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William Lewis Jul 2019
Age 10
I went to sleep across the hall, eyelids heavy and dreams in my brain.
While across the hall my mum was murdered in her sleep

Age 11
I never slept

Age 12
Learned to sleep again

Age 13
Learned to be suspicious of every sound I heard, the creek of a stair keeping me awake till dawn

Age 14
Thought of all escape routes from the room for when they came back

Age 15
Thought of all the ways to **** a man with my school grade scissors

Summer of 16
I spent hours trying to lift things with my mind, trying to control the breeze with a flip of my hand and each night I prayed tomorrow would be the day that I found my superpower.

Do you want to know why it was so incredible because I learnt to smile again because for the first time my thoughts going to sleep weren't about how I was going to die but about how I was going to live.
Kinda a poem story, but this is how I feel and wanted to share it
William Lewis Apr 2019
I'm writing to the
1,000 and 33
who don't have a voice anymore
who don't walk anymore
To those who will never celebrate
there 16th birthday
or take their exams
To those born on the same day
as me
who could have been me
who I could have been
I'm writing to the
1,000 and 33
families who cry
while I celebrate
1,000 and 33
Mothers who grieve there child
or the fathers who cry into there pillow at night
I'm writing to say thank you
for being alive
I'm writing to say sorry
that your not
I'm writing because
1,000 and 33
could have been me.
William Lewis Feb 2019
The World tiptoes by
Leaving screaming and shouting behind
Songs being sung, screamed from the sky
A beat silent but not unheard
The sound of crying
Or is it laughter
Babies crying
Old men dying
And a whole lot in-between
Dogs are howling
Cats are screeching
Butterflies flying
Ants walking
And the wind rustling the trees
Tears growing sunflowers
Ocean’s roaring
Sea’s simmering
Children Learning
Adults Forgetting
Silence a price
Deafness a curse
In a world of noise
The screaming never stops
But it would hurt to be silent
As the world tiptoes by
Does it look back
Or continue with it’s silent
William Lewis Feb 2019
I remember the first time
Our skin touched

It was a 6th-grade English class
I leaned back on you
My arm brushed against your leg
And my body felt on fire
I crave the warmth from which you gave me
At first, I didn't realise it was love
I needed more
You are my addiction
As the years flew past
I took every opportunity I could
To see your skin
I've seen your ups and your downs
and I've never seen an ugly side
I've seen you beat yourself for being not perfect
But if you could see yourself the way I do
You would never worry again
I have felt the fire of your skin since then
So many times and I loved every moment
When I fell asleep on your shoulder
When I grabbed your arm
When I put my hand on yours

I remember the last time we touched
You ruffled my hair
and I longed for more
William Lewis Feb 2019
Did you have to be so ******* talented
The way you walked showed your swagger
The confidence the happiness
I could watch you walk all day

The way you smile
For years I thought you practised
Because a glimpse was all I needed
Before my heart melted for you

I've seen you playing games
The perfectness
The way you seem to never lose
How your eyebrows centre and
your forehead wrinkles
It seems my eyes are trained on you

You look so **** good
all the time
I've seen you grow
As has my love

My eyes may only see you
But your eyes only see them
William Lewis Jun 2018
It never stops
my greatest mistakes
my biggest dreams
always running
never stopping

I can't stop it
I can't sleep
I wish to dream

What guilt will
I fell tonight
What dreams
will I never achieve

From one idea
to the next

never laying still

Always running through
My brain

Never tiring
Never sleeping

Why wouldn't they
Shut Up
I can't make them
Shut Up
Turn it off
Never stopping

Make it stop
William Lewis Jun 2018
You pushed me down
I got up
You pushed me down
I got up
You pushed me down
I got up
You pushed me down
I bent
As hard as you tried to break me
Even with those rotten hands
You couldn't keep me down
You think you've won
Like all those times before
But I'm not like all your other
I'm bent not broken
I have a problem
I don't know when to give up
I pushed you down
You Broke
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