if it takes one of us
to act grown up & rational
i nominate you

i'm too uptight
to fake composure.

he's my pretty buttercup
he looks so pretty collared up
on his knees
and in between
i love my darling honey pup

A dream lies dead here. May you softly go
Before this place, and turn  away your eyes,
Nor seek to know the look of that which dies
Importuning  Life for life. Walk not in woe,
But, for a little, let your step be slow.
And, of your mercy, be not sweetly wise
With words of hope and Spring  and tenderer skies.
A dream lies dead; and this all mourners know:

Whenever one drifted petal leaves the tree--
Though white of bloom as  it had been before
And proudly waitful of fecundity--
One little  loveliness can be no more;
And so must Beauty bow her imperfect head
Because a dream has joined the wistful dead!

Into
I'm in too deep
deathly dying disaster comes calming, a kind creature
As she takes me by the hand and gently guide me inside
Inside of her and her heart and inside is me and a coffin awaiting
as I cry out a plea
A plea to pause and pull back to the past's plays
When I craved the coffin and its cold carelessness
But calmly she commands that I climb inside... And close myself, unplug my mind and die
She tells me to leave life's hollow hole of self pitying piety
And give away my will to serene silence
The hollow hole is all I've ever known, I cry
But she takes me back to a time when I tried

Inside my room my mind inside is telling me to be terrified, sad, hopeless altogether, albeit I don’t know why
Maybe it’s the monster under my bed
And maybe it’s the ghost trapped inside
And maybe the utterly scarifying unknown
Isn’t a monster or an imagined image of iridescent horror
I know inside that my unknown terror is a lonesome life of lifelessness without love
And the lying light stares at me under the crack of my door and softly screams at me
Telling me to be a man
To be a missing-out mixture of money and melancholy that makes me lonely, that returns me back to the place of unknown fear that I now know is loneliness
Loneliness from you and you and you and me and love