You render them
All pale
And faded.
When I learn
To be of them
Less jaded.

You appear,
Our bottles meet
Somewhere between
The darkness
And the night
With a frail light,
A slight line
Of comprehension
And a thick line
Of love.

You render all
That breaths
In my life
A rather
Dead thing.


-- E

He was a pianist
But instead of the piano
He preferred to play
Grand Hearts.


-- Eleanor

Hello Stranger,

If you and I
Somehow crossed paths,
Either be
In my favourite bar,
Somewhere in the playground
I played in at seven,
On an obscure chat room
For those who don't fit in,
In the supermarket
Holding a can of coke
To use as a chaser
For when I went laying down
In the garden of
This abandoned house,
In Bangkok Airport
With luggage so heavy
I couldn't smile at you.
If our eyes ever met,
If only for a fraction of a second.
If you and I
Ever crossed ways
Then you should know
That I just killed myself
And I hope you live the life
You always wanted.
Wish me well.

Goodbye world
I will miss you.

-- Eleanor No Longer

What came after your leaving
Was the sealing of my heart
Most of the time
I am unwell but well.
Now, every time
The radio plays a song
I enjoy very much,
Or one of my friends
Show me free verse
I enjoy very much,
My heart opens
And bleeds, not the joy of art,
But the sorrow of the day
We moved apart.


-- Eleanor

If I leave
To plant my seed away
From your toxicity,
It is out of must
For I am a flower
And couldn't exist
Any other way.

You don't taste bad, no
In fact, you are the sweetest
Nectar I have ever tasted,
It might do others good
As for me,
It suffocates me.


-- Eleanor

I devote what little time
I don't devote to myself,
Not to him,
But to me thinking
About him.


-- Eleanor

Lately, you have been making me miserable
It's going straight to my stomach
And sickening me like bad wine
Or at least that's what I've been thinking.

But the truth is
You have always made me feel miserable
Take a couple of days or give.

And I've just been noticing.


-- Eleanor