Not seeing each other doesn’t mean I stopped loving
I think it wont take long, I will see you again
Please don’t do this to me
You know that I wont forget you easily

...

Looking at the room, I feel alone
'Coz indeed I am
You’ve gone far away
It feels so lonely without you by my side

Even when you are far,
Even if I can’t see you,
Even if we can’t be together,
I didn’t stop loving you.

I know you needed to go
It’s for our future you said

You said you’ll always call
Yes you did

But then came a day when you stopped
Days passed and the phone never rang
No more pictures, notifications
No more communication

Why did you stop?
Are you too busy there?
Is your phone broken?
Have you found someone else?

Why are you doing this to me?
You know I won’t forget you easily.
...
I heard you moved to a different place
Now you’re more far than you’ve ever been

This long distance relationship is hard
I want to see you but it’s difficult
The price to pay to go there is too high
And the ticket is only one way

Isn’t there no other way to see you?
Isn’t there another way to hear your voice?

Don’t you have an internet connection there?
Don’t you have a signal there?

Are phones not allowed there?

If not, then tell God to allow you for a bit.
I need to talk to you
The pain in my heart is growing so much
I may no longer contain it

I might explode

I am longing to see you more and more each day
The tears won’t stop,
I’m drowning in sorrow

If he can’t allow,
Then I shall pay the price to go to you
And I know there is no going back
Maybe, It won’t take long and I’ll be with you

Happiness that we once felt,
The sadness that once made us cry,

The love we had given,
The love that we received in return,
The love that was shared.

Some love that was given,
The love that was never returned,
The love that was never shared,
The life that we had lived.

All of these are stored in a magical box called MEMORY.

But then the evil witch came and wreaked havoc upon the kingdom...
And she took the precious box.

The kingdom lost its memories of the years that went by...

And so the hero came and defeated the witch,
The box was returned back to kingdom.
The memories were restored...

The kingdom had a ruler, the queen.
Her name was Heart.

When the box was lost,
she felt lost.
The only thing that connected her to her kingdom,
was gone


But the hero came and gave the box back...

Her memories were restored,
the link with her and the kingdom was back.
But..
But... Deep inside,
To the very depths of Heart,
a voice,
calling out to her

a voice told her that there was something wrong

But she ignored it.

What she didn’t knew
A spell
The witch has caste
on to the magical box


The memories was mixed up
Altered.

It was a curse that would haunt Heart forever.

Puso may nasugatan, maghihilom din ito
Sugat na dala ng pait ng paghihiwalay, ibaon mo na sa limot
Ba't di nalang isipin mga maliligayang alaalang iniwan
Ng taong minsan **** minahal

Mahirap mang bumangon, kakayanin pa rin
Dahil sa bawat unos na pinagdaanan
Kalinawan ng damdamin ang nakaabang
Na siyang magbibigay lakas sa iyong muling pagbangon

Mabigat man ang mga paa, kaya pa ring igalaw
Kung may determinasyon, kaya mo rin umusad
Ito'y mahirap pero 'di imposible
Magpursige ka lang, makakaraos ka rin

Kapag ikaw ay nakabangon na,
Umusad mula sa kinatatayuan,
Pagkatapos ng mga luhang lumunod sa'yong mga mata
Bagong mundo ang iyong matatanaw.

Mas maliwanag, mas kaakit-akit, maganda
At mas nararapat sa iyo.
Nasaktan ka man, 'di titigil ang mundo upang ika'y hintayin
Kaya tahan na, dahil ang buhay ay patuloy pa rin.

Kung alam ko lang na mamimiss kita nang ganito,
Hindi na sana ako umalis.
Kung alam ko lang na ganito pala kasakit,
Hindi na sana kita binitiwan.
Kung alam ko lang na mahuhulog ako sayo nang ganito ka lalim,
Hindi na sana kita minahal

Pero ang totoo ay,
Alam ko...
Matagal ko nang alam,
Alam na alam ko

Pero..

Alam ko.. Alam ko na mamimiss kita nang labis

Pero.. pero
Kailangan kong umalis at iwan ka,
Kasi alam kong mali.
Mali ang makapiling kita

Alam ko na masasaktan ako nang sobra,
Pero kailangan kitang pakawalan
Dahil.. kailanma'y
hindi ka talaga naging sakin

Alam ko na mahuhulog ako sayo nang napakalalim...
Pero hinayaan ko parin ang sarili ko na mahulog sayo

Nagbabakasakali na sana, sana
Possible, maari, baka lang ay
saluin mo ako

Pero
Hindi eh..
Nahulog nga ako pero walang sumalo.

Kasi habang nahuhulog pa ako,
May kayakap ka na palang iba.

At nang bumagsak na ako sa lupa
Ang sakit..
Ang sakit sakit..
Nadurog na ang puso ko, wasak..
Was...Wasak na wasak na at
Nagkalat sa lupa

Pero alam mo ba kung ano ang mas masakit?

Mas masakit
Kasi heto parin ako, hawak-hawak ang durog ko na puso
Naghihintay
Na mahalin mo rin ako...

Habang hawak-hawak mo ang kanyang kamay
            'San man kayo magpunta
Kailan ba'y naisip mo ako
            Na nalulunod sa pangungulila
                        Nang ako'y iyong binitiwan?

Habang kayakap mo siya
            Sa gabing maginaw
Kailan ba'y naisip mo ako
            Na naghihintay sa'yo
                        Mag-isa, nanlalamig
                                    At sa init ng 'yong yakap ay uhaw?

Habang hinahalikan mo
Ang kanyang mapupulang labi
Kailan ba'y naisip mo ako
            Na halos matuyo na ang labi
                        Sa kasasambit ng pangalan mo?

Habang binubulong mo sa kanya
            Kung gaano mo siya kamahal
Kailan ba'y naisip mo ako,
            Narinig mo ako?
                        Sumisigaw na "Mahal na Mahal kita!"

Habang pinagmamasdan mo
            Ang kanyang matamis na ngiti
Kailan ba'y naisip mo ako,
            Nakita mo ako, nakita mo
                        Kung gaano na karaming patak ng luha
                                    Ang naidilig ko sa lupa?

At sa kung siya ay umiiyak at iyong pinatatahan
Habang pinupunasan mo
Ang kanyang mga luha
Kailan ba'y naisip mo ako,
            Naisipan mo man lang ba?
                        Na itigil ang paulit-ulit
                                    Na pagsaksak mo sa puso kong
                                                Dumudgo sa kaiibig sayo?

Pero alam ko
Na may kasalan din ako
Kasi....

Kailan ma'y di ko naisip
Na sa higpit ng yakap ko'y nasasakal ka na pala

Kailan ma'y di ko naisip
Na kahit gaano kalawak ang bahay nati'y
            Nasisikipan parin ang iyong dibdib
                        At hindi kana nakakahinga

Kailan  ma'y di ko naisip
Na kahit napagalitan ka sa opisina, sabik ka sana sa paguwi
Pero ang dadatnan mo lang ay isang malawak na bahay
Na mayroong isang "ako" na puro dada at reklamo lang
At ang iyong naririnig mula sa aking bibig
na tila daig pa ang isang rapper
sa bilis at walang paltos na panlalait

Kailan ma'y di ko naisip
'di ko inisip ang iyong opinyon
Kasi palagi nalang ako, ako, ako
            Ako ang tama

Kailan ma'y di ko naisip
Habang ika'y umuuwing pagod
Dinuduro pa rin kita
            At ito'y tumatagos na sa puso mo
                        Hanggang sa sinabi **** tama na,
                                    Hindi mo na kaya, Ayaw mo na

At yun umalis kana, iniwan mo na ako

Pero heto ako ngayon sa harapan mo...
Nagtatanong
            Kung mahal mo pa ba ako?

At kung ang iyong sagot ay hindi na'y

Heto ako ngayon sa harapan mo...
Nagbabakasakali
            Na may pag-asa pang mahalin mo ako ulit

At kung wala na ay

Heto ako ngayon
Sa harapan mo
Lumuluhod
Nagmamakaawa
Na balikan mo ako

Balikan mo ako
Balikan mo kami

Pakiusap umuwi ka na
Sa malawak na bahay
Na bahay mo, na bahay ko

Umuwi ka na, kahit 'di para sa'kin
Kun'di para sa mga anak mo, na anak ko
Para sa pamilyang ito

Parang awa mo na
Bumalik ka na
Kasi sa malawak na bahay
Naroon ako, at ang mga anak mo
Nangungulila... at
Naghihintay
Sa pagbalik mo

x.x

That day
Was the day
You broke up with me

I was stupid to let you go
I thought you would come back

That day I was crying,
But you couldn't even see the meaning of those tears
You have changed


Those eyes that once looked at me with love
That nose that breathed of love
Those lips that once spoke of your love
Was no more


That day, what I saw was
Eyes like a dead man
Nose that breathed from a tank
Lips that dried up


But even then
I still loved you
It hurts to see the sickness take you
Little by little
It changed you


So I cried
But you couldn't see the meaning of those tears

I kissed you
To show you I still love you
That I am here with you, for you

But with those hands that once caressed me with love,
You pushed me away
The frustrations that we kept
Swept us like a storm

You keep telling me I no longer loved you
Telling me it was just pity
You said the time for our ending has come

I said I was tired
But I never wanted us to part
I never wanted us to end
Taking care of the sick you was tiring
But since it's you I can endure it

I never want us to part
I am tired, but I never want to let go
Why didn't you understand the meaning of my actions?

Even though I was tired
I held on to you,
With my remaining strength.
Don't leave me
I just want you to hold on to me.


I can feel my tears trickle down my face
I don't want our relationship to end
Please hold me
Why couldn't you understand the meaning of my tears?


But then you said
It's over
And asked for a wish
I granted it
Hoping it will make you come back to me

I was stupid to let you go
I though you would come back

If only I knew,
I should have cried my heart out then
And begged for you to stay
I should have said the words I wanted to say

But after granting your wish
I saw
The light in your eyes gone
The breathing from your nose stopped
Then I knew

The words from your lips, I will never hear them again

You ended our relationship. But I haven't said goodbye.
I couldn't even speak the words I wanted to speak.

Will I see you in my dreams?
Even if it will be a sad one I don't care.
As long as I'll see you.
And then I'll tell you the words I couldn't say to you that day.
I loved you before. I still love you now. And will always love you.
'Coz I am stupidly in love with you.

Today
I know
You want to break up

Don't try to hide it
Your eyes tells it all
The burning love, no more

You that once smiled brightly for me
Now drowned in tears
I no longer want to see you like that

Don't cry for me,
As if you care
Pretending to be nice
When I know it's all lies

I know you want to leave me
But just can't say the words
You keep pretending nothing's wrong
When nothing was even right

Those lips
When you kiss me
I get choked up
I can't breathe
It's no longer love
It's poison

Crazy in love
That was how we lived
You and me, was our everything
Now
we are just crazy
But no longer with love

Now we exchange blows
Words that hurt more than knives
With our relationship
You keep telling me you're tired
But you can't even end it

Don't hold on to me
Feeling your breath against my neck
Is like a cold wind piercing through my skin

Now our love story is nearing its end
But even now you won't say it's over
I know you want me to say it's the end
Even now you are the nice one
And I'm the bad guy
The one who broke up with you

Fine, I'll be the bad guy
I say
"It's over"
I no longer want to see you with tears
I hope you'll find a better love

So don't hold on to me
I might never let you go.
Then you'll continue to hurt

So now please go,
Don't ever come back,
If you do I'll fall in love again
And the cycle of pain will continue

"But just grant me one last wish
Smile brightly for me again
Leave me with that beautiful memory"

Your eyes,
That looked at me with love

Your nose,
That breathed love

Your lips,
That spoke of love

We were stupid in love but now is the end, goodbye my love

Many know of their suffering
Only some knows to what extent
A few cared
But to help? No one dared.

This is a story of her and him,
Where they lived
Freedom is just but a FANTASY.

Her heart was aching,
the pain flowing through her veins,
reaching to the very tips of her body,
sinking deeper to her bones.

Though she was hurting
she could not dare let the tears flow
‘coz where she lives
only the free birds were allowed to cry.


When it’s raining he celebrates
he goes outside, to be drenched
he looks at the sky,
to  feel the rain drops on his face.

Only then his tears can flow
When the heavens have allowed him to conceal those tears
For where he lives
one can only cry in the rain.

For where they live, one can only dream for a split-second
getting lost in their wonderful dreams cost a lot

To dream a split-second more could cost your life

So they whisper their dreams to the wind,
hoping it would reach to the other side of the mountains

They pass their dreams to the birds,
hoping they could fly across the borders

They pray to the dark clouds to carry their dreams,
hoping when it decides to pour those drops of rain, it would be on that place.
To let the rain pour along with their dreams .
Let it pour anywhere but their home.

For where they live, dreaming is not for free.
So they can only hope that they dreams are carried to that place.
The place past those concrete walls,
to the other side of the mountains,
to the land where their dreams could be free.


I have heard the wind,
The birds have reached me
I saw the rain pour,
along with their dreams

Now I carry it
So I dream for me,
I dream for her,
I dream for him
And I thank the heavens.

I thank them, for where I LIVE one could dream for FREE.

Time have stopped for her
Until he came
It was then when her time ticked again


Then little by little she started moving
and with those movements
little by little she started growing


the time spent with him
made it possible for her to again
little by little started living


Every moment with him made her
little by little started enjoying
It made her realize, that for him
little by little she started caring


More time passed, then she knew
little by little,.. no..
more and more she started loving

More and more she started knowing
about the person that made her life worth living

More and more of him she wanted having
So more and more of him she kept asking

She loved him and He loves her
So more and more of him he kept giving

But the cycle of asking and giving did not cease

So the more and more she kept having,
The more and more of him he kept losing

It was late when they realized,
little by little his time was ending


Little by little he lost his sight
More and more she saw his plight

Little by little he couldn't feel
More and more she prayed for him to heal

Little by little that he couldn't hear
More and more she whispered in his ear,
"I love you with everything I have, everything I am, and everything I'll ever be                       my dear"

Little by little he was suffering
More and more she kept hurting

Little by little that the time kept moving
More and more his end is nearing

And

Little by little he stopped breathing
More and more she knew it was coming

More and more his life was leaving
little by little he stopped moving

And when he met with his ending
His clock also stopped working.

Time had stopped for her, but he made it move.
Now time had stopped for him,
and there is nothing she can do...

Had I known
That I would miss him this much
I wouldn't have left

Had I known
That it would hurt this much
I wouldn't have let him go

Had I known
That I would fall for him this much
I wouldn't have started loving him


But the truth is I have known

I have known all along
I knew so well

I knew I would miss him so much
But I needed to leave
'Coz I knew that it was wrong for me to be with him
I knew it would hurt me so much

But I needed to let him go
'Coz I knew that he was not mine to begin with

I knew that if I would fall, I'll fall so deep
But still I let myself fall
Hoping that he would catch me

But he didn't

He was already at someone else's embrace when I started falling

The fall hurt
It hurts so much
It left my heart shattered into pieces

But what hurts more is
Knowing that I am still clinging to those shattered pieces
Hoping you'd want it.

As the sun was about to lay rest,
In the ***** of his lover, the ocean
The waves offer a lullaby

The wind blows in silence
To the rustling leaves that offers a harmony
The birds flying, dancing to that tune

When the sun have reached in his lovers embrace,
The ocean was filled with joy
Glistening, sparkling with golden light

The clouds gather, the final curtain
The light was setting
And the darkness is creeping
When the sky was governed both by the two
Exploded a magnifecent scene

There she stood
Looking at the great wonder the world had offered
Her eyes marveled at the priceless image

But deep in her heart and mind and soul
All she could feel is the cold wind brushing past her,
Piercing her skin like a knife

All she could hear is silence, a proof of her being alone
A constant reminder of her loneliness

All she could taste is the bitterness of jealousy
And

All she could ask is
When will she ever find her warm sun?

Dreams,
Become as wings that will outshine my sadness
Cutting through the cold darkness
In this world where the wind blows like a knife
Dreams,
Be my armor and protect me through the night

By protecting me from this cruel world
Where despair and hope wear the same face
Dreams,
You have been shattered
Pieces of you have been scattered

My gentle chest aches,
By the fragment of you that pierced me
But I found joy with this pain
For I have kept a part of you in my heart
As long as I feel pain
I will be happy
For I will know that a fragment of you
Still resides in my heart

Those fragment of my wings that have scattered
To different worlds maybe
Worry not for I will destroy those walls
That separates you and me

I will make all the worlds as one
So there will always be You and Me

Then, Dreams,
Become my wings that outshine my sadness
Turn my loneliness to strength
So that I could believe
These tears, falling down still
Shall be changed to smiles one day.

When the sun will cease to shine,
And the moon hides behind the clouds.
When all the stars have fallen
It will prevail, Darkness will.

What should I do by then?
Should I wait with arms wide open?
Let darkness be embraced by me
And be bound together for whole eternity?

Even before, I have known darkness
It kept me away from loneliness.
So darkness be embraced by me,
Come to me and set me free.

Bathe my heart with sadness
Take my mind too, fill it with madness
Drop my soul in the abyss of wickedness
And lead my life to nothingness

I can already hear it coming
The nearer it comes, the greater the fear I’m feeling
But I won’t let these petty emotions overcome me
For in the place I’ll be going, Fear and Courage wears the same face

It is already here, now come and take me
Set my spirit free

I have a dream, a dream to fly
To rise above the clouds and touch the sky
Be able to reach the heavens and soar up high
What a wonderful dream indeed, a dream to fly


But it's just a dream, for I can't fly
For I'm just a peacock, looking at the sky
Not like the others who could soar up high
I'm just a peacock, and I don't know how to fly


Though how colourful my wings could be
It still doesn't have that ability
To help me reach my dream, to fly gleefully
But sadly, I guess I'll just be dreaming for whole eternity


I wish I could escape this sad reality
And let my mind be filled with insanity
And maybe, just maybe only there I can see
A peacock with spread out wings, flying gleefully

I have something to tell
But no one understands
Will you?

I love him
He loves me too

I love him
He loves me too

The problem now
Is they are two
Both are different
The old and new

I love them
They love me too
Must I really choose
The old or new?

The old, I loved
Long before
Started as friends
And then love grew

The new, I met
Not too long ago
Was a stranger to each other
But then love grew

I love them
They love me too
Must I really choose
The old or new?

I love them both
With all my life
Half of my heart
Each of them owns
In order to live
I need the two

The old is like
A home to me
A comfortable one
To replenish my energy
No matter where I’ll go
In his arms I’ll be back

The new is like
Places to see
Unfamiliar,
Exploring and exciting
At times when comfortable becomes boring
He adds an element
Of fun in living

I love them
They love me too
Must I really choose
The old or new?

You may call me crazy
You may even curse at me
But both I love
With all my heart
I can’t let go of either one

Can’t I have both?

I know I can’t love two people
I know so well
But can’t I be selfish,
And have them both?

I have two lovers
I love them too
I don’t want to hurt either
What should I do?

At the very first time I saw you
I fell in love, yes it’s true
For your beauty have surpassed all that I’ve seen
I bet you could take me to places I’ve never been

Forgive me for it might not be good
These visions in my mind is a little bit rude
To feel your body and mine intertwined
For now it’s the only thing running on my mind

As I’m getting closer and closer
Your beautiful traits are now clearer
That slender body and nice curves you have
To hold you in my arms, I would love

That red color of yours fills me with lust
Makes me want to grab you, oh so fast
They say in your kind, you’re the last
Then for me to have you is a must

Though your price is higher than the ordinary
I think having you is like fulfilling my destiny
Oh how wonderful how it feels
I’ve finally bought you, my new HIGH HEELS. :)

As she was about to marry Death
Someone interfered
So she ended up marrying Pain instead


Since then,
Not even a single day passed that she had not planted tears on the ground.
She planted them with her own bare hands.
Her own bare trembling, frail, bone dislocated, muscle squashed up, ligaments torn hands.


Until the time came
When the tears she planted came to life
The land gave birth to Hurt, Sadness, and Regret.

She continued to feed them with her tears until she was all dried up.
Until it was time for harvest.

But it was not the three to be harvested,
it was her.

Her time has come,
the time she can finally met Death.

Hurt, Sadness and Regret were farmers of death.
Messengers, deliverer, bringer
of death.
They were tasked to harvest her,
and deliver the harvest to Death.

Hurt was first,
to strike her down with his scythe.
Delivering immense pain  in her already smashed up body.

Sadness took over,
putting her on a box,
memories started flashing before her
and in a spit second she relived her life.
Her mind not being able to handle this extreme phenomena,
it no longer was able to hold soul in.

So her soul left.
She was now being delivered to Death.

With a little bit of consciousness that remains, she asked

"Where is regret?"

So they answered

As you are about to meet Death, travelling to the void, we are to accompany you..   But his task is different..
Sadness and Hurt may be lost in the void, but never Regret..

Regret remains...

Regret is someone the void could not contain. Even the void could not eat him .
So he remains in this world as a reminder of your life. He remains so that a single bit of you remains in this world.

Yes, even in DEATH,
Regret still remains....