was disguised as
When thoughts of perfection invade our minds
We picture roses, water, and sunshine
All pieces infused with beauty and wonder
No words have they uttered
Their presence never questioned
And yet they are looked at with overwhelming affection
But when our gazes are turned towards our reflection
Those thoughts have already vanished
Replaced by too much or too little
too quiet or too loud
Concepts that cut to our inside
And morph our outside
Ideas that should never have grown in our eyes
For we were sculpted with the same knife
As trees, mountains, and skies
LOVE THY SELF
I clipped and prodded
Gazing in the mirror
I chiseled and I cracked
Twisting into the wanted woman
I painted and scratched
Thinking only of perfection
I snipped and I whacked
Until there was nothing left
Bodies caress in a whirlwind dance
Dusty nicotine plumes pack the atmosphere
Alcohol drips into the vein
Stories converge into none
Worship of the ages has begun
Her wings fell away
And she descended into the willow
Screaming for her laughter
And wishing for her hope
She warped into a free fall
Crashing into heartless branches
Grasping for a helpful hand
Engulfed in wordless fear
Forgetting to believe in herself
Come to the meadow and the midnight flowers will steal your woes
Follow the river and the water will welcome your winding wearies
Glance up at the sun and the birds will soar your fears
Dance through the trees and the leaves will whisper away your tears
Spring into the ocean and the tide will sooth your mind
Dig in the ground and the soil will root out your weeded nerves
Wander into the world and mother nature will hug you mighty tight
And as drops of blue drip down her cheeks
Bearing the weight of a deeper loss
She notices a hidden reflection within them
That she, herself, forgot to love
The best lies are those webbed through truth
Spun with mockery and delight
They climb slowly up your mind
And when the truth is insight
You are already wrapped in silk
Staring at fright and Death's bite
When you howl at the moon
Roaring about lost loves and broken parts
About the stories that ended in shatters
And a scissor snipped life
Know that I hear you
And that I am always here for you
When you glance at my stars
And wish a wish that resides so dearly within your heart
Know that every whispered wish has been delivered
And someday soon it will be answered
When you notice the darkness between the light
The one that seems to mirror your screeching fright
And reflect your own life
Know I will soon fade
And that the day always comes after the night
Your Night Sky
Where did my feelings flutter too?
The ones that make my body sparkle
And pound my chest with joy
The ones that spew anger and shout rage
The ones that throw tears at my eyes
And sooth relief into my veins
The ones that turn my thoughts into dreams
And my dreams into life
The ones that left me ohh so unlonely
Why did they go?
Turn their fate into fear
Dabble in the arts trickery
Shout out those who shout at others
And never leave your heart with another
It will protect you from my demons and me from my dreams.
It grasps at hollow beauty and piercing lustful eyes.
It guards me from the outside through wire disfiguration
And laughs at their ohh so horrid haunting humor.
It stabs through my back the ones who want me closer
And chants a hundred times for sleepless nights and seventy two nightmare perfections.
But you see this is all just for me
So no one can steal the light that threatens to turn itself free
The one that is dimming through my very own thievery
For when I put on the mask
It stops me from being me.
We all have one
She lets you hug goodbye
And squeeze the happiness from her mind
For she knows,
you won't be back at all
To see the love run out in tears,
To glance at the wished-for-death nights
And scream-less screams of grief.
She lets you kiss her neck,
And leave your sorrows in her heart
for she is aware,
You won't be there to notice
the pounding thoughts of never enough
Or the way the circles under her eyes
are the only smiles she gives
She lets you stride away
And never glimpse back
For she can tell,
You were looking for a different love
One thats wrapped in loveless beauty
And lets lust sleep in the bedside
She lets him leave her heart
For she believes,
Another love for her will come to be
Wrapped in passion, chocolate, kisses, and a love she deserves
Standing on top the waters edge
I dream of lands too far
Of wishful castles dripping with knowledge
And flying fairy contraptions that wing across glimmering oceans
I wander about looming buildings sculpted by giants
And stars that ponder them from above
I hope for twisting tales connected to dragons
And dandelion dancers beckoning you to love
I imagine rain cloud laughter
And a time where the impossible believes in us
I breathe for the days that this land will come
And if I am ohh so lucky it might welcome me home
Wander into my mind.
I dare you.
You can go left into the north where the pool of mayhem swims.
Or up into the undergrowth known for the drawings of the mad man.
Choose to drift sideways and discover you will the drips of knowledge from the domain of hell.
Or take a chance over that way in my very own misfit lane.
If you are lucky to locate the memory tree knock six times and she will welcome you if only I deem you worthy.
Three Kings of Four
Sat on their Crown of Gold
Seeping with Blood and Bone
Chanting the Way of the World
Laughing through Darkness and Shadow
Worshiping Chaos speckled with Sorrow
Tearing the Spirit from the Soul
We old up
Our hair runs out of vibrant colored ink
Minds unwind forgetting the time
Skin loosens falling off in memories
Fingers twist into crumbled stone
Feet stiffen to the decaying ground
Hearts slow their rhythms descending into sleep
They tell me the fires are not real
That the sparks sprinkling my veins does not exist
That I am just imagining the insanity in my own world
They reprimand the way I stare as I glare into the devils eyes
As I demand the devil to stop shouting my sins and the ways I have lied
They scream with "it is all in your head" as smoke rolls from their eyes
All I want to roar back is that they can't shout sanity into insanity
But I can't
And with that I glance down looking at the way hell opens up and snatches me into the ground
Maybe we should believe the unbelievable
They flash across the screen in red, blue, and white suits
Moving like spiders, robots, gods, and soldiers
Wielding destruction charged hammers, capes, shields, and swords
A lifestyle filled with dreams and living
One with the power of winning
And a spec of losing
Until the day they turned to dust
Ashes to ashes they all fall down
And I wonder, "Am I just the glimmer in the river reflecting someone else's light?"
I'm to much like other people that I don't even know how much of me is me anymore.
When he glances at you
do you notice fire raging passion in his eyes?
Do you see a calming rainstorms
or a sturdy mountain to rest your mind?
Do you glimpse a castle of wonder
or knights of protection?
Do you spy a galaxy of love
or a promise for time?
Do you see anything in your man's eyes?
In November, the thought of pain cripples me to tears
In June, I am an invincible goddess
On Mondays, I can withstand the **** of a warriors blade
On Thursdays, I flinch at the slightest needle *****
At midnight, I’ll survive the fires of hell
At noon, I crumble at one touch
It's the grandest defeat of them all
She kisses your lips
And releases your soul
Snatching it from the home you’ve only known
For only a wish and cent
She will carry you to the dark world down below
She’ll be your only guide past rivers of screaming spirits
And the three headed hound who guards the kingdom of hell
Through these glooming gates
She will depart
And you will face the judges of fate
They will screech at the life you thought poured with everlasting innocence
And from the three realms they will decide your final resting place
But my dear, be warned, for this will not be the end
Why do you live like you are one step out of your soul?
Like if you take one mistaken breath you will forget your own home?
Why do you walk with a sword already in your side?
Like someone is constantly suffocating you from behind?
Why do you watch with twitching eyes as the world is dancing by?
Like a screen is always screaming in your mind?
Why do you shrivel in your own skin?
Like you think you will have plenty to choose from when life gives you time?
Why do you care about so many whys?
Like it all matters to those who will never be you?
Death grew in his mind
Taking root in the hollow of his soul
Darker and darker death grew
Until it was seen in his obsidians eyes
And I knew the ghosts roared for his name
Tearing at him during the night
Burdening him with their cries
Staining his life in despair
All he wanted was an end
But, sadly, the Under Lord can not die
Don't tell me where to run or to hide
You havn't played with my demons
Or danced with my nightmares
You weren't there
When I bellowed with sorrow
And fought with fear
You havn't been burned by there love
Or chocked by there lies
So please do not tell me where to run or to hide
Magic whispered at her fingertips
Ghosts dripped from her red wined lips
Trickery twirled from her ever cluttered heart
Hurricanes roared in her icy blue eyes
Hellish wonder spun from her mind
She was known as Chaos and no one called her mine
She stayed up in her high tower
Not knowing if she should come down
She was warned that the world outside was dark and dreary
But the tower within was as well
She had a choice
To choose which demon she wanted to dance with
The one with in or the one out
No one else would tell her
So she was left to scream, and to shout
— The End —