Leave me alone.
I don't want comfort.

I don't want such holy water
Over these wounds I caused to myself.
I won't want your uplift
When this weight on my shoulder keeps sinking me down.

Why do you want to play with me?
Why are you still here?

Leave me alone.

What else do I do? Lie to myself that I'm useful?
Sweetness stays for awhile before everything returns to bitterness.
Your comfort can only sweeten so much of the bitterness of my uselessness.

Leave me alone.
Please.

ax^2 + bx + c
A formula taking me nowhere
All these numbers, these units and deltas.
I'm not understanding.

2H2 + O2 to 2H2O
A formula helping none at all.
All elements I'd even have in my life.
I'm not understanding.

e=mc^2, p=mv
All the calculus that I cannot see.
I only want to find my own emotions and sanity.
And those I'm not understanding.

All this sine, cosine, tangent.
All this math, physics and chemistry.
Even the feelings of mine that are tangling.
I'm not understanding.

Sleepless
Tired
Exhausted.

Want more sleep.
Want more rest.
Want more relaxation.

Still work to do
Still jobs to do
Still things to do.

Still breathing and living
And yes, still having fun.

Note of a piano
Noises from an instrument
Noises that I know
Unfamiliar to my brain.

A line of music
Noises from a song
Noises that I picked
Never remember anything long.

A piece of poetry
Words from literature.
Words that I wrote
And I'm not even sure.

A world slowly darkening.
A dimension gradually breaking.
The sky looks as if it's crashing.

All I did was standing still.

Still, as time was moving.
Still, as life was worsening.
Still, and slowly as I'm dying.

And my poetry remains.

Unenlightened.
Unacceptable.
Uncontrollable.

A taste of defeat.
An entry to success.
Failure is a treat
For all your process.

You may fail exercise
So you can finish the test.
You must be precise
On your experiments and stress.

There's nothing in this world
That is impossible.
You just need to try harder
And make your failure admirable.

I have been seeking for you.
Love is the only reason.
You are the only truth.

I was pathetic and alone.
Still as pathetic now, but less.
Do you know how much I was affected on?

Even though I am careless.
In just a moment, you are already there.
Death can't compare to when you are in unhappiness.