Racism and bigotry
In this divisive country
Black men being killed by cops
Tear gas for a photo op
Recession, race wars QAnon
As the pandemic rages on
Kids ripped from their families
Unwanted hysterectomies
Double standards in the senate
Greed and power their new tenet
Ignoring laws when they see fit
Nothing but hyGOPocrites
How can so many be so wrong
Falling for the pumpkin's con

Why am i always losing friends
When will this cycle ever end
Abandoned by most of my friends
Feeling undesired yet again

Another weekend home alone
Another weekend gone and blown
Another weekend i'm up late
Trying to find myself a date
Another weekend all dejected
Feeling lost and so rejected
Another weekend full of tears
The same as it has been for years
Another weekend in my head
So ******* completely wasted
Another weekend gone and blown
Another weekend all alone

All alone, nobody's type
My depressions it's so ripe
Can't escape this downward spiral
All alone cause I'm so sad
And oh so sad cause I'm alone
Wish I knew how to fix me
Find a way to be happy
Wish could end this downward cycle
All alone because I'm sad
Yet so sad cause I'm alone
Wish I could end all this pain
And my happiness regain
But I feel my fate is final
Oh so sad cause I'm alone
Yet all alone because I'm sad
I really need to find a way
To no longer be this way
To finally end this downward spiral
But I'm Still sad cause I'm alone
And all alone because I'm sad

This is the age of alternative facts
Where many believe the earth is flat
Fighting against all logic and reason
Science, knowledge considered treason
Propaganda machines spreading their lies
Enough to make a journalist cry
Humanity void of all common sense
Controlled only by dollars and cents
People now see what they want to believe
Instead of believing what they see
This country’s future is now in question
All of our progress now in regression
Society dealing with cataracts
Now in this age of alternative facts.

I'm in the dark, my sunshine gone
I lost my spark so what went wrong
Cant see the light and feel like dying
No end in sight i sit here crying
Can't find my smile or where it went
Searched for a while and now I'm spent
My mind’s messed up, I have no clue
And I ****** things up like i always do
Still crying inside , no end i can find
An emotional landslide all in my mind
So much pain and im still crying
What’s wrong with my brain
Just feel like dying

Your beauty i cannot resist
As i lean in for a french kiss
Your so soft skin i do caress
As we both start to undress
I kiss your neck and behind your ears
Exploring your body from front to rear
I lay you down nice and slow
Kissing you from head to toe
I kiss your legs and inner thighs
This is where my heaven lies
I wrapped your legs around my face
And long to taste your sweet embrace
My hands caress your perfect ****
My mouth enjoys your tasty ****
I can hear you start to moan
As my tongue begins to roam
Loving every smell and taste
I take my time and never haste
With every kiss your body  shivers
And every lick just makes you quiver
My lips and tongue they are not done
Just because I've made you ***
I keep probing every nook and cranny
Moving down to lick your *****
My mind and body on cloud nine
While i rim your great behind
I can feel your knees go weak
As you hit your second peak
Now that you are wet and ready
I enter you slow and steady
Starting slow then speeding up
I kiss your ******* and lick them up
With every ****** our bodies kiss
Completely lost yet nothing missed
Our bodies joined we shake and tingle
And as we kiss our tongues do mingle
Now in such euphoric state
As we both *******
Both exhausted from the night
We start to spoon, i hold you tight
Kissing you till we pass out
Dreaming when we’ll next make out

To have your *** upon my face
I long to taste your sweet embrace
It's so soft touch and perfect shape
It's beauty no one can escape
To gaze upon your gorgeous ***
My mouth does water, i want me some
Lay me down on any bed
And sit that *** on to my head
How I long to worship it
Kiss it, lick it, tongue massage it
There I'll stay and eat you out
For hours on end til we pass out
And in the morn when i wake up
Your *** I'll rim til you wake up.
I'll kiss and lick your pretty ****
Until you say you've had enough

You've got a great smile
And your eyes are to die for
They're beauty defined.

How I'd love a kiss
It would make me feel so bliss
Just to kiss your lips

I made a friend who helped me out
One day when i was blue
She made me laugh and made me smile
On days when i was  blue
She gave me hugs and soothing words
On days when I was blue
Her number she did give to me
For days when i when I was blue
The greatest friend I thought i had
For days when I was blue
We'd chat for hours with secrets shared
On days when I was blue
The time we shared and showed she cared
Some days when I was blue
Wrote me a poem said things were fine
One day when i was blue
The friendship meant so much to me
For days when i am blue
Now chats are rare, i fear her gone
These days when i am blue
I fear I lost my special friend
Most days now i am blue
I wish i could, mistakes undo
These days that i am blue
I miss my friend, will to the end
On days when i feel blue

Am I broken or defective
Nothing seems to be effective
Wish I could be good enough
But instead I feel rebuffed
Lost and lonely broken hearted
Laying here a tortured artist
Longing to be loved and held
This loneliness to be dispelled

As i gaze with wanting eyes
My mind begins to fantasize
In your thighs i long to be
My lips to roam them endlessly
Starting low then moving high
Intoxicated by your thighs
Caressing your perfect hips
While teasing your sweet ***** lips
This is where my heaven lies
My face in between your thighs
Oh so soft and lubricious
Unbelievably delicious
I could spend eternity
Just worshiping your thighs with glee
Oh how happy I would be
To have your thighs, my fantasy

Oh how i long to be desired
A feeling which we all require
Wish i could have that great physique
Makes women stop to take a peek
Or maybe have that *** appeal
Makes women give that lustful squeal
To be wanted in every way
And really be someone’s dream lay
To be somebody’s fantasy
Would leave me in such ecstasy
Instead i’m just an average guy
Just very nice and very shy
I do not have the perfect ***
Nothing anyone would applaud
I wish the women thought me hot
But in my heart i know I'm not
A *** symbol I'll never be
No one will have wet dreams of me
These feelings they are not required
But i still long to be desired.

If i died today
Would you even shed a tear
Did you ever care

Dream a Million Dreams


I could dream a million dreams
With a million different views
But there's nothing I could dream
That's quite as beautiful as you
You have a big caring heart
And an amazing mind
You truly are so special
You're simply one of a kind
Your beauty has no rival
Not even Helen of Troy
Everytime I see your pictures
It just fills me up with joy
I long to hold you in my arms
And make sweet love to you
Kissing you all day and night
****** pleasing you
I would treat you like a queen
To me you're royalty
I would worship every inch
Of your stunning body
I could dream a million dreams
With a million different views
But I could never have a dream
That's as beautiful as you.

My dream girl that I never had
I really wanted you so bad
The lust I felt you'll never know
Or of the lengths that I would go
To please you and to make you ***
Until you are properly done
There's nothing that I wouldn't do
Just for the chance pleasure you
No one would try harder than me
To make you scream in ecstacy
My fantasy and beauty queen
You are the woman of my dreams

I'm drowning in my tears
What am I doing here
Feel like I don't belong
Wish I could fix what's wrong
I rarely feel happy
Instead  feeling ******
I don't know what to do
Afraid I'm losing you
This world can be so cruel
I'm running out of fuel
I wish I could give up
Emotions all mixed up
My soul’s about to break
Much more I cannot take
Please won't you help me friend
And make all this pain end

I feel like I was just dumped
Weighed, measured & rejected
Unfriended & discarded
It was so unexpected
My heart's broken into pieces
My love has been deleted
Feels like I wasn't good enough
I'm completely defeated
I don't want to leave my room
Don't want to leave my bed
I simply cannot find the strength
I wish that I were dead
I had 4 months of happiness
And now it is all gone
How could something felt so right
Turn out to be so wrong
My heart's broken into pieces
My love has been deleted
Feels like I wasn't good enough
I'm completely defeated

My life would be so much easier
Without all my emotions
To get in the way
Of my life
Thoughts?

Falling deeper through the abyss
Just cannot face the truth of this
I'm losing faith and any hope
And I don't know just how to cope
You told me that it all was fine
Yet haven't seen you in some time
You told me that we were still friends
But seems like it's come to an end
Your photo used to make me smile
But haven't seen you for a while
Our little chats would make my day
Though now I cry my days away
Can't reconcile what’s in my head
All of the things you did and said
I thought you were my special friend
A friend I'd have until the end
I did not care about your past
Just wanted our friendship to last
But somehow it all went wrong
And now i fear our friendship gone
I miss those times so very much
And how I'd love to stay in touch
I highly doubt it’s in the cards
Losing your friendship’s very hard
Still falling deeper through the void
So much pain i can't avoid
I think all day and wonder why
The friendship lost still makes me cry

How do you fight the darkness
When you've already lost your light
How do you keep from drowning
When you can't even stay afloat
How do you keep on going
When you've already lost the fight
How do you keep on moving
When you already missed the boat
How do you fight the darkness
When you can't even find your light

Rejected by a few more friends
Just thrown out like the trash
I'm falling and i see no end
Expecting a big crash
They used to all give me support
They used to to have my back
And now the facts they do contort
They stabbed me in the back
I am so sad and ******* mad
Why can't they let me be
I didn't do anything bad
Yet they've abandoned me
Bad enough that i was ghosted
And left without my group
Now I'm left to be composted
While trying to recoup
They used to like my company
They used to sing my praise
Now most of them won't talk to me
Alone in my malaise
I keep losing so many friend
Forgotten, lost in time
I really wish this **** would end
But ghosted one more time.

What i wouldn't do
Just to get a hug from you
That would be my wish

I could stare into your eyes
For all eternity
I am so beguiled by you and by you beauty
Wish that I could talk to you And know the words to say
To find the strength to ask you out to know the words to say.
I wish I could ask you out I wish that I i knew you
I wish that I had your number so i could call you

I don't belong
I never did
This world's no place for me
I'm all alone
Inside my head
Waiting to be set free
I'm sick and tired
And so confused
Who is the real me
Why am I sad
Why am i down
Why do I have to be
Wish it would stop
And go away
This pain inside of me

I dreamed somebody wanted Me
And not just as a friend
I dreamed someone desired me
My broken heart to mend
I dreamed I wasn't all alone
I had someone to hold
I dreamed I wasn't so **** shy
Dreamed I just could be bold
Dreamed that I were more attractive
Dreamed I had what it takes
I dreamed I had that special charm
So I could get a date
I dreamed someone just wanted me
So I could be happy

I had a dream I was desired
And for our bodies to perspire
With lustful passion, a wildfire
My soul and body was required

I had a dream of ecstacy
I wanted her, she wanted me
All inhibitions were set free
For one night of intimacy

I had a dream erotica
And positions exotica
Turned my bedsheets Aquatica
From such hot dreams erotica

I had a dream i was on fire
With naughty thoughts i had inspired
Instead i Dream to be desired
So tired of feeling undesired

I had a dream of you last night
A hot wet lustful dream
Your naked body begged for me as mine was hard for you
Your eyes sparkled in the light
Your smile gave off a glow
I couldn't take my eyes off you
I wanted you so bad
I held you in my arms real tight
Never wanting to let go
Your chest pressed up against my chest
Our hearts beating as one
I kissed you gently on the lips
As i caressed your back
Our lip now locked in an embrace
As our wandering hands explore
I start to kiss you on your neck
Then slowly down your arm
I kiss each of your fingers
Then up your other arm
I kiss down to your perfect breast then **** on each sweet ******
I lay you gently on the bed while kissing down you belly
I can't resist your silky thighs
While kissing every inch
I kiss down your left leg
Before ******* on your toes
I kiss up your right leg
And then your inner thighs
You wrap both legs around me
As I worship your *****
I kiss and lick and **** your ****
As you moan lovingly
I lift your thighs to kiss your ***
I'm so intoxified
After I've made you *** for me
I insert my hard ****.
Our bodies locked in ebb and flow
Until I just explode
We hold each other tightly
As we kiss til we pass out
I wake up in a sticky mess
To find it was a dream
I had a dream of you last night
One that I wish was real
I often dream of you at night
You are my perfect dream

I wish my face were in between
Your soft delicious thighs.
With your legs locked in ecstacy,
your feet rubbing my back.
Your lips pressed tightly to my lips
Treating me to your snack.
I would lick and tease your ****,
I'd kiss and rim your ***.
I'd make you *** a dozen times
and enjoy every drop
there's not an inch I wouldn't kiss,
No spot I wouldn't lick.
I wouldn't stop until you're done
and begging for my ***.
How I wish my face were tween
your soft delicious thighs.

Too insecure to just be me
Longing someday to be set free
A four, wing five I.N.F.P.
I am my own worst enemy
A prisoner trapped inside me
Wishing I could be happy

Is it wrong to want to die
To just give up, no longer try
Or to dwell and wonder why
I feel alone and always cry

Why am i always so sad
Always down and rarely glad
While many times everyday
For an end I often pray

Why do I still feel this way
Wish these feeling I could stray
Instead I feel like dying
Too tired from all the crying

I so wish to not be.
To not be anymore
Tired of being lonely
Can't take it anymore
Tired of the rejections
Won't ever be desired
I'm tired of this life
And wish it be retired
I am nobody's type
I am no one's *******
Though I just keep trying
I'm running out of steam
I wish this life would end
To spare me all this pain
No matter how I try
It all seems just in vain
So I wish to not be
And not be anymore

I wanna have ***
I want to make love
I want to be desired
Like a fire is to oxygen
I want someone to want me so badly they can't keep their hands off me
I want to have ***
all night long or til we pass out and then **** some more
I want to **** like there's no tomorrow and our lives depended on it.
I want to taste ***** and feel a woman's thighs wrapping face like a vice grip
I want to kiss and lick her *** and get lost in the moment
I want her to lick and **** me like I was a 3 star michillan resteraunt and she hadn't eaten for days
I want to make love
I want to lay on the couch cuddling in front the tv
Or laying on the bed spooning the whole day away
I want to look into a woman's eyes and see the love and and passion waiting to pounce on me.
I want to have ***
I want to ****
At the park at night or in my car late at night
I want to **** on a hike off the trail where no one can see (but might)
Or some public bathroom where we might get caught.
I want to have ***
I want to use toys, rope and blindfolds, candles and wax
To get as ***** as the moment takes us as we explore our bodies and sexuality
I want to have ***

I really want to talk to you
And get to know all about you
It doesn't matter what we do
Cause i just want to be with you

Take you out on a date
And stay out really late
For the chance i cannot wait
For i know it would be great
Does not matter where we go
Be it high or be it low
Be it sun or rain or snow
There's just one thing you need to know

I really want to talk to you
And get to know all about you
It doesn't matter what we do
Cause i just want to be with
Yes i just want to talk to you
And get to know all about you
It doesn't matter what we do
Just so long as I'm with you

Let me sing you something sweet
Le me write you poetry
I would be oh so happy
Just as long as you're with me
Won't you please give me a chance
Maybe go and visit France
Or even take you out to dance
Your beauty has me in a trance

I really want to talk to you
And get to know all about you
It doesn't matter what we do
Cause i just want to be with
Yes i just want to talk to you
And get to know all about you
It doesn't matter what we do
Just so long as I'm with you

Yes i just want to talk to you
And get to know all about you
It doesn't matter what we do
Just so long as I'm with you

Loneliness
My unwanted friend
Why won't you let me be
Try as i may
With all my charm
No one desire me
Anxiety
Stop feeding me
You're not my real friend
You feed me lies
And cost me much
I wish you would just end
Depression
My sadistic boss
Always knocking me down
Take my smile
Turn it upside down
In emotions i do drown
ADHD
You're killing me
Keeping me from my sleep
Try to relax
And meditate
But all i do is weep
High functioning
Autistic traits
Personality crash
Try as i may
To just fit in
I'm still abandoned trash
Unwanted
And undesired
Can't help the way i feel
No matter what i do or say
My fate it seems is sealed
Loneliness
My unwanted friend
Why won't you let me be

What did i do wrong this time
I'd really like to know
Where did I go wrong again
To lose another friend
Were my feelings just too strong?
Maybe yours were too?
Did i somehow lose your trust.
It never was discussed
I now feel lost and somewhat used
Now abandoned and confused
Thought you were a special friend
You told me that time and again
Where did i go wrong again
To lose another friend?

Freshly trimmed so nice and wet
Image i cannot forget
Silky smooth so soft and sweet
Wish it my delicious treat
May i please gaze upon it?
To my eyes it's hypnotic
I would love it oh so much
If my fingers you let touch
Can I have a little smell?
You've got me under a spell
Love to have a little taste
Promise I would not make haste
Take my time enjoying you
You are a ******* come true

12 more people dead today
Did it have to be this way
Heard it on the news today
It's a very sad day
Someone's just lost a loved one
Father, mother, daughter son
What could motivate someone
To shoot up everyone
What's wrong with society
What's wrong with our country
Need to change priorities
The truth we need to see
Time to say enough’s enough
Time for lies to be rebuffed
Time for us to end this stuff
If you don't like it tough
How many more dead loved ones
Til we control our guns

I hope you've not forgotten me
Or the friendship that we shared
I hope that you are still my friend
And I hope that you're still there
I know that you are  very busy
With your work and with your school
You're still my very special muse
And i still think you are cool
I think about you everyday
And when I'll see you next
I cherish all the memories
Can't wait for your next text.
I've missed you oh so very much
And wonder how you are
I ponder how your week has been
And how you are so far
I often wonder how you are
And what you've been up to
I hope you're really doing great
Know i still dream of you
I hope you've not forgotten me
I hope that we're still friends
Just know that i still care for you
I will until the end

Am I the creep everyone says
Or just misunderstood instead
Just what the hell is wrong with me
And why won't anyone date me
When I try always rejected
I'm so alone and dejected
It's been so long since I've been held
Instead I only get expelled
I'm tossed out like unwanted trash
Or just avoided like some rash
Just what exactly did I do
I'd love to know, I have no clue
I only know that I'm alone
In my emotional war zone
Am I the creep everyone says
Or just misunderstood instead?

My body aches to be with you
To hold you and make love to you
Our naked bodies tightly pressed
You're perky breast upon my chest
I am so hard and you are wet
As we begin this hot duet
Dancing to the ebb and flow
All inhibitions we let go
Making love throughout the night
Continuing until daylight
Many time we both do ***
With bodies both entwined as one
How I ache to be with you
To hold you and make love to you.

I want to hold you in my arms and never let you go
I want kiss you from your head and then down to your toes
I want to make love to you until we both pass out
Then wake you as I kiss your ***  and make you moan and shout.
I want to **** upon your toes while massaging your feet
I want you to sit on my face and use me as your seat
I want worship every inch of your amazing thighs
And those perfect ******* of yours, the dream of every guy.
I dream of you bout every night and all the things we'd do
My greatest fantasy and passion is to pleasure you
There's nothing in this world I want more
Then just to be with you