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  Nov 2018 Jaimien Tolbert
Kelsey
Today I say "I Do."
Today, I commit to loving someone
that I could only dream of.
Today, I realize that I will have to work,
Work to love her like she deserves.
She deserves forgiveness, kindness, patience.

Today I will create a love that is impenetrable--
No one will be able to erode the strength,
self-confidence,
and resilience.
Inspired by "thank u, next" by Ari <3
Jaimien Tolbert Nov 2018
If I walk outside right now
The sun would have no issues
Shining down on my back
Like I was being carried by the sun

Felt like I didn't have to walk on my own anymore
I could let the flow of the wind just take me for a ride
Feel the air run through my hair and take my breathe away

Wow now I'm next to a tornado
The wind is blowing harder and harder
Now I can't stand on my own two feet anymore
Im being thrown into things

Cars, houses, and big *** buildings
I can't control or see anything I'm just flying in a never ending circle that can't be stopped
There's too much dust in my eye

I wipe it away
I can't see 5 ft into distance
I'm sitting in the middle of street
no houses or life to be

I'm telling you this not him
Remember
He can't see
The rain is pooring to hard

£££~~~~~work in progress~~~~~£££
Jaimien Tolbert Nov 2018
I can't sleep
With you on my mind
But I'm glad you are
Because I need you to get me through the night

But it hurts only being able to think of you
Because I know that if I want to see you
We both have to lie and sneak around
Just to say hi

The times we're together
It always ends up being a bit of a fright
Because she tells me to leave you alone
But I know I won't and that's alright

I hope that you stick around
Because I will too, but just to the side

Through the stuggles I'll be waiting in the moonlight
Waiting For you to arrive with a smile that just shines

You make everyday a great one
And that's not a lie
But I'll be waiting for the day
you can sleep with me in my bed at night
Jaimien Tolbert Oct 2018
Memories
can be short and sweet
Just like that piece of candy
you just swallowed
You remember how good it was
till the last bite
...And then as time goes on you forget about how amazing that one
piece
Of candy
was...
Jaimien Tolbert Oct 2018
Sometimes I look into the clouds
Trying to pick out what each one could be
Is that a fish, a flower, a plane,
It can be anything you want when you're daydreaming

N

I daydream all the time
Especially when I'm walking outside
Basking in the sunlight
Listening to the birds sing there songs so beautifully

N

Daydreaming is an escape
A get away

Y

A way to separate you from the world for 2 seconds

L

But when you come back to reality
You realize they are only dreams
Dreams aren't real....they are dreams

E

I'm stuck in a daydream
The one thing that makes me happy...
Isn't in reach
And I constantly have to daydream
To close the distance

C

I'm my dreams I have to lie
And bend the truth
Just to bring the one thing
That makes me happy
Closer to me

O

I don't like doing it but is the only way

J

Dreams aren't real...but is so nice to daydream
Jaimien Tolbert Oct 2018
Girls
They make the world go round
But right now mine is spinning in reverse
Its like everything that they want they don't want
Everything they think they never thought
Everything theyve done they've never done
But it's still my fault

You told me from the beginning you never wanted to be intimate but that night tells a completely different story and it's still my fault

You never text me anymore but you read mine as if I was writing a book about my life and you were interested in seeing how bad you could percieve it

You tell me everything is ok and we'll be fine but it's not and you said it yourself why didn't you tell me in the beginning ...
Because it's my fault

How does that make any sense
I'm trying to tell you what happened....you wanted it...you were more or less starting it yourself....I never once had the thought that tonight was the night...but it's still my fault

It's crazy now that you don't wanna even talk to me
Nor do you want to even be around me
And that is my fault??

I'm sorry but this time it's not and I can't sit here and say it was because of you not being able to control who you are when you're under the influence

I'm not saying anyone can but I wasn't sober so it's my fault because I was drunk and so we're you???
Yup it's my fault

Us guys we do take the blame for alot of things and I did this time because I knew it wasn't all that big of a deal and not that you made it one but now it's something that is stuck to my name because you can't get it out of your head
That's my fault???

I love you to much to say it's your fault when it is but I'm a guy and what do guys do... Take the blame no matter what because girls make the world go round

Mine is just spinning in reverse
Jaimien Tolbert Oct 2018
I have to talk to you about everything
I know it's not alot but it's meant the world to me
Just sit down and listen to what I have to say
Stay....don't leave

Im Sobbing
Because I know how you think
And you how percieve the world around you
And I'm trying to give you something new
Something That you may have never thought you could  find

But right now something feels off and I know it's me not you.
It's how I've created something that can't be just left alone
And I know it's just sitting in the back of your head
Sometimes I think it makes you want to be left alone

But I'm here to tell you I want what could be
Anything that involves just you and me
So I'm asking you one time
Hopefully I'm not annoying you but
How can I tell you how much you mean to me
Stay....don't leave

Let me elaborate just a little bit on my question
This is kinda more of a explanation
but we'll roll with it anyway

I try to tell you all the time how amazing you are
And everything you mean to me
I've given you my heart to hold
And I see you holding it gracefully
To the point where i can feel your hugs even though your not next to me

Wait....don't look away just yet I'm trying
To tell you everything
Don't pack your bags just yet
Stay....don't leave

Yes we have only known each other for a week and memories were made that will last for ever and be cherished for the rest of my life
But I don't want those to be the only memories we both can percieve
I want to have more where I can see you smile at the end of everything
Here I go at trying something fancy
Hopefully I don't embarrass myself to much but but do laugh if you please sorry for the rhyming I'm not the best at this but here's my shot
Stay....don't leave

I wants us to be like birds in the sky playing around flying through the trees singing our song
For every one to see
As if we were performing in front of people
Reading a poem about the life of you and me

I told you before I want to hold you up on the highest mountain because I want you to know everything that we have done wasn't worth nothing every thing has meant something but the top of that mountain will only be the beginning

I just want to know how you feel about me and everything in between
if some thing changed tell me I'm not one to scream
Ive thought about you countless times and especially the times you sang to me

Made me realize you were the one for me
The most perfect girl in the world and
One more thing
We can be great and I know time is what it's gonna take but baby please please please
stay...
don't leave....
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