"Dear God,
Why am I alive?
And why is it that I hate myself so,
So, much?
And my mom,
Does she even love me?"

Poor little girl,
Stuck trying to figure out,
An answer she'll never get.

Little girl,
With so much attitude,
But she hates it.
"I can't get rid of my attitude,
No matter how hard I try."

The tough girl,
With so much pride,
Can cry more tears than a baby would,
For a whole year,
She could cry more in a minute.

Silently screaming, crying, laughing,
.
At how pitiful she is.

How her every thought was,
"Why am I here?
What would life be like, if I was never born?"
And in every thought,
Tears would come gushing out,
Along with the sharp pain she felt, deep in her heart.

The little girl with daddy issues, and very unstable bond with her mom, she waits silently for her rose red beating heart to come
To a full complete stop .

It's been fourteen years since the fire in my eyes started to ignite.
Everyday is a different battles that I have to fight.
Words are the guns that would **** me if used right.

'Lil ol me would never put up a fight.
So of a sand bag taking punches,
Every punch being taken rips the bag , letting presious sand flow out.

Being a new solider in war where veterans surround and judge your every move,
will constantly break you down.
Pushed around for not knowing better.
To be used until your no longer useful.

Sooner or later the fire burning in my eyes, will die out.
My will is what keeps it alive, but once it runs out
You'll never hear a sound escape from my mouth.

My love for you
It's hideous
You are an angel from above
I'm the devil from below

You never would've notice me
And probably never should
But you see I'm as greedy as the devil
I will want more than given

You who are the light
Is bright for me in the dark
I wish for you to love me
And be able to be your equal

But I should have never crossed your path
I dirtied the light
Something like me should've never touched

You screamed to my face yelling
Go away
Maybe if I died will that soothe your pain?

I should grant your wish
Maybe then you will think of me more
I just hope you know that I love you
And that I'm a disgrace
I took your wings and bounded you

I know for a fact that it will heal
You beautiful wings will once again appear
Don't worry I'm nothing compared to you
My death will be nothing but a lullaby to you
I wish you good luck with life and all
I love you so much that I will fall for your part
You can fly once again that's all that matters
I would give my life to see yours fly higher

I love you so much and that does not matter
As long as you succeed in life is all that matters
So I bid you goodbye forever
Now I will forever be nothing but a forgotten memory.

I love dancing with the summer breeze.
It makes me feel free.
Every step I take,
Is like flying through skies on a sunny day.
also the sand loves to ****** my feet.
They never seem to want to leave.
The sun hugs me constantly,
While surrounding me with warmth.

I can't resist you,
So how could I forget you?
I'm a devoted women
and I'm saving myself for you.
I feel so good even ecstasy can't compare when I met you.
I can't take this wait, so please
hurry up and come fetch me.

An enteral melody,
Putting many to sleep.
Those who hear it never wake up.
A melody so lovely,
It will put all your stress to rest.
The melody is so beautiful,
most people rush to hear it.
It can be heard anywhere, anytime, no matter
what your statuse in life.
A melody so graceful,
It puts you to an enteral sleep.