They say
Forget the past
How can you?
When you stare at it everyday.
When you bump into the past
Every weekday,
Every Morning,
Everyday.

Well,
This is depressing.

Hurts ,
Trying so hard
Not to think of you.

Hurts,
To ignore you
To keep my distance.

Hurts,
To see you so close
Yet not touch you.

It's the only way
I know
To get over you.

I wish I knew
What you are thinking,
Maybe then
I'd be free enough
To open my heart
Full of words for you.

Till then,
If ever,
I'll keep them to myself.

I wanna be really really good at something,
What could it be?

Hey,
Look at me.
I wore heels today
please notice me.

Hey,
Look at me,
I pruned my eyebrows too,
Got my legs shaved.
Painted my nails
I Got red on my lips
Please notice me.

Hey,
Look at me,
I did a dress today.
Notice me yet.

Hey,
Look at me.
Tell me you like me too.

Hey ,
Look at me.
I care what you think of me.

When things go wrong,
You remind me who I am.
I hold my head high,
Thank you for all I have,
That you have given me,
Not out of merit
But your love.

I couldn't thank you enough.
My Lord.

Calm , In-control,Collected
That's who I am.

Till I see you,
Till you walk into the room,
Till you talk to me.

Then,
I am sweaty,Nervous,tongue tied
I don't like myself very much then.
How the hell,
Did I give you so much power over me.
I want it back.