Fleeting moments
memories fading

Although you may never understand
Those were some of the best times of my life thus far.

All that remain are  silent flash backs
That leave me smiling and shaking my head at what was.

How long can I hold my breath
I need to breathe

How long can i pretend?
There is no end

Hands clasped over my mouth
to keep the whisper of your name from escaping my lips.

The truth is i am afraid
Afraid of being too close

My heart beat accelerates when you're around
Hands begin to tremble as i entwine my fingers

Evading your eyes,
Shivers surge down my spine as
I recall how you whispered "mine" against my neck

Today I sat in front of the mirror and questioned my worth
I questioned my beauty
I questioned my heart

I am not brave nor am I strong
As tears rolled down my face
Whispers continued to taunt me
Are u enough ?

Today I sat in front of the mirror and fell apart  as my heart shattered before my eyes

Why don't you write ?
Perhaps you're mind could be a better place
Rather than one filled with chaos
Why don't you pour  your soul onto a page
Rather than sit with a heavy tongue.

Tears welled up in her eyes
Blades threatened her wrists

Stuck in her own mind
Haunted by her thoughts
Reality slipping

Clutching her chest

Suffocating

I need to breathe she whispered
I need to breathe she whispered to her mind

Set me free she pleaded
Set me free

As the rain falls
The fire burns
The beautiful art of contradiction

Is it an addiction or fiction
Her mind say no while her body says Yes

Yes to the spark as she arches her back
Yes to the memories back then
No to the thought of him

How can you deny a love that's undeniable?

Unwanted
Unavoidable
Undeniable

The flame within still burns
It burns dimly yet
It burns me

I can not endure the pain
Yet when i attempt to put out the flame
It scars me

You scar me

A pain so deep that it's hard to breathe
It makes happiness seem like a fragment of the imagination
Holding on to broken pieces will only make you bleed.

When will you learn to walk away
When will you earn respect from yourself  
When will you see  that your more than enough.