Dear Best friend,
I know times are hard for you right now and it breaks my heart to see you in pain.
Your eyes are dull and blank with so much hurt and sadness and you're always with me but never fully there.
I want to help keep you down to earth when you're spaced out
I still love you with all my heart but I miss run around slap happy with innocent laughter all night
Some of my happiest moments are with you, you've been a consistent light in my life and helped me through everything
With every phone call until the sun is nothing but a faint memory, with every minute long hug where I lose myself in your presence and recognize a calm and that squeeze you always do to remind me that I always have you to help me
Ian you are so important even if it feels like the world is crashing around you
I know you feel trapped and suffocated with no where to go anymore, but I'm always a phone call away
I want you to talk to me when something is wrong
You are too great to suffer alone
I've seen your dreams and optimism shift and shatter throughout the years and I've watched as you rebuild your aspirations and instill a sense of confidence in yourself. Every guitar, pen, and eyeliner before a concert that you hold brings am honest smile to my face and I'm so ******* proud of you.
I envy your ability to express yourself so fluently and so well because Jesus Christ are you talented. You've inspired and helped so many of us and I'm so grateful to have your goofy ***
God blessed me with such a beautiful, intelligent, gentle soul in my life and I never want to take it for granted.
You are so much more than what you see in the mirror
You're so worthy sweetheart
You deserve all the happiness the world has to offer
Every late night car ride
Every ice cream cone in the back of the truck
Every box of cereal from the discount store
Every sweet tea you instantly regret
Every mosh pit and concert where the stage lights could never compare to your bright and vibrant energy
You're so strong
You always get through every difficult day, every exhausting car ride to work, every moment you feel alone and useless
Ian you always have me there and friends that care and support you
I will never stop worrying regardless of your reassurance, I want you to be okay.
I know you will be
Because Ian,
I love you
And I never want you to lose you
It's a rambled mess but all I've been able to think about is how sad you've been lately and its destroying me
I wrote it on here so I never lose it
(people not ian: dont think about title too hard)