'm sure many fell to their knees
So many tears you cryd
And so many of them
We all wishes we wiped away
You were treated so terrible
And this I'm sure of when I say
Your missed so much
Though I didn't know you
I've heard your story
And I'm sorry that so many people
Ignored you
Your tears were real
As are mine
Your story changed so many lives
And that I'm sure of
You were so beautiful
So young
And I know so many wish you
Hadn't taken your life that day.
Now sweet angel
Rest in peace
And spread your wings
Because now
Your free.

Color me beautiful
Paint me with a secret
Draw me with passion
Now look, look at what you've done
You've created this monster.
Someone so strong they seem weak
So confident they seem lost
So full of beautiful colors
They only ever seen blue.
You bring my life color
And they only bring shades.
So go on help me complete this
Project.
Help me
Color you beautiful
Paint you with secrets
And draw you with passion.