It almost makes me sick
when I realize that
I had imagined you so many times
loving me
that when reality punched me in the face
with the brutally honest truth
that you couldn't care less about me
all the love I had given you
in my mind
felt pointless
and painful
and yet,
I've never stopped thinking about you.

Im jealous of the life of other people,
The smiles and laughter they take everyday,
The friends and family that's happy everyday,
And I'm just here watching my life fly away,

Im jealous of the love people share everyday,
The kissing, the hugging that romantic scenes I swear,
That love ain't always fair,
And I'm just here broken when no one cared,

Im jealous of the sky and sea,
That peaceful place i dreamed it would be,
Nothing but the sound of silence,
the freedom to set me free,
to fly with my feathered wings,
But I'm chained you see,
In a cage, clipped wings
Till death I bleed.

How could you forget
The way my lips kissed you truths
You felt as heavy as your own
Because they were
We were likes and strangers
How could you forget
The way my arms kept you safe
On nights where the world
Knew how to hurt you most
And I held you as you refused to talk
Because I understood, I had been there before
How could you forget
The laughter in my eyes
As we serenated each other songs
Written decades before we were born
Because I still hear your voice
Deep and unbothered
Full of passion as you looked at me
And me feeling infinite
How could you forget
What it feels like to wake up
Tangled in me, limbs intertwined
Because I wake up empty
Wishing to go back
Longing for those days

How could you forget