Today may crush me
But there is always still tomorrow
A future i can change
Somewhere i can do better
But without today
There isn't a tomorrow
In that tomorrow i can fix myself
Fix this rift, this hole
That breaks me deep down
I can change what i will become
Even if the past is irreversible
With all the bridges burned
All the doors viciously slammed shut
I know now I must build more, open more
Open myself to this world
Even if I'm simply human
And I make mistakes
I can prove my heart still drive me
Even if you won't love me
I plan to change this world
Starting with myself...
One step forward and two steps back
That's how it had always been
But I will break away
Break the chains that had bound me
So that those steps forward count again.
To make more than just a small difference
To grow and adjust myself
To create the best me possible
So even if you slip away
Leave me here amongst the ashes of our bridges
Then i know you'd have changed me for the better
So let me say now that I refuse
Refuse to go back to the monster i was
So even if i can never see you again
You would have left your mark on me
Taught me the values of love
Showed me the flaws in myself
But most importantly you showed me I can love again
So if this is the end
Then let me tell you how grateful I am
For you, for your ability to have touched my life.
So even if our bridges and doors have shut
And i choke on what could have been
Then at least i can say you have saved me.
How you cured me of my apathy towards my own life
How you had fixed my shattered heart.
So thank you for everything
Thank you for never giving up on me
And know, you'll always have a piece of me.
You'll always have that part of my heart you had filled.
So I'm sorry for causing the ash and dust
For burning the bridges out of my own guilt and grief
So I understand if you tear away for good
At least I know you would live a happy life
Wherever it would take you
Even if it wasn't a life that included me
But at least i would be a better man in the end.

It was a land forsaken
a land not worth living in
A desolate wasteland of dreams
With the tone of a million screams
We cannot and will not fight alone
When we can try to own
Up to these mistakes of past
For this war we cannot last
So end me now before I wake
And pray the lord my soul to take

I do love to write a poem
Even though some are good and some are bad
The bad, well i just throw them
The good make me glad
I tend to write for myself
Enough though that is not always true
I like to write them for my former self
So I know that things will get blue
But also how things will be bright
Although there will always be struggles
Maybe it would cause some light
Or possibly more juggles
But one thing I do know
Is that i want to see all of
This chance I have to glow
And this amazing chance for *Love

I am a hallowed shell of my former self
A broken man
With a lost soul
My world spins with no stop
Stuck in this sea of despair
with no chance of repair,
My mind pounds
Yet i sit here alone
Thinking, plotting
Of a way to become my former self.

People ask me why i act this way
It is because you cannot handle the true me,
Can't handle the war raging inside of me,
Yet you ask me to be "Myself"
But why should I
When we are all the same
We are all hiding behind this veil,
This illusion of sanity
That we abuse!
Because we are to scared to be ourselves.

In this chaos
Who knows what will pay-off
We are lost
But at what cost
We hate
We're late
But there is no need to fret
We have no regret
But in this confusion
What are we really losin?

Do you have a heart
Because you are so cold
Your personality is a bit ****
You make me want to fold
You have no soul
You aren't to bright
And you are so cruel
Go fly a kite!