Nothing compares
To few
Where'd the times go
Not a day goes by
I don't miss or think of you

A lost glove or mitten
For some there's never a pair
Some never smitten
Lost forever
Never to be found
Frozen solid in the ground

Another day
Another dollar
For people like me
Life's a bother
Another day,
Another gin
Its life
the problem
I keep runnin in

The pin the poke,
It swallows me whole;
It was me it stayed with,
I took the fall, just happy it was me and not us all;
If only you'd let me free from all the pain and torment,
It's killing me,
The pain is deep, its deep inside;
For only me to see and for me to hide;
All the hell and mental torture put my life on pause,
I still sit here today without a feeling of cause;
'Stop it you sound dumb'
Plays over and over;
I want to feel numb, not to be sober.
I am my mind's own mental slave, this I will take with me to my grave.
Can't quit thinking of all the games you played.
The pin the poke, the blood rushing in;
I no longer feel like I've lived in such sin, such evil and strife;
I no longer feel like I lived that life.
The pin the poke it swallowed it all;
I no longer stayed curled up in that ball.
In the ball of pain, of torture, and state of confusion;
My life once lived was all a delusion.
I broke free from the evil,
I broke free from the pain,
I have broken free from the shackles and all of the shame.
I am still me but no longer the same;
And this is only my life story or was is it your game?
                                             S.Kajdan

Like a bird with a broken wing
have only a voice left
  no beautiful songs to sing
Only hope left
this gust of winds
Take me where you will
I'll fight what you may bring
Even with my broken heart
And my broken wing
I'll sing my song
And your beautiful hymns
Til my journey comes to an end
With you beside me
I have no brokenness
I will sing

My thighs they cried
For you to be on the inside
Carry me away to complete fantasy
Just you and I as I slowly die on the inside
My loves not enough for you to be forever struck
By the insides of my thick thighs
I just hope you realize the prize on the inside
Its only for you the one I let in to see who I'am truly
Let's let forever begin with you on top of me.

Ain't no point getting out of bed if you ain't livin the dream
Life isn't easy and nothin' what it seems
Learn to read between the lines
nothin' what it means
Dreams only happen at night
If I ain't hauntin your schemes
Learn to live life right
Ain't nothin what it seems

Empty like a bottle
Rolling upon the shore
Just another bottle
One more than before
You fly away like a sparrow
Happy and free
But leave behind
A broken heart
Only heart thats broken me
Like the bottle upon the shore
No destination or
message
More empty than before
Loneliness
Can't express
Only me
Floating in the open sea
don't want to roll up empty
upon another shore                         breath into me life
give me what Im Looking for
Even a note to no one
It's more than before

Ordinary people do extraordinary things said no ordinary person ever  While pulling extraordinary strings

You see me laugh
You see me smile
Hear my jokes
Crack a smile
From the outside looking in
You think I'm friendly
live a good life
Im the pretty, happy wife
Then night falls
we settle in
close our doors
Shut out the world
you think we live in
Sit in silence
Just me and him
our uninvited
Long time friend
misery comes strolling in
The only one who knows the truth
Isn't even him or I
It's all a show
It's all pretend
It's misery
As once before
Please pull your curtains
and lock your doors
Or I'll keep strolling in like I did before

Forever in my heart
From the very start
To the bitter end
Till we meet again
My love has only grown
By your actions
I'm torn
What will it be
Together forever shall we?

Remember when
You loved me instead...
Now I'm gone forever
To you
I'm dead

My conscious is heavy
My shoulders are slumped
When I see my family
My throat gets a lump
I want to run
Want to hide
Want anything other than to be alive
Stuck in this cycle
Gone completely insane
Wanting things different
Without Wanting to change
The shackles I bear
Are shackles of shame
Their chains are heavy
They cause me great pain
The battle I'm fighting
Been fighting for years
All out of fight
And all out of tears
Tired of fighting, getting nowhere
All cried out
Filled with fear
Time to put down my armor
Let my guard down
Time to start over
Since no ones around
Pushed 'em all away
While I rot and decay
Want them to leave
But want them to stay
Why God?
Am I this way?

Karma was a friend of mine
When I was young, dumb and blind
I then grew old, frail - out of mind
Karma still a friend of mine
The world I thought I knew
Kicked my *** a time or two
Naive
No not me, I knew
More than the girl next door
Karma bust my lip some more
Turns out much is never true
The 12 laws I never knew
Now today I live by em
Can't wait til my dear friend
Karma
Catches up to them.

How come you don't love me
You act like your above me
We both have lived
Did things we aren't proud of
You seen my best side
Then seen the worst of me
I grew, rose above it all
But you still look at me disappointed
By my fall, act like I'm cursed
But really I'm only tired after all

How about instead of analyzing me
You look at yourself first
You have bruises and bumps from life also we both been hurt
I've done drugs and drank
You have slept with hoes and did much more
Whose to say we don't have equal scores?
Next time you think your the judge
Look in the mirror  and realize
You aren't the One from above
Quit hating everyone else
And learn to love