Bella R Dec 2018
Stepping into 2019
Purposefully,
I recall the tumultuous
Year of 2018.

2018
Joy and despair intertwined
A sadistic rollercoaster
Up then down
My heart
Breaking then healing.
How I longed
To scrub my imperfections clean
Raw, painful
How I begged
To start afresh
Free of regrets.

2019
I prayed
Will be brighter
A second chance.
To the parts of me I hated
A gentle kiss
I will gift.
To the broken little girl
I let down
I hereby vow
To never
Shove her behind anyone else.

As the golden gates
To 2019 opens,
Into the warm light
I leap.
Bella R Dec 2018
You march on
steadily ahead
As I silently
Follow,
Your guardian angel
Your Nobody.

How powerless
"I love you" is
Just words,
My feelings
So passionate,
E v  a   p     o     r      a        t         e
Before they reach
You.
Bella R Dec 2018
Love is
A four-letter word,
They say,
Filled with the sweetest honey
Pretty as a pearl
Two people fitting
Like perfect puzzle pieces.

But truly,
Love is
Undefinable:
How I adore your teeth
Crooked from a fall at six
The way your gaze softens
As flecks of gold embrace my hair
In the sunlight.

I want
To caress your soul
Slide my fingers beneath your skin
Soft like velvet.
I want
To be the cloud that hides you
Selfishly depriving the world of
Your sunlight.

Love is
Not a four-letter word
But a starburst
Of emotions and affection
Of wordless concern and care
And that glass of water
That night in June
As my tears silently fell.
Bella R Nov 2018
You
Intriguing sparkles
As I peer in,
Curious;
Earnest to learn more
About you.

I yearn
To admire you
Through a kaleidoscope,
Watch the crystals crash perfectly
The beautiful imperfections blend
Into unique shapes
Of you.

I so desire
To fit us both
Into a kaleidoscope,
Watch us collide like fate
And fuse
Into breathtaking art
Reflecting each other
As the kaleidoscope of life
Endlessly turns.

Uncertain
It is,
But one day perhaps
I pray
It'll freeze,
Everlasting
Where our feelings meet.
Wasn't sure if adding the last stanza would make the poem less nice, but I reaally wanted to convey the feeling of uncertainty instead of the "person" being sure of this love. I want to show the immense love she has, but that she is actually unsure whether he likes her too.
Bella R Nov 2018
An owl
Told me
Once upon many times,
That I must
Love valiantly,
Toss fear to the wind.

But when I'm alone
Defenseless´╝î
Stuck in a limbo;
Infinite possibilities await,
Sir Owl, I pray thee
Teach me:
How do I love
When I'm afraid
To    
     F
       A
          L
             L ?
Bella R Nov 2018
Your
Lingering touch
Concerned voice
Teasing texts
Playful smile--

Since when
Did my unwavering heart start
Aching
Yearning for more,
Unapologetically greedy.
Ah. He's
The One.
My heart whispers
As gentle as you
"Yes"
But my mouth pridefully yells
"No"
Bella R Nov 2018
Eyeing you like candy drops
Poised upon the tabletop
I urge you,
Give me a sign

Looping handwriting
Spelling my name with                      
                                                 Invisible
Ink
Honey-coloured smile
In my    
                                                 Mind's
Eye
I plead,
Gift me a sign

My skin senses
Your Electric touch
A thousand miles from reality.
I beg,
Grant me a sign.
Please,
I pray,
Bestow upon me
My impossible miracle.
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