If only I had seen
What my life would mean
To me
If only I had seen
How I would watch everything crumble apart
If only I had seen
That I let it fall apart
And fall back inside of me
If only I had seen
What happened to me

Perhaps
You really did
Steal my heart
Are you running away with it?
Or did you throw it to the ground?
I don't believe you would do either
But I am so unsure
Of what you want
Do you even want it?
You seemed to
Now
I'm not
So sure
Anymore

There's gotta be a way out
From these chains holding me

My heart is breaking apart
Spinning around in this illusion

Or am I disillusioned

My mind is breaking down further

I walk through these shards of glass
Just to be with you

Desperate for some kind of revelation
Holding on to desire

You are the only hope I can see
Dying to believe

It's part of me
You are the light to me

It's not you when
You intentionally hurt me
With a voice laced with venom
And words like  knives  
                                      
It's not you when
You crush me
After you've built me up
It's not you!

I know you
It doesn't feel like you
Shivers go down my spine
Your energy feels like a malevolent stranger
I wait for it with feared anticipation


Where did you go?

Once I felt safe
You were home

Comfortable
I was happy

Now I'm just
Afraid      
                      of you
Paranoid                  just like you

For you're own actions
That you blame on me
I accept it
Because I believe you


Where did you go?

You aren't my friend I once knew
You aren't who I fell love with.

Who are you?