Them: “He isn’t answering”
Me: “He is typing slowly”
him answering the second after I said that
Them: “you really know him”
Yes, unfortunately I do. 2 years later, and I still remember little things like that.
The thought of you makes me want to throw up, a lot.
The boy I used to know, where did he go?
I miss someone who no longer exist, how did it end up like this?
How did we end up like this?
How can a person change so much?
You don’t know the language, the culture or anything. You’re feeling like a lost puppy walking around this new place. I know that, I’ve been there. I am there. But at the end of the day, you’re just the new kid for a while. Soon you will know what you’re doing. Give it time.
last christmas I gave you my heart.
this christmas I forgot you existed
Kinda late but... wasn’t sure if I wanted to post it.
You say you love me, I say you crazy
We're nothing more than friends
You're not my lover, more like a brother
The song you always sang, made me laugh every time.
But I realized, that's us now...
U told me u love me, and everything changed
what if I disappeared
would you wonder?
would you text me, and ask where I went?
would you call me, if I didn't answer?
would you look for me, when I gave you no sign that I was even alive?
would you be sad? feel that something wasn't right?
or would you just move on with your life and never think of me again?
I understand you.
I wouldn't look for someone that didn't want to be found either.
You lied from the beginning, about everything. You couldn’t even tell me which year you were born.
What makes you think that I would believe you now?
When all I got for 1 year was lies.
I’m a child of the moon, it knows everything about me. It sees my most vulnerable parts. The parts of me that the sun will never be able to see.
It doesn’t make sense to me, I’m scared of the dark.
But I guess you really do keep your friends close, and your enemies closer.
It was like I was two people at the same time.
No one noticed me, no one ever listened.
But at the same time I was the one that couldn’t keep my mouth shut and I was liked by many.
I didn’t really know how to act. Should I scream or suffer in silence?
I remember every touch, every word, every kiss, every moment.
I remember our phone calls, our jokes.
I remember everything we did.
I kind of want to forget, but at the same time I don’t.
When I look back now I see every embarrassing thing I did, the memories are haunting me.
Somewhere deep inside of me I wish I never met you....
I don’t feel like I belong here.
I moved 300 miles away from you.
You didn't care about me, until the week before I left.
I meant everything. I went from nothing, to everything. What were you thinking?
You can't **** with my emotions like that. You knew exactly how I felt. But you still did it. Who does that?
The feelings between us may not have been real, but to me they were perfect.
I thought we felt the same, but I ended up crying in the arms of my mother.
I want to disappear.
not physically, but mentally.
I don't want anyone to know me.
it would be so easy.
in a second she was gone.
without a word.
without a goodbye.
I knew I would see her again.
goodbye means forever.
300 miles from where I’m supposed to be.
Living a life I never thought I would.
Missing the smallest moments.
Daydreaming about what could’ve happened.
If I wasn’t 300 miles from where I’m supposed to be.
I can see the horizon.
I can see the ocean.
I can see the beach.
I can see cars driving.
I can see trees.
I can see buildings.
I can see birds flying.
I can see airplanes lift and land.
I can see boats out at sea.
I can see everything.
And yet I can’t see a future with you in it.
hope for a long time.
hope never again.
hope is not a sure thing.
hope is not knowing.
hope is to delay.
hope is a lie.
— The End —