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notsogoodwriter Apr 2020
People thought that i'm crazy
'cause smiling from ear to ear became my hobby
You're too precious to know
Oh, I never saw that kind of glow

I don't know what the future holds
If the next years will keep us close
May I be remembered as a friend
To whom you can run to in the end
notsogoodwriter Nov 2022
I have lots of questions in mind
I don’t know the answers, where to find?

God, I want to know
I’m longing for answers, where to go?

I know You are faithful
I will wait until it bloomed
notsogoodwriter Nov 2019
Waking up in the morning *****
when painful and devastating memory keeps on coming back

This feeling of brokenness must disappear
I don't want to be caged until the end of the year

Freedom is what I am asking for
Please let me go
I don't want you anymore
notsogoodwriter Nov 2022
I know it was nothing
until you appeared one evening
You were waiting for me while raining
I ran to you like I was longing

You flashed an unforgettable smile
You hugged me tight for a while
Your warmth feels like home
I don’t want to let go

To grasp that moment is all I can do
Because I know when I open eyes
You will disappear out of the blue
Hi, I dreamed about you.
notsogoodwriter Apr 2020
Staring at the ceiling
became my daily routine
My hands keep doing things
on a whim
My mind is awake until the morning
What should I do to
save myself from drowning?
notsogoodwriter May 2020
She's not sure what to feel
Months passed,
she still can't believe it's real
That mesmerizing moment is always in her head
She keeps on smiling like crazy in bed

but,

She knows how dangerous it could be:
to believe on something that is pure fantasy
So while it is still early
she will save herself from misery
notsogoodwriter Jul 2020
How lovely these flowers could be?
a paradise indeed, that I want to see
the way you bloom is outstanding
how you follow the light is amazing

dear, you took my heart away
i want you here, please stay
notsogoodwriter Apr 2020
There's no way that I could fight
these temptations, taking my life
It's embracing me
until I couldn't breathe
Stealing the joy only You can give

I am weak in my natural ways
If not guided,
I'll be blurred as haze
Surround me with Your love and power
I can't do this alone,
I need You to take over
notsogoodwriter Apr 2020
Oh how blessed I am to be Your daughter
Despite of the flaws
in this world I fostered
Mold me to be the person
You wanted me to be
Use me
so others will see Your glory
notsogoodwriter Nov 2022
I can’t see a way to escape
I want to take the risk but maybe it’s too late

I wonder why is it always complicated
All I want is to feel loved and wanted

The clouds are still heavy today
I still can’t see other way
notsogoodwriter Apr 2020
When I can't accept it, I get angry
When I don't see it, I feel so weary
When I don't want it, I disobey
When I don't feel it, I run away

The more that I try to escape
the more that You give grace
Oh what did I do to deserve You?
I'm a trash but I'm too precious for You
Thank You so much for Your love and grace.
notsogoodwriter Jul 2020
I hated how my day started
woke up with a mind clouded
with worries and tiredness, I drowned
My knees surrendered, reaching the ground

It was an afternoon
I was rooted to the spot where I was sitting
something happened that I wasn't expecting
Bundle of nerves and butterflies were fighting
while I also can't stop myself from smiling

Everything happened out of the blue
I thought I was dreaming,
but i'm wide awake
and it's true
notsogoodwriter Nov 2022
Words are always hard to find
When heart and mind are not in line

Words are running when chased
You can’t find them like they are caged

But, words are not just said
Even what’s on mind are counted

Now, do words really love to hide?
or is it just you who denies?
notsogoodwriter Apr 2020
It's 12:17 in the morning
lights are dim but I'm still writing
My heart is pumping like it's chasing
something for sure, worth pursuing

What words can describe what I feel?
Can't we really think when feelings are real?
This euphoric feeling will surely push me through
Can you wait until I say it out of the blue?

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