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TheSilentScream Jul 2019
I wonder why I feel this thick weight sinking my joy into a sea of fear.
Pending destruction is near, creeping behind my calmed motion.
I fear


that if i love, it'll be stripped away
Drowned
Distorted
Left to decay.

I don't think I can feel that again...

So maybe that's why I feel so anxious.

Love too hard and it breaks the foundation, love too soft and it floats away...

I can't take this, is what I want to say...but I know I might not ever get my way.

I love hard, crush hard, feel hard emotions...a battle in my head filled with so much commotion.

A battle, a war between 100 of me, how...

I wonder why I feel so sick when I talk to him now.

The ship is strong, but the sailer is scared of waves

Be still my beating heart, for I need you to behave.
TheSilentScream Jul 2019
Fin
Saw the petals falling, we watched them together
Said we'd fight for us, we'd always last forever
Understand
Understand
What is forever
Never ends
Never ends
With empty letters

Strolling through the path with sun kisses and good vibes
Losing sight of where to go, dotted and full lines
Understand
Understand
Could've been better
In the end
In the end
It's my endeavor

Looking in the mirror, multiplied, distorted
Seeing shades of me and demons, disappointed
None would win
None would win
And start over
All again
All again
But with a clover

Images scattered over the bed of rivers
Shifting memories that could've stayed forever
In the end
They all bend
Crumble and withered
Play pretend
Comprehend
Just don't get bitter
TheSilentScream Jun 2019
How come the crowd watches me but never shows it supports,
I scream and scream till reality just contorts,
But they muffle my voice with headphones and pretend everyone's happy...

Suffocated on isolation led to my tragedy.
Casualties happen when voices are left unheard.
Questioning impact because the water was shallow, and no one would say a word.
But they watch afar, partying together, is it our fault?

Wheeling in third, active insult, feels like an assault.

How can i exist in a crowd, and yet i still feel unheard...


Can I even do anything about it...?
Am I a puzzle piece that could fit...?
TheSilentScream Jun 2019
Underestimate the quaking of the words
Typed
Voiced
Or forever unheard

A silent hope can be broken and burned when the power possessed crushes it by the herd

Watch the flames fallen forward in a forest of words
And the plot of a story speeds into a swerve
shifting endings and results in a dive like birds

Ending in beak-first collisions next to a concrete curb

RIP motivation
when the crowd leaves you dry

Sometimes left in the dark pondering your reasons why
Wishing you had the spark that people liked, you cared less about awe
Only left to no surprise when you get drowned and nobody saw.
It's okay to write for yourself, but no one can say honestly that they ONLY write for themselves when writing online.

We like to relate, we're connected, and we want people to feel heard, but what happens when you're the one not feeling it...?

Sometimes a Diary isn't the scream you need, but the support of your fellow struggling team.
TheSilentScream Jun 2019
Don't take my heart's voice and make it your Starbucks review.
It may not be pretty, perfect, and cookie cutter constructed.
But I still feel something, and i'm sure you do too.
I'm not a dog and pony show.
I wish I felt it were true.

What's a poet to a writer?
Why are some valid and others not?
No reaction is a reaction after all.
But even alone, I must be a fighter.

I'm not a dog and pony show.
But I wonder if you'd ever know.
Because you choose our voices like you choose your candy.
You prefer what's sweet, and discard the sour.

My voice is a sweetart, what comes with it tingles.
Listen and react for it's story, not the speaker,
and you'll feel it deep inside your heart.
TheSilentScream Jun 2019
I promise I can evolve
Please don't you go leaving
Have faith like you have your laws
Don't need to set a fee

I once thought I knew the sound
Of what love meant for me
To honestly be love bound
I just needed to see

There are many who will come
And many take for free
But none have reaped the full sum
Of the wealth, I could bring

I'm not cocky, I'm just one,
That has something to sing
And I have value to some,
But others, I just sting.
TheSilentScream Jun 2019
I don't know love by the call
Not now, there're broken keys
I told him how hard I fall
He said he would catch me

I once knew not what I was
The value stored in me
My mouth is filled full with gauze
Talking just makes it bleed

The song just loops on around
Like life goes circling.
My guilt is hoping I'm found
But I'm just stuck with me.
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