She told me her razor blade
Was like her teddy bear.
Said to him
"Life ain't fair"
He looked at her
On the floor
Looked she'd
Died years before
Wish he could of done something more
Before this happened to his girl
As he sees here lying there
No pain left not one thing she bares
He thinks to himself
What's life for?
With all we go threw
It isn't fair.                                          
Closer to life than ever before.
As she lay there
Pain no more.

Poisons and potions
Past years of emotions
Regretting my actions
Forgetting my passions
Feelings can't be felt, I've drowned them and numbed them out
I'm insecure and full of doubt
Any chance of hope, I snuffed it out
Replaced it with fear and impending doom
Get out of my way please give me some room
All alone, isolation is home
Pushed everyone away so I can suffer alone
Look in the mirror, see a stranger I fear
No longer trust anyone, death is near
Can't handle feeling, won't allow it
Redirect my thoughts,                          
self destructions my power
Silence is deafening, hour by hour
Forget I exist, I won't be here tomorrow
No hope, just dope, is how I cope, I'm a coward
Self mutilation, my ****** creation
The more I bleed, closer to freed
Please God forgive me, my souls in need.

Remember when
You loved me instead...
Now I'm gone forever
To you
I'm dead

Nothing compares
To few
Where'd the times go
Not a day goes by
I don't miss or think of you

We are undecided all the time
Undecided
Locked in time
Undecided
Til we die
Misunderstood
You and I.

The pain I feel it in my wrist,
In my wrist and my fist
I feel it so deep inside
Whenever mourning by your side
I feel the pain in my thighs
Whenever my cries are denied
The sorrow is wearing me thin
From under my skin
Its weary within
I cannot bear all this pain
That I'm in.
The pain runs deep like a river
An ever bigger sliver threw the flesh
Full of every disappointment and every mess
My river runs deep within
Secretly keeping all of my sin
Sunk below so nobody can see
It's only for me
The pain runs deep like the ocean crashing like waves
With pure emotion
Emotion held in for years
Comes crashing in
As I shed my tears
It's a tidal wave of effect.
Nobody can make it stop
No not yet.
My emotions I did neglect.
It pours out my eyes like counting stars in a clear night sky
Can't be counted
It can't  be denied
The life I lived
I say goodbye

A lost glove or mitten
For some there's never a pair
Some never smitten
Lost forever
Never to be found
Frozen solid in the ground

Another day
Another dollar
For people like me
Life's a bother
Another day,
Another gin
Its life
the problem
I keep runnin in

My eyes are welling
Don't want them to know that I'm alive
How I feel on the inside
Am I truly dead or am I alive
My tears could fill the ocean
Not knowing what I'm capable of fulfilling
I have lost all of me
In this world of complete insanity   tell me is it you or is it me
we all face the same destiny

Ain't no point getting out of bed if you ain't livin the dream
Life isn't easy and nothin' what it seems
Learn to read between the lines
nothin' what it means
Dreams only happen at night
If I ain't hauntin your schemes
Learn to live life right
Ain't nothin what it seems

My penny I found her,
She's not lucky nor is she prettier than  
The penny I found  yesterday.
Just another one to add to my collection of things I dont really appreciate.
Why collect these then you ask?
It has nothing to do with penny, just for my own selfish tasks.
Not to get to know her, to see if she's
Different than the last, I'd rather not, that to me would be precious time lost, especially on one penny that's just going into a collection for me, knowing tomorrow there'll be more anyway.
One more than I had yesterday.
No matter her worth.
I will not treat this one special,
Nor did I the last few I found.
This penny is only just one of many Penny's that I've used in my collection.
She's no different than yesterday's but she's one more than before, therefore, this penny I may need, God only would know what for. Not because she's special, beautiful, young or old, just for my own fulfillment, so I behold them all the same as before. No matter if my actions hurt them, I would never care, because it's not about Penny, as I told you before.

Some rise
Some fall
Some wonderwall

Like a bird with a broken wing
have only a voice left
  no beautiful songs to sing
Only hope left
this gust of winds
Take me where you will
I'll fight what you may bring
Even with my broken heart
And my broken wing
I'll sing my song
And your beautiful hymns
Til my journey comes to an end
With you beside me
I have no brokenness
I will sing

For what do we gain from yesterday's pain that a theif won't steal but barrow?
Peace and pleasure our earthly endeavors
The darkness is sure to swallow.

Forever in my heart
From the very start
To the bitter end
Till we meet again
My love has only grown
By your actions
I'm torn
What will it be
Together forever shall we?