Well isn't this a surprise
In a bar where all hope dies
          A girl
                        with silver in her hair
                         so sweet and fair
         Once
                         I knew her

Bold yet sweet
she would always greet

                        The o so lonely me.

How I miss those simple times
                        thoughts
                        fe­elings
                        songs
                        lies­

Unremembered, still not less nice.

They cut away my ears
              They did

They tore my chin down
              They did

They broke and mutilated my fingers
              They did

You see?
It was them

              But just blame me.



( I was scared but now i'm free)

Sunflowers are nice for me
because I love bright yellow things

       But.

The center of a sunflower is always dark.
The deeper you go
the darkness will grow

And when you'll reach the dead center


             oh you will know.

Waking up in cold sweat
was it real or just a threat?

I'm not...


                                                 sure.


It really scares me sometimes
              /not seeing with my eyes/

Desperately looking through my             memories

What isn't real, or rather, what is?
Maybe I need to take my pills
                                to see the kills
                                      of my dreams

It gives me chills
To have the feels

                                               -awake-

The Friend
  The Rock
  The Ally
  The Partner
  The Shoulder
  The Protector

                         that's what you were

  but in the greatest time of need
  you failed
                              and weren't there.

When time came to an end
you left just to pretend
                       that you didn't know.

        I call *******

Deep in your heart you knew
far before anyone else
But when the time came

           you were too weak to face it.

My "friends" came to say 'hey' on my birthday.

I was so surprised, almost happy until She came into my flat.
Just like that.

I knew I could not go with my friends, for I have to take care of her.

But she was different. Something was wrong.

High? Drunk? Sick?

Her eyes empty. Hands cold and shaking

But that just can't be her; she has been gone forever now.

                So who is this stranger          
                that I let in..?