If I were to leave tomorrow
Would you notice?

If I disappeared before your eyes
How long before you searched for me?

You said our love was immeasurable
Yet you tried to rival it others

Was it ever enough for you?

The love I offered you
The gifts I handed you
----
If I could take it back
I would return to you

If I could see you again
I would run across the world

I made the worst mistake
When I turned my back

Every moment was perfection
When I was side by side

With You
----
I wish I could take it all back

I wish I could get you out of my head

Your touch haunts my every passing thought

Yet I miss it so

If only I could

Let it all go
----
In my dreams

I see your face

I see your smile

I hear your laugh

I feel your lips

If only I could

Let it all go

How come I can never feel the same?
Always these differing thoughts
These feelings of emptiness
These thoughts of pain and loneliness
But the sudden jolts of joy
The bursts of energy and imagination

Why do they never go away?
I am always trapped
In my own head
In my own self-destruction

I can never escape it
It is persistently digging in my soul
Locking me away in a prison cell
Something I can only imagine
Yet never describe
Always there
But never tangible

Am I broken?
Am I damaged?
Or am I just human?

Take me from this realm
Take me to another place
Another home
Take me so I must not suffer anymore

Take me to a place I may be alone
Alone with my thoughts
Alone with my memories
Alone without pain

Take me somewhere
Somewhere I may live
Freely and safely

Take me somewhere
Somewhere I may live
Without fear
Without pain

Take me away
Away to a new home

Without your guiding light
I am lost
In the darkest room
With no way out
With no sunlight
Nor moonlight

The darkness is all consuming
Nothing survives the sea of black
Not even the light I tried to give you
To keep you happy
To keep us together
To keep me fighting

I have no way out
All I can do
Is sit in the darkness
And wait
Wait for the next person to come
For them to save me
Before I am lost

If my time has come
You may release me

If I have served my purpose
You may let me go

You may let go of me
And let me fall
Like a sack
Filled with bricks
Sinking to the bottom
Of the deepest pits of the ocean
Reaching my final resting place

You may turn me over to my fate
And let me slip from your grasp

I am no longer needed
So let me go
Let me rest
Let me go
Let me free
You keep me chained
Like a dog
Chained to your soul
To your mind and yours games
The games you play to hurt me
The games you play to crush me
To ruin me

If you have had your fun,
Let me go
Drop me like a piece of trash
Like a broken toy
You no longer want
Throw me out the window
Leave me on the side of the road
Maybe I'll become of use to someone new
Someone better

Just release me
And free me

I wish to love
I wish to feel
I wish to keep someone close to me
Close to my heart

I wish to love someone
I wish to cherish them
I wish to always keep them safe
And always warm them
And keep them happy

But I cannot
For when I believe that there may be something
I may be wrong and embarrass myself
For they may not have the same feelings I hold
For they may not think of me in the same way
For they may not desire to hold me close to them
As I wish to

Why do I not love?

Because love hurts
And I've been hurt far too much

Have you ever loved someone?
If you have
You know the feeling

The pure bliss
The joy
The overwhelming desire

The desire to love them
Be with them
And have them by your side
Always and forever

But you also know the feeling
Of having to let them go
When it doesn't work
Or there is no way
That you can be together

I know both of these feelings all too well
I know the joys it brings
I know the pains it brings

I know I can't have her
Nor can I have her pearly white smile
Nor can I have her precious soft blue eyes
Nor the perfect personality of hers
Nor her incredible body, even if she sees differently

Even if my love goes reciprocated
I will still always love her
With my soul, heart, and my entire life
Even for the love I cannot have