It's like... yeah! I'm ok! Obviously!
As if they expected you to say anything else?
Have you tried saying anything else?
Good luck with that.

Yes darling.  I am ok.
Everything is fine.
No I don't want to talk about my deranged nightmares
No it had nothing to do with you
Don't be sorry
No you can't do anything to help
It's not your fault

I'm sorry my dreams are too insane for everyone
Bloodbath bloodborne star struck endless pits of eternity?
Every time your heart stopped in sheer terror?
On repeat until you sweat yourself awake?
Or wake up in the livingroom?

Something inside of me is dying
And I don't know what.
There are SO many people in this world
Still sticky lifeless corpse eyes
Rife with the scent of death
Left of the side of the road
Forgotten in the sun to bake.

There are even more lonely people.
Something inside me screams
"LET IT DIE"
I simply can't admit it
I don't think I have a choice anymore
It. Is.
Killing me.

There are sweet forest spirits
That dwell in ancient growth
Of clovers and moss
Dimly lit under beryl canopies
Near flowing waters
They would carry these great souls
Into undying peaceful lush of
Quiet happy memories and laughter
Forgetting the hardships laid upon them by war and hatred
The emptiness in their hearts will be filled
With warmth and love
being made whole once again.
All sorrow will be unmade
Playing as children dancing in the sun
On distant shores
With an eternal breeze on forever smiling faces
Calm blissful
Infinity

I am a candle standing in the midst of a forest fire
The ashes blowing in a cold wind over an unwound clock
Exhaled in heartache from lungs that can't cry out anymore
When you slip off a step
Or walk around a corner and see a person
But can't quite make out their face
The space in between these  moments
is where my heart aches in stillness
For those too soon lost.

The dark visions in my dreams
With red eyed intent
Reaching for the skies
With their shadowy tendrils encompassing
My sleep

The light and unimaginable beauty breaking through
Music so intense it shatters your heart on repeat.
The same dream over and over
Set on a pedestal built by thieves
Taught by liars
We were all lied to.
I know that's what you heard.
I know it's part of what you felt
I hear it everywhere too.

If we are all one
I am nothing without my missing pieces
Lost letters in volumes of pages
Clawed in walls with fingernails desperately seeking egress.

Holding the book, telling the story
of everyone ever loved
Standing on a rock in the middle of oblivion
Surrounded by no one.