The Habits of My Heart

The Habits of My Heart Jan 2014

She’s as simple as it gets,
no need to stress.
she’s the kind of girl that never keeps you waiting,
always re-applying red lipstick,
she might as well be plastic.
She’s got something that i cant figure out,
she’s got you wrapped around her finger,
hypnotizing you with her deadly ways.
Baby, if she’s got you then I want whatever she’s got.
I want them tight ripped blue jeans ,
red lipstick on a saturday night,
I’ll be doing anything to make you see,
I want whatever she’s got.

The Habits of My Heart Dec 2013

TWH- Thinking, Wondering, Hoping

I’ve been thinking of how we ended up here
this big mess we made of a love that was once so strong
How did we go wrong?

I’ve been wondering what made you go
what you made you change your colors
cant see the light through your dark shades of grey

I’ve been hoping you'd come around
run through those doors one more time with that oh so sweet yet violent look in ur eye

What now?
This is it, this is goodbye
This isn't our see you later.
This is our never ever after.
What now?
You'll smile and I'll wave
We'll walk pass each other as if we never cared
as if we never happened
We'll pretend it doesn't hurt and the cycle will go on and on
till someday one of us forgets the other
And just like that we become strangers all over again.

That’s what you do when they turn into strangers, it’s all you can do. Think, wonder, and hope cause honestly what else can you do?

The Habits of My Heart Nov 2013

See You Again

When I see you again I’ll be sure to make it worth your while
Show you what you missed, what you failed to see time after time
And then you’ll wish you could take it all back
To those nights I held you close,
but baby you made your choice.
When you see me again,
don't look my way,
dont bother to say,
all the things that slipped away.
And I’ll be seeing you again,
you’ll carry me with you,
But that’s not something I’m used to.

Please understand if someday you happen to see me, don't bother saying hello.

The Habits of My Heart Nov 2013

All of Me

I promise you can have all of me,
all the broken i love you’s,
all the first last forever and always’ s.
You can have all the moments that never lasted
I still remember the love left behind
Don't try to figure me out,
just take me for what they’ve made of me,
Scars and bruises on a heart that gives no guarantee.
Heres all of me, all that I could be
And I hope it’ll be enough
Cause this is all that’s left of me.

What didn’t **** me, it never made me stronger. It’s supposed to but it didn’t. It made me build a wall so high that no one can climb it. This isn't being strong, being strong is when you can take risks and love freely. This is being afraid, afraid of the lessons you failed to learn.

The Habits of My Heart Sep 2013

Please Remember

I can picture you with her,
holding hands in a cold winter night.
Don’t you remember how you held me so tight
I can see us breaking walls,
trying to push through it all.
Don’t you remember our first last kiss,
it was back then in the fall.
I can forgive all the times,
you kept me up at night
waiting for you to miss your flight.
Could’ve sworn you were my white knight.
It’s called falling in love for a reason.
You take a leap of faith and jump, hoping you’ll end up on two feet.
After all, hoping just leaves you disappointed
Cause no, you don’t remember the laughs and memories we made on our way to the ground.

When you live everyday in the shadow of what you had with him and he doesn’t even remember the love lost.

The Habits of My Heart Sep 2013

I Don't Know

You know, I’ve been staring at my screen for a while now
Thinking of what to write, Trying to put it all together
I thought of all these ways to tell you this but you see I don't have the words and I don't take that lightly because I am someone who is usually good with words.
I usually know what to say but here I am sitting in front of a blank screen trying to figure out what words to put together.
Truth be told, I don't understand what I'm feeling,
Its like I’m sad and happy at the same time.
I’m simple but god I’m a big mess
I’m quiet but my thoughts are loud as ever
I dont know what this is.
Its like I’m everything and nothing all at once.
I wanna say so much I just don't know where to start,
So I guess I’m going to end with saying nothing at all.

I seriously have no idea what to say.

The Habits of My Heart Aug 2013

I Call It Love

My heart tells me now that I have found you, our love will be remembed by the world
Just say its love,
this is love.
It’s the kind of love that makes you wish the moment would last forever cause it feels like you've been blessed by the angels above.
The kind of love that makes days feel like months because staying away from him is unbearable.
Just say Its love,
This has to be love.
The kind of love that makes you wish you never loved this much cause a love like this would only destroy you when in time for goodbye.
It’s the kind of love that will send you running the other way because now more than ever you know you’ve got more to lose and losing him would only mean losing yourself along the way.
*Say Its love,
This can’t be love.

I dont know what this is yet and it doesn't matter. Call it whatever you want, whatever it is- it feels good, whatever you want- just don’t walk away. Give us a chance, Give love a chance.