T'was never meant to be,
Never meant to last,
Mistakes yet again from the past
You sing them like a tune
From a time nearly forgotten
My heart now decayed, rotten

Through closed eyes
I see a dark, distorted paradise
Where perhaps they understand
Where perhaps they accept it
Accept me for who I am
For what I am, alas,
They do not, they cannot
For I am what they shall never understand
What they cannot stand, nor comprehend

Every time they fall in love
With little old me
They cannot help but wish to keep me
An indoor cat, they cannot trust
Jealousy, jealousy, it's never pretty
But I am not meant to be
Trapped indoors all of my life
I wish to roam, to be free
To return and still love my home
Even if it were more than one
One can have more than one home
And love them all the same;
This they can never understand

All well, I should have known
In part, perhaps I did
Merely waiting for the other shoe
To finally drop
Hit the floor
Echo, and echo...

- Jay M
August 12th, 2022

Seas of mystery
Forests of the unknown
Visions of uncertainty
The veil between reality
And the ill-perceived has grown thin
Thin like a teenagers bubblegum
Thin like a sheet of paper
Thin like delicate mist

What lies beyond,
What comes next,
What happens now?
Came to such a point,
A point of no return,
But where could any
Possibly return to?
Where was the beginning,
Is there even an ending?

Questions, boundless
As the stars shimmering above
Answers left blank, empty
Souls left hollow,
Mere shadows of their former selves
What could be left after the fall?

Glimpse into a single ray
A beam of light through
Dark and stormy clouds
Clouds full of rain, full of dust
Full of accumulated pollutants
All to come crashing down
Towards the broken earth
Eager for a single tainted drop.

- Jay M
June 30th, 2022

Blue of pale sky and
Blue of deepest oceans
Glittering, shimmering,
Shine, beam about in your wonder
Entrance, dance, and sing
Go, be free, as was meant to be

Grandest of them all
Crown jewels among them,
Those more plain, while you
You shimmer, you glisten
Blue of sky, do not cry
For you stand above
Truly a star in the sky

Little did they know
Beneath the silk and veil
Lay a festering knot
Twisting, waiting
For all to fall
Fall to stain and ruin

Could have, should have,
Would have, but not done
What became of the time
Cannot be undone,
Only patches for mending,
Costly repairs, much to do,
Damage not only to what is seen
But to what is felt,
Damage done to you

Apologies can only do so much
When all has been said and done
But perhaps in time, lessons learned
All shall not be forgotten,
Perhaps one day forgiven,
Or even not, that is well,
But perhaps, in the days ahead
All shall be better;
Questions asked, memories of stone
Or in the least this night
Shall not leave heart and bone.

- Jay M
June 27th, 2022

So too flows the river
Impure, of sunken iron
Floating leaves on smooth
Tranquil surface of
Endless water

Smooth river stones,
Green droplets along tops
Of eager ripples
Surely knowing
In their babbling flowing
Where they shall eventually pool

- Jay M
June 23rd, 2022