I felt the fear
Of the world by falling
From my foot burning
My mother on the floor
Her shattered chest
Wanting to breathe
Running in the house
I wanted to reach the door
But I burned my hand
The figure of Christ
Saved around my neck
Burning my skin
Dragging on the floor
Extending my arms
Looking at the flames's light
Against the shadow of the cross



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Burst of light
Ricochet against
Moving tides.

Memories float
To the surface
Of my mind.

Smiles creep
On my face.
Pleasant thoughts

Floating high.
Delirium and Pride
Cease to forget.

Moment arrives
For goodbye.
Yet I remember

A forgotten friend



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Bid a Farewell to you
In a Pretentious way
Cynical and Mystical
As your face Concaves
Time strikes Done
And you Age Away
In Dismay and Decay
Finally, you're Overrun
By Lackadaisical Pain
Taking a moment to Fade
Into Colors of Grey



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Commemorate
When days went by
In tides that were
Harnessed by the moon

Cicadas
Crooning melodies
In the summer heat
Near the riverbank

Straining
To caress my hand
Trying to mend the
Growing divide

Irredeemable
Are those moments
Juvenile woe
Intertwined with hope

Pretentiously
You laugh at me
I smile behind
A facade of Cheer

Exasperated
I ascend from you
Conjure up the will
To say farewell to you



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Eyes ahead
Foward and dead
I am unsure of the path I am taking

Hands up high
Reaching towards the sky
Fingertips brushing the morning light

Frizzy hair
Dew on the edges
Blocking my perception of the world

***** feet
From walking on the street
Guided by the cement sidewalk cracks

Mouth agape
Words suffocate
Uneasiness building inside my chest

Fly away
Run before its too late
Better to be hurt than to be caged



© Sofia Villagrana 2021

Everyday we will smile and play
Windows will shatter across our platters
The morning will come and bid us hello
As you can imagine everyday was fantastic

All of a sudden the world came crashing
Rivers overturn and tress were falling
Echoing around me where sounds of animals screeching
The colors slowly fadding

Light cried goodbye, Night rose awake
Now these forbidden colors washed into grays
I try to tell everyone but no one listened
blinded by their own injustice
Green has been replaced by death
and i try to bring them back to life
all i have are ashes

The world grows form the tinniest of seeds
And blossoms into the flowers that captivates our sights
We pull form the ground and we stop its life

And for what?
To see it die in a glass container in our house

Forbidden colours of a field in full bloom
But not anymore
Greys have blocked the sky's light from reaching them

The world is slowly coming to a screeching halt
Winters are longer and summers are hotter
I wonder if we will survive

Forbidden colours
Of ice in the north and south that are melting away
Into the blues of oceans that are heating

The rush of water that is filling our land into a swamp
People try to fight against something they cannot control
People will like to blame anything at all
But themselves

All of these colours
fade away as we destroy their homes
And become extinct
Have filled the world with ash
Dark and thick like ink

Forbidden colours
Of the ocean blue
Magentas and purples of coral reefs
Red of the uncut redwood forest

Forbidden colours
Of white mountain tops
And cerulean of shining lakes
With underground forest vibrating viridian

Forbidden colours
Meadows that flow of fushia and lavender
Or fields of golden corn
With the rich brown of dirt

Forbidden colours
Of our pink lungs not filled with industrial vile




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He'll never come back
Karma following that boy
Chasing down his lies
People point and cry
No escape until he dies



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The sunlight shines above our eyes
And I remember citrus in September
Look at the constellations
You are the only thing in focus

Sitting with you by my side
Such a hypnotizing sight
I know its useless to move on
Love the glowing warmth you emit

Thighs touching as we lay apart
Hands grasping fingers tightly
Gazes that linger for a moment
A laughter that fills in our souls

Glittering stars shine in our eyes
Trying to not feel nostalgic
For moments that are far gone
Try not to get too pragmatic



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I know that this journey is treacherous
And we might lose our way
But remember
All the pain
All the suffering
That we endured

Our home is now long gone at this point
No reason to shed tears
So remember
All the prayers
All the blessings
Bestowed on us

The road ahead holds many blockades
But we will still march onwards
Just remember
All the promises
All the dreams
That we carry

Even if our bodies are broken down
We will fix each other
Please Remember
All the strength
All the wisdom
That we have crafted

The road underneath is mysterious
Filled with unthinkable questions
But I remember
All the truth
All the words
That you are here in my heart



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White noise fills my head
Keeping me ahead
Echoing and rebound
Pounding against my cranium

Pulsating headaches
Retching up my lunch
Spit slipping out
Waterfalls cascade out

See the world in negative
Stars shimmy in front
Clammy hands are quivering
Fingers becoming numb

Sweats and aches in bed
Swearing I'll be dead
Passed out on the lawn
Come morning I'll be gone



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I got my problems
******* with a red bow

I got precautions
Lining out of the door

And if I listen to them
I wouldn't know

All of the suffering
Outside my home

So I willfully ignore
All I need to know

In my own silence
Ignorance is my home



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Mug in the hand
Book on the lap
Shawl on my head
Cat near my legs

A sight to see
A moment to feel
I sense the moon
Reaching outwards

Even if it is quite
Sounds ricochet
Even if it is dark
Light penetrates

Heart explodes
Tears of happiness
Bleeding laughter
Smiling euphoria

Even drowning
Or suffocating
In the dark
Hope surrounds me



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I was calling you
During yesterday
All the moaning
From your bedroom
Must have muffled
My screaming
You didn't hear me
I was pleading

For salvation
From damnation
Some sign of
Exclamation

But you didn't answer
Now I am here to suffer
burning with desire
like a vibrant fire
But what does it consume
Is it me or you?



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I walk in the morning
Please walk ahead of me
You’ll come across a stream
Drowning in hues
Of yellow like the sun
Reflecting all my ambitions
Floating on the surface

Please don’t run
after paper airplanes
Aimlessly in the air
They will crash to the ground
into puddles of rain and snow
Dissolve like your dreams
And you’ll fade

Morning and afternoons
Standing here beside you
Rivers and ponds nearby
Wanted to swim in them
All of the time

Mother was calling out your name
But you just walked away
Into the forest down the path
Wanted to find something grand

And all these aspirations will drown
You hold on tightly to your delusions
Ignorance is truly a blessing
But as we age the hues become duller

And all the time and all the days
Memories still fade into a fog
And I wanted to grasp them
Instead, I ended up crushing them

But a war in your heart is raging
Youth or Wisdom fighting
Conflicted ideas running rampage

And you have yet to decide
Which path to take
Airplane or your mother
Adventure or simple comfort

Will you follow everyone
Knowing you’ll be normal?
Or will you go off
In an adventure?

Do you want to be alone all the time?
No mother or father at home
Would you waste away in the past
Not knowing the truth?
Or would you just end up dull
Knowing that nothing lasts?



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Come crashing in
Into the oblivion
On the ledge's edge
Getting frighten
Ending the violence
Cease your cries
Escalating with hate
Telling this tale
Letting my spirit go
Gorging silence



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I want to take a ride with you
I want to take a ride away from you
I wanted to escape this life
But now with you, I start to cry

I want to take a taxi away from here
But then my arms get heavy
My heart is out of place

I want to take an airplane into the sky
But my lungs they constrict
Behind eyelids stars shine

I decide to take a taxi with you
But my feet stay in place
I call out for my mommy

Why can I not escape this life?
I said that I will be long gone
Now I am stuck inside four walls
I shake and cry when I have to step out

I wanted to take a ride with you
I saw you as an escape, its true
I never really loved you for you
You were just an ending, not the goal



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There is a weight in my bed
Where you sat and laid in

If we try to step back, retrace
Would it show on my face
Reminding you of this place

It is time to walk in my shoes
Hard making it up to you

There's a lump in my chest
Waiting for you to rest
But you are already dressed

I think it is cruel of you
Leave me out of the blue



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Windows are shattered
Platters are scattered
I make some wishes
As I fix my stitches.

And I wonder out loud
Is the night even bright?
Darkness surrounds us
But pretends it is just dusk.

The absence of color
The absence of a mother
The night may hold you
But she will elude you.

Twinkles of stars shine
Remind me of candlelight
Shadows in my room
Leave me come morning hue.

Remove this splinter
Cover my blisters
Scream out in agony
Wonder if she’s mad at me.

Doors closed tight
I know that’s not right
But scared to go see
I hope it is just a dream.



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I'll rather be alone again
I know what they say 'bout loneliness
But I'll take the chance

I'll rather die alone again
Stick n' Stones break my words
But your actions left me hopeless

I'll rather walk this road again
Uncertainties leave me restless
I'll want to know what's up ahead

My heart burns and aches like fire
Ashes are just bones on the pyre
Liar, that's what I call you a liar

You better heed my advice
Your life will ignite with my lighter
Liar, that's what you deserve you liar

I'll rather get revenge 'my friend'
Prove to you once again, I'm not worthless
I'll rather watch you burn up in flames


© Sofia Villagrana 2022

Fireworks in the Sky
Exploding Lights
Childish Cries
Root Beer Floats
Cherry Pies
Laughs and Smiles
With the Fireflies
Smokey Streets
Music Playing
Enjoying Life
On the Fourth of July



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Take me to the
Back row
Back room
Back door

Touch me
Where I said no
Pretend and act
Like you don't know

That these
Tears
Aches
Cries
Are from you



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Oh I wish you were dead
Throbbing behind my eyeballs
A fire and bile climbing my throat
Remember the last time you touched me
All I remember were ****** torn up sheets



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My dog just passed away, unexpectedly
In the middle of a hot summer night
It was lying on its side, right next to me

I carry their body, inside my arms
As I look for a big old apple tree
So it can eat apples in heaven

I have all their blankets and toys with me
So that they do not get bored as they
Travel towards the shining bright stars

I still remember their white ears
As I scratched their head as we played
As such memories . . .

To late to give one final walk 'round the block

Such a beautiful morning, with birds singing
As I carry my friend in my arms
I wonder if they're singing them goodbye

Cars are driving by, as I cross the street
Is the black and red blob I see a dead cat?
I wish I had more arms to bring them along

Remember when I first brought you home
You hide underneath my bed
As such memories . . .

And when I gave you your first biscuit
You ran around in circles at my feet
Such a sight . . .

The sun shines brighter as you get heavier in my arms

We reach the cemetery, and right at the entrance
There's a big old red apple tree
I lay them on the floor as I dig

The pile of dirt keeps growing, as I am sweating
I want to make sure you don't dig yourself out
You loved to dig in my garden

When the hole is big and deep enough
I lay your body inside
With all of your belongings

I mark your grave, with your collar and leash
So I can visit when I leave school
I don't want to forget your name

I still feel you on the right side of my bed as I sleep



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I will emerge from the waves
As the sun reflects on my face

We will not break
We have shattered

We are not fragile
We've been taken

We will fight back
We will not surrender

We will eventually die
Memories scattered in the sky

There was a dream
There was a promise
We will live in this land
For the Lustrous



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Gave everything you had
To a love you thought would last.

You wanted to be there
By their side till the end of time.

Favors they asked of you
Stretched you thin like paper.

Your calls and messages
Were left on read, unanswered.

You waited for them
As the sun rose and fell asleep.

When you walked away
They decided to plea and beg.

You decided this was it
This will be your last first lover.


You said goodbye
To the person that made you suffer.



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Yo senti el miedo
Del mundo callendo
De mi pie quemandose
Mi madre en el suelo
Su pecho destrozado
Queriendo respirar
Corriendo en la casa
Quise alcanzar la puerta
Pero me queme mi mano
La figura de Cristo
Guardado en mi pescueso
Quemando mi piel
Arrastrandome en el pizo
Extendiendo mi brazos
Mirando el lumbre's luz
Contra la sombra del cruz



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Admirame
O mejor largate
No mas te queria ver
No sabia que tenias mal humor

Mirame
Darme vueltas
En la oscuridad del cuarto
Contra el corriente del abanico

Dando circulos me hace mariada
Casi me quiero vomitar
Pero no hay nada adentro

Te do
Puro puro chantaje
Puro puro verguenzas
Quiero verte sufrir en mi sombra

Puro puro burlas
Puro puro mentiras
Y te veo en esquina
Quiriendo ganar te la vida



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I sang
The words
Of
Silence

I sang
The words
Of
Pain

I sang
The words
Of
Damnation

I sang
The words
That I
Meant

I remember these words
Vibrating
Inside my throat
Clawing outward

I remember these words
Burns on my arms
Branding me
With names and numbers

Words that soothe
Yet still
Ache

I sang
The words
That
Blind you



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I always thrived on affection
But I have a taste for destruction.
Wonder how it’ll feel to suddenly die
But sadly for me, I enjoy feeling alive.

The taste of blood in my mouth
But I don’t like the pain from a punch.
If I could bypass I’ll find another way to ding it
The feeling of emotion from another person’s actions.

Self-preservation is lacking
For my mother’s health, I’m trying.
Stopping my Ego from killing itself
Even though after death I’ll like to see hell.

It’s not that I am suicidal
But thoughts are running wild.
Fascination with the concept of death
Cause no ones loves it enough to comprehend.



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