Merope Angel Nov 25
Killing me softly
And healing me always
I’m never quite the same
Without you

Instinct is to touch lips
Feeling your fingertips
I’m never alone again
When I’m with you

So please don’t lie
Please stand by my side
When the red waves tide
And drown me inside

Please keep me alive!
You know what they say
But never do

But I do it with you.

Killing me softly
Healing me always
I’m never quite the same
Without you

The second you leave the room
The emptiness I consume

I don’t want to feel this way
Without you

So say what you say,
What you say almost every day
That we will be okay

Baby
I got you
If I lose you I’ll lose myself
Financial struggle that seeks to **** my health
Let’s be grateful for the little things
Time passing like lava drips
Merope Angel Nov 21
Where has my laughter gone?
Stolen from me like air from a balloon;
I envy the sound
Genuine and disingenuous alike
The heartier, the healthier...
the deeper it hurts.
Where has my laughter gone?

I laughed more than others
Always did

Where has my freedom of thought fled?

I found humor in the smallest concepts

My biggest comfort was that some things were so sad they were funny

Now they are only daunting or emptying

Solely or fleeting.

The connections are gone
The sense of a higher purpose is amiss

My lips sealed, I can only muster a smile.

Where has my laughter gone?
Merope Angel Nov 14
I pray for strangers on the streets
And I hope that they don’t notice me
I see ya got them sirens on ya
Just hope that ticket on ya
Don’t set your nose below water

I ought to
Hope that you pray for me

Cuz I’ve got some bad luck
Lately, baby

I ought to
Hope that you pray for me

Cuz I’ve got that bad bad luck
Baby

Don’t follow me
Don’t hear my words
Don’t listen to this very flow
It’s all absurd

To sit here sickly hoping
For someone kind attention

While my world will regardless
Burn

I pray for strangers on the streets
And I hope that they don’t notice me
I see ya got them sirens on ya
Just hope that ticket on ya
Don’t set your nose below water

I pray you got that
Better luck, baby
I hope that you’re okay and that you’ll find a way. I’m sure this is just self projection, to worry for you as I worry for myself, but it seems to be my only inspiration at the moment.  Be well.
Merope Angel Nov 13
I stopped watching the news cuz
Under this rock, I feel safer.
I still listen to you cuz
I'm not much of a waver

No, I can't say, "Hi."
I won't say, "Bye."

The story still listens to you
And I'll be okay
Some how some way

I just want for you for you for you
To be okay

I know that you don't look at me either way

I stay stuck in the shadows
In circumference of trap holes

I know how to worry, so
It takes up most of my time

I just want for you for you for you
To be safe

I get worried so much and I look away
I don't like to read the expression written in transgression
I know you're better than that

I wish I could hug you
Stranger that sticks by you

I know I get nervous around crowds, don't you?
Like a venom that's poisoning...

I get lost in rambling...
I can't look up anymore

I know the stories
My neighbors don't care much for my pace

But I'm not in the rat race
Looking for work that's near my place

Somewhere I can get paid to sit down
Since I can't stand

I can't stand
To see you this way

I stopped watching the news
I know I've got the blues

I still worry for YOU
I just hope you
    will
       be
         okay....
I still love you
Merope Angel Nov 1
Mama said be productive
Write, read, use your mind.

I said I'm scared for the future
She reminded me an angel is watching over me

Mama said things will be okay
If I win, which I will, or lose, which I'm afraid of

I said I'm anxious for the day
She reminded me she is always here for me

I lost my will to live before,
Now I've too much to live for

Even if it's just you, mama.
But there is a contract on my wall

With a time limit and bullets stating
What I must accomplish by the time is up.

Every day that passes mama
I'm afraid I'm failing myself

Just remind me of anything, please
Tell me on the phone what your dog looks like

I've never met him
I've not seen you in nearly 4 years

Just remind me what you always say
I used to hear it everyday

My body fights me, mama
My chest hurts and my throat pinches

I'm forgetting who I am
Remind me, mama?
Merope Angel Oct 17
Grip onto something that is meaningless;
Containing no life
with your harshest grip


Now let it go







That is your power
Merope Angel Oct 16
The contract for an agreement to live in the next nine months
I have not signed but my name is in print upon it

I will have to create a miracle within the next coming days
I have nine months to live

Like a citizen

Then I will be homeless.

"Please help!" Can be heard through my tears
But my brothers know not what to say and my mother says take it day by day

Ignoring all the dismay
If I may
Please, just take another breath

In nine months.

I want to draw blood now
And tie a noose now

Too wise and too unimportant

My inner will and outter activities can be used to define to AP High School students what an oxymoron is

But I'm just a *****, this
Is what happens to people put in poverty like me

Unaborted unintentional accident that I am
28 now will I live to see 29?

I have nine months
To be
Nine months to see the truth in me


"But I can't take sh*t in the bathroom without someone standing by in..."

No I won't die

"You can call me an '*******' I'm glad."
After you're a goner your words are so much stronger
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