I still lie awake at night
waiting for you to show
hoping that you've changed your mind
and decided not to go

I hide my pain from public view
behind a familiar mask
lest someone spot the real me
and take my soul to task

I know that you are hurting too
as I read the words you write
and I wish that things were different
as I lie awake at night

So for now I'll keep on waiting
and hoping that you'll show
From the moment I first held you
I never wanted to let go

Is it wrong to give up hope
at this stage of my life
that I'll finding enduring happiness
instead of naught but strife

The only things I have to go on
are the moments in my past
that at once were pure heaven
but never seem to last

The aftermath is always greater
than the sum of treasures lost
thats why my books will never balance
and why I'm left to count the cost

So if I accept a future
in which my life I'll never share
The only dream I ever had
will wither without air

But no more will I feel this pain
this agonizing loss
the books will one day balance out
no more credits, no more cost

I sometimes wonder what its like
to have never loved at all
to have missed those dizzy heights
means to miss the crushing fall

its been 4 days since I've showered
5 days since I've shaved
6 days and 7 hours
since you chose to go away
two cartons of cigarettes
a bottle and half of scotch
it like time is stuck in neutral
nothings moving on my watch
I haven't been outside for days
the curtains have stayed drawn
the days rolled into endless grey
no nightfall, dusk or dawn
this won't go on forever
each day a bit more pain has gone
one day I will be numb enough
rumour has it, life goes on

Touch me,
it doesn't matter where
and it doesnt matter how
I need to know I'm still alive
so someone touch me now
Shake my hand and say hello
or pat me on the back
kiss me on the cheek
that I may feel this sense I lack
slap my face and pull my hair
make me bleed I just don't care
dig your nails into my skin
so I can feed this need within
I've been numb for such a time
that even pain would be sublime
so touch me, touch me now
I don't care where, I don't care how

You are the shining armour
that this knight is wrapped within
His shield against the elements
without which he could not win

You are are the strength within his heart
his courage and his pride
Which carry him to battle
like the noble steed he rides

Without you he is just a man
a lowly humble serf
But with your love inside him
this knight can rule the earth

Is it sheer coincidence
that in a moment of despair
I let out a cry for help
and you are standing there

Is it sheer coincidence
is that all that it can be
that fate and other forces
brought you here to me

I dont belieive in lady luck
she left me long ago
and yet from out of nowhere
suddenly you show

Could you be an angel
sent to take my hand
sent to guide me home
that I might understand