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Aug 2019 · 477
Numb
Speak Slowly Aug 2019
when I'm down and when I mean really down, I become numb. I get lost in my thoughts and my feelings are caught in a tug of war. I want to feel something so bad and alot of the times the bad feelings are the best for feeling.

I'm on the brink of collapse.. The thought of relapse sounds so sweet..

I put a lock on my heart and hope that I'll keep the best parts of me together. but Im steadily losing my sanity, I begin to shake and tear up and before I realise it, my pent up feelings are slowly leaking and polluting those around me.

I know it's bad to bottle up your emotions but you know it's not easy to face the sadness inside you. Im not ready to embrace reality. I just want my emotions to go away or even die slowly...

Im tired of hearing my own thoughts because they taunt me and haunt me of the things Ive done and the things I've lost.

Death has seeped into my mind and his words tempt to calm the storm inside me.

-SS
I havent posted in a long time coz I've been going through lifes ups and downs. Now again im at another low and this website is the only place to express myself and stay anonymous
Jan 2019 · 904
Hit my line
Speak Slowly Jan 2019
when you hit their line, you really gotta think
you got their time? Think you're worth any one of their dimes?
up your word play because you might not be worth any time of day
foreplay? you go'n need that if you wanna hear em say it

there's no love without intimacy
no intimacy without chemistry
you wanna impress? best push your boundaries
think you slick and sweet, but where're your feats?
show your worth or get kicked to the curb

you want my love? earn it
please me? It ain't easy
show me your heart, your soul
show me your all and maybe partake
in a real fantasy of romance.

dance on the shores as the sunsets.
let the breeze give us goosebumps..
get careless and show every expression...
be calm in each others arms...
if we freeze time it'd be perfect...
so hit my line... don't waste my time.

-SS
-SS
lost count of what day and what poem. But I hope you enjoy the read
Dec 2018 · 432
Passion Pop
Speak Slowly Dec 2018
You fill up, and also feel up
Urge to get closer, kiss and touch every curve
Push you down anywhere even on the ground
appreciate every detail, better hold on tight
my greatest addiction, a delicacy like honey
when our bodies combine together, imagine a star imploding. Its hot
have you moaning, bathing in our juices
and when its finally settled. l'll hold you tight and sleep as we nestle
I thought the name was fitting
Nov 2018 · 272
Hey
Speak Slowly Nov 2018
Hey
Hey so this is out of the blue
But can I just say that I'll miss you
It was so much fun, I had so many happy moments
We were so complimentary and also a little dysfunctional
Despite that I was happy, but even though we feel a little ****** now
I know that we still have room to grow as individuals
Know I still care and hold you dear
So don't fear if you think I resent you
Because I'll still be forever vigil, to come to your aid
You've never done me wrong and I hope I can still be strong for you
I'll be there for you
Don't hesitate to call me
It's only fair
To appreciate what we had and are to be
So hey.. goodbye for now
We'll talk soon
I love you
-SS
Oct 2018 · 316
Destiny
Speak Slowly Oct 2018
It's calling me
A deep feeling within me and around me
Is this what I they call destiny?
Clouded by mystery and profanity
I find myself desiring a certain something
I am hesitant...
Maybe if I grasp it I can achieve something great
Greater than you or I
Don't shy away from greatness
Greatness in strength, beauty and passion
Master your own special chemistry
Explode into something amazing
And when you die, know your passing wasn't in vain
Through struggle and pain you can make history
Whether it be family or world history
You shouldn't hold yourself back to create your story...
Or many
Day 27
-SS
Oct 2018 · 739
Misunderstood
Speak Slowly Oct 2018
You know... sometimes I just want to be understood. But most of the time I'm ignored and misunderstood. I just want people to read me like an open book, maybe its because I'm prideful, but I end up keeping it all to myself. I'm so doubtful of the people around me, I call you friend but I question if its OK to open up to you.. friend. Too many shattered friendships, broken trust and broken hearts. A life where relationships are turmoil, when things are falling apart, I know other things are falling into place. Sometimes you just need space to figure things out you know? But stay too long and it can be self destructive, emotionally and physically. People say I shouldn't worry about the past, but that's where I learnt the most valuable lessons and sadly, a lot of people take that for granted. Blood stained history built what has become our destiny now. Good or bad, I'm just glad to look back and appreciate what I know now. If someone opens up to you, just know that you have earned their respect. Appreciate every aspect of it, because once you lose it, it could be gone forever.
-SS
Day 26
Sep 2018 · 3.0k
To You
Speak Slowly Sep 2018
I write to you, to you my dear. I write now but I'll read to you soon, I hope you'll hear me then. I need to get it off my chest, words I want to express. I'll tell you three things, to express your worth to me. I hope you keep this close, to free up doubt in anytime of your life. I hope you think of me, when you read these three poems.

To you my dear, I fear that anyone who comes to know you, will discover you're true beauty. Not just looks, not just pretty eyes but a beautiful soul behind that lovely personality. I love how you care so deeply about me, seemingly so when you are troubled yourself.

To you my dear, I adore how kind you are. You see, I find myself smiling every time you do any small good thing around me. I appreciate your deepest qualities and your kindred spirit. Even when I see your inability, I can't help but adore and love you.

To you my love, the enchantment of being with you, are moments I enjoy most. Latent with so much love and chemistry, I cant wait to see where our path goes. I'm so fond of the idea of 'us', I wonder where this river flow will go.

To you
From me SS
-SS
Day 25
Aug 2018 · 2.6k
Order
Speak Slowly Aug 2018
Slowly saving
patiently waiting
email received transaction confirmed
item conceived, time contracted
a gift for one, many or all
a package surely to befall
a package arrives as the sun rises
it finally comes, joy
it fills us as we tear it apart "oh boy!"
help yourself, its ok to treat yourself
again save and order
await the presents that cross borders
happiness from innocent pleasures
isn't that a great treasure
-SS
Day 24
Aug 2018 · 2.5k
Reminder
Speak Slowly Aug 2018
sleepless nights, man these emotions ain't making me feel right.
one day I could be feeling my best, but the next minute I could be a mess.
Feeling ecstatic one minute and then fall into another rut the next, the cycle is infinite.
When was the last memory of a sweet dream? These few days I've awakened only to be covered in sweat.
Vivid dreams that torture me in my sleep and life that stresses me in my wake. My morale and soul feel weak, just how much more can I take?
I just need a break, time to myself and more time to write.
Maybe take a trip, run my fingers over every spine on a bookshelf and remind myself that I'll be alright.
-SS
Day 23
Jul 2018 · 3.1k
Self expressions
Speak Slowly Jul 2018
There are things people want from me but can you not see that some things cannot be. I just want to be me, I write poems decently fast. But its so hard to spit bars. I dont want fame or glory, but with these hands I'll tame the expressions within me. Read my words imagine my world, but never see me in it. I'll share a new point of view, but only the open minded few can understand the work of hand, pen and paper. Is it a talent to write such raw feelings, only you, the being reading this can judge. Judge my words, my flaws and my ideals. Do I hit you deep in the feels? Do you relate? Is this fate? Maybe you and I are looking for our inner selves. It feels like digging through a book shelf. But as we age we find our greatest collection of stories and just as many worries. A pile of imperfections but there are still perfect moments.
-SS
Day 22
It was a restless night when I couldnt sleep so I started writing and after reading it over many times I settled down and could finally sleep. Enjoy :)
Jul 2018 · 2.3k
Slow
Speak Slowly Jul 2018
Life got me in a vice grip
Just a lil slip is alot of stress
But during hard times you just gotta press on.
Don't dawdle, dont step back
Accumulated struggles are just hurdles to pass over.
Some people live too fast
But to truly appreciate your life slow down.
Sometimes you got to step into a river and let it flow.
Dont control the current, try to be transparent.
-SS
Day 21
Jul 2018 · 2.0k
Addiction
Speak Slowly Jul 2018
Baby the things you do to me, you're driving me crazy. Dont you know you're not what I'm used to. Don't be confused im all for you. I can feel the static in the air, I've  given you a taste wont you? Dont be unfair. The tensions rising, wont you give me something to confide in.

Let me in for the night, dont fight your desires. Get on the ground coz ima go down on you. From your head to your thighs, your neck and your sides. Hold your hips and lick your bottom lips. When you finally beg for this **** you just might get addicted to this.
-SS
Day 20
May 2018 · 291
Sensual
Speak Slowly May 2018
Im feeling this
im feeling you
are you feeling me?
Got me curious, a little zealous
Is it me or is it you
Turn on the music
turn off the lights
we got six senses
lets get sensual
your lips on mine
You know we got time
-SS
May 2018 · 411
Day 10 Extra - Mother
Speak Slowly May 2018
A love like no other
Even if shes a bother
She loves unconditionally
Even when we are irrational
We are her first thoughts
And highest hopes
Thats why we have mothers day
To return love and uncover feelings at bay
Shower her with gifts
And maybe a kiss
She gave us life
So give her love
-SS
Happy mothers day
May 2018 · 301
Day 8 - DRINK
Speak Slowly May 2018
To those long days, shot
To little sun rays, another shot
To days gone wrong, a glass
To cheery and sad songs, another
A drink to all occasions
All it takes is a little persuasion
Hope you bring a coaster
Because these drinks are a rollercoaster
-SS
May 2018 · 241
Day 1 Extra
Speak Slowly May 2018
BEAUTIFUL

How does one describe
How does one provide
How does one decide
How does one hide

All that is beautiful

Is it in the heart
Is it in the soul
Is it in the art
Or is it for show

In my eyes

Its beauty of the soul
The idea within an idea
A scream, yell or a howl

The mind is a beauty of its own
And over the ages it has shown
That it can last the ages
Stay written on thin pages

Its so hard to be beautiful
But if you make it be prideful

Because to the people that matter
You'll be remembered.

-SS
This poem was inspired by one of my favourite artists. Jhene Aiko

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