Patricia M: Poems

Patricia M Oct 2018

Life as an imortal isn't easy,
Full of boredom, anger and jealousy.
But when I met you things changed,
And I didn't expect it to be quite strange.

Eyes as bright as the stars at night,
Staring at me as I fall from this flight.
Knowing that I'm a danger to you,
Despite that I still tend to pursue.

You don't know the effect your name has on me
First it was flowers
But now its daggers
And it hurts so much that you don't even see

I promised to love you with all my heart
And yet you still tore me a part
Can't you see what I promised is true
Why have you decided that we're through?

To you it may seem as quite a joke,
But to me its just another given hope.
And I knew when we decided to just be friends,
We wouldn't be together till the very end.

Chasing you feels like an infinite maze,
A start with no finish; you have me on a daze.
If it wasn't for that Nymph that stole you from me,
We could've been together; for everyone to see!

#love #confession #heartbreak

Crazy Love

Patricia M Oct 2018

Crazy Love

It's crazy;
going insane.
To much in my head.
I need to get it all out.

Please help me.
I need somebody.
Can't stop thinking.
I'm falling in love.

To much at once,
Please slow down!
For my sake,
I need you to say that you love me.

But alas you never did...
Now I'm just bits and pieces
of the heart you once hold,
broken like never before.

To those who has been broken and never got back up again.

#love #hurt

Eris

Patricia M Oct 2018

Eris

He who walk with my throng.
Must prove that they belong,
cause once you have fallen from my grace.
You will soon know how it feels like to be replaced.

If you don't want me to be your end,
Then don't be stupid and become my friend.
So be careful of who you betray,
cause I can lead your life astray.

Started a war with an apple,
Just because of a forgotten invitation.
that lead to the destruction of people,
A day that is full of sorrow

I am Eris,
Daughter of night,
sister of war.
The goddess of Chaos, strife and discord,

#eris #goddess #choas #strife #discord

Friends

Patricia M Oct 2018

Friends

I'm freaking out.
I'm in doubt.
listening to the things you sprout
making things go to another route.

Please stop hurting me.
I can't handle it anymore
I'm dying inside where no one can see,
and yet I still consider you my savior.

Walking beside me is a friend;
one that I thought would last till the end,
could've sworn she was true,
but that all change when things were through.

Dedicate to the people that have betrayed me in the past...

#friend #hurt #trust #betrayal

Intoxicating Darkness

Patricia M Mar 2019

Intoxicating Darkness

Truth-filled words,
in a painful world.
Through a dark path we were lured;
making me wish to be free as a bird.

And now as the words fill my head
with its intoxicating darkness
that makes me see red,
in the moment of loneliness.

downtrodden with the feeling of worthlessness
had the audacity to be darkness
the darkness that has forever been inside
the person behind every act of misery that can never be forgotten

just something I needed to get out of my mind.

#darkness #misery #truth #words

Lies

Patricia M Oct 2018

Lies

Words that hurt,
are laying within the curb.
Being sprouted by those who are *******,
who are nothing but shrewd

The scoundrel of words;
the one that makes life full of cowards,
fake mockingbirds,
and sorrowful drunkards

It's a misdemeanor;
when false hope is given,
that is forever hidden;
And is taken to the grave of the teller.

#lies #hurt #hope #truth

Pagibig, kamusta?

Patricia M Jul 2019

Pagibig, kamusta?

Pagibig, kamusta?
Ang tagal na natin hindi naguusap,
sana okay ka lang at hindi nagdurusa.
Papayag ka bang makipagkita?
O nasaktan ka na ba ng sobra at hindi mo na kaya.
Alam ko may pangako tayo sa isa't isa,
at binalewala ko lang na parang basura!
Patawarin mo ako at binitwan kita.
Pero sa isang pagkakataon muli pwede ba tayong magkita?
Kaya sa oras na ito,
Ang tanong ko lang sa iyo ay kamusta?
Alam ko ako ang may kasalanan nitong lahat!
Pero aking sinta kailangan ko lng malaman okay ka pa ba na tayong maging dalawa?
Meron ba akong second chance na makukuha?
O ayaw mo na dahil hindi mo na kaya.
Kaya pagibig kamusta?
Sana okay ka lang at hindi nagdurusa...

Its the first time i wrote in a different language

#love #tagalog #regret #heartbreak #promises

Pleading Soul

Patricia M Nov 2018

Pleading Soul

In every glance I stole
My heart simply glows
Cause in front of me is a woman who I love the most
In a world that is filled with lies and foes

Seeing you with another utterly breaks me
Filling me up with anger and jealousy
I know you think that this is strange
But I think its time to accept this change

So here I am in confesing my love thee
Hoping you will take it seriously
I am promising to love you with all of my heart
And all that I'm asking is for you not to tear me apart

It may sound selfish,
But it is my only wish
For my soul will be broken
If I am not the one you have chosen

#love #confession #hope #jealousy

Realization

Patricia M Nov 2018

Realization

Compared to her, I am in the losing fight,
But I will be dreaming about you at night;
on how I would treat you right.
If I was the one at your side.

A fate that I'm not ready to meet,
Terrified to greet,
One that will put me through pain,
And the one that will make me go insane.

Is the fate that I will begrudgingly accept,
For I was to blind to see,
what has been standing in front of me;
and now its to late.

Because I have always thought of you as a friend;
one that will be with me till the very end.
Now that I realize I'm losing you,
I just hope that the love you find is true.

#confession #love #defeat #acceptance #hope

Sleepless Night

Patricia M Jan 2019

Sleepless Night

Another sleepless night,
spent in the labyrinth of the dystopia I hide.
eating away the innocence that I have left inside;
and its leaving the feeling of hopelessness on its flight.

nights that is filed with thoughts,
thought that are about death.
keeping me up all night
on days that I don't need it the most.

it's endless;
it won't stop,
i can see light.
but can't seem to reach it.

help! help! i cry out in plea.
but no one notices .
its the reality of which they do not want to see;
and its all because they want to live in a place called paradise.

a place called paradise...
where everything is perfect,
where you do not need to feel troubled,
a place where I want to be.

#dystopia #death #dark #paradise

The Child's Broken Dream

Patricia M Aug 2019

The Child's Broken Dream

When I was a child I always dream about paradise.
Where dreams come true,
everything you touch blooms,
and where the word trouble ceased to exist;
but that was a dream of the child.
A child full of happiness.
A child that hasn't been tainted.
A child...let's say innocent and sweet.
But things change, Oh how they change!
everything and everyone I knew
didn't think that it was strange
So now as I lay in bed
With things popping into my head
All of it about the place I once dreamt
That always makes me see red
With Another sleepless night
That I've spent in the labyrinth I hide
The hidden dystopia, that's forever inside my mind;
When I realized that the perfect world that I hoped for is nothing but a broken dream,
experienced by the child that was once innocent and sweet.
A child I once used to be
But know I have heard the truth
That made my world ******* painful
A world that has darkness in every corner
Intoxicating you as you grow older.
I wish I could be alright.
But the mind says otherwise.
I'm Out of sanity.
Bounded by calamity.
And if people are asking if I'm fine,
I say yes and fake a smile.
AaWhy can't they hear my plea?
Are they deaf and too blind to see?

This really is just a mash up of my 4 of my poems

#broken #dream #child #insanity #darkness

The Hidden Dystopia

Patricia M Nov 2018

The Hidden Dystopia

As I lay on my bed,
things pop in my head,
all of it about death,
making me see red.

The hidden dystopia,
that's inside my mind;
its dark and gruesom,
everything....not right.

Wishing to be alright.
But the mind says otherwise.
Out of sanity,
Bound by calamity.

People asking if I'm fine,
I say yes and fake a smile.
Why can't they hear my plea?
Are they deaf and too blind to see?

Just something going in my mind

#dystopia #insanity #fake #hidden

Timed Love

Patricia M Oct 2018

Timed Love

Time passes by
But my love for thee never change
From the very first time
You stole my heart
To the last time we spoke

I wish I could be there with you
Living the life that we want
life filled with love
Like we have always dreamed off

The fire in my soul flickers
Yearning that we two will be together.
Tis the bliss of this dream
That keeps me standing everyday

Thank you for helping me out with this poem friend.

#love #time #breaking #broken

Waiting

Patricia M Oct 2018

Waiting

Here I am standing,
Waiting for my food that has yet to come.
Dying from starvation.
Hoping for salvation.

hahahahaha just for fun when my food took too long

#food #hope #wait #hunger

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