I remember when we first began
You was there every single day
Staying by my side
Little did I know you was gonna be my ride or die
Everyday I came outta high school sad and mopey
You came to my crib with a rollie
We lit it and smoked and also joked
I noticed that you wasnt getting any messages or calls
All of your attention was on me I was so appalled
From kisses to becoming ya misses
Long talks with long tokes
Getting high to ease the pain and slowly it went away and you were there for everything
I let you sweep me off my feet and  claimed you as mines
Best friends slowly intertwined
Sweet love our very first time
You started off with a massage and then we started to grind
6 years in and you're still on my mind
Fresh in my brain like it hasnt been some time
Love so sweet
Looking at your face makes my heart beat faster times 10
Still feel the butterflies while your kissing on my neckline
❣️

***** so good you wanna drown in it
Smarts and the looks yeah she got all of it
Type of chick that wakes you up with good head
Makes sure you eating home cooked meals everyday man
Got you looking healthy
Takes care of you
Works too , brings that bread
A lot of bread , a lot of bread
Faithful and loyal
Never betray ya soul
You got you a girl of gold
Hold her close , never let her fcken go
Be careful you might overdose
Don't get to comfy
Lose everything you had
Lose a blessing
Perfect little Queen ready
Fck it up & lose it all
Don't be mad, don't be mad
Don't be mad

Might as well and be alone
Fck with no one your on your own
No one needs to be let in
Disappointments when reality sinks
Love is nothing close from real
Working hard to never feel
I don't want to go through this love shxt again
Bedazzle me and make me understand
Understand happy shxt not love that shxt isnt bliss
Fck ya feelings and just call me miss
Nothing real just casual ****** feels
I don't want a wife or a husband
I just need some fcken
Never been the type to pipe and leave
Broken damage can change things real quickly
I might just be talking shxt
A ******* might be what I just might need
Humans make shxt to fcken complicated
To much emotions and attachments
Can we just flow and forget everything

I been in to much shxt to give you a reaction . .

I agree theirs two worlds
The world you let others see
And the one you write
The shame you feel , you hide it away
The hurt and pain closed and locked up with a key
The things you feel but do not say
You eyes reveal . .
What you really feel
Glossy from so much pain
Stronger you are yet you hide behind this facade
No one can feel your pain
But through you words you let people in . .
Inside of your brain as mixxy and crazy as it is
I write and speak my mind without saying it out loud
I conceal my face feeling a disgrace
*** is she another one of those girls who got fcked over and fell on her face
Was in the top of the world and lost her grace ?
So much gossip but I can't relate
Don't want to hear anyone say my name
Close my eyes and make others looking in go away
Far away from the truth of my words
Go away from the sorrows I will say
Go away far far away . .
What will they think . .

Insane
The way things are processing in my fcken brain
Anger and pain
So much pain
You would have thought I was shot
critical condition
Emergency
Why can I be with the one person I wanna be
Sleepless nights
Tear drops down my eyes
Cars and lights are outside
Life is passing me by
Happiness when will you arise
When is it my time
When can I be alright
If depression was a class
I excel +A
Everyday and night you're on mind
No other humans exist
What humans
Who are you
What where and why
Leave me alone I don't got no time
Time for who-rahs and lies
One day I see things being different
Genuine smiles , happiness all around
You by my side hand in hand
Legs against my thighs
Slow breathing and sighs
Wonderful nights and mornings to follow
Everything feels right no more sleepy hollow
My heart flutters at the thought of one day things being better than okay
Jumping over obstacles and making us sane .