As I lay here naked
My body kissing my covers
I have come to a realization
No naked body should be naked alone
I want you here
Naked with me
Because being naked means closer than close
And that's exactly what I want
-SAMM

Depression for a positive individual is like this

At first you don't even realize that you're depressed
Because you are naturally good at mostly seeing the good
But then laughing starts to hurt so you stop laughing so much
At 3am it wakes you up
And then again at 5am
But it doesn't let you get out of bed until 12pm, or maybe 1pm, or maybe 2pm
Days are so short and so are the long nights
You tell yourself that you are just upset and wake up the next day "motivated" to be better so that you could feel better
You lie to yourself
You are positive
But depression starts to follow you around you start to see it when you are having a good time out with some friends
You feel it watch you try to sleep
And then you find yourself watching TedTalk videos, funny comedies, and they actually help
Because you are such a positive person
But then
You feel this hole deep inside you aching with sorrow and wrath
And laughing is just impossible
3am becomes hell and so does 5am because depression took your sleep
And one moment you feel like you're on top of the world but the next these suicidal  thoughts creep into your brain

Depression for a positive individual like me it's like

At first of course I ignore it
I don't admit the fact that I'm actually more than just upset because I'm naturally positive
And then I treat it as if it's nothing big
But hours turn into days that later turn  into months
Most days I feel "happy" but at night when it's just me and my thoughts, I am not allowed to sleep
And if I do get a good sleep my days do not have any sun light, or rainbows
One moment I am the happiest person in the world
But the next I can barely get out of bed

Depression for everyone is like

A dark shadow that later on becomes all of you
An enemy that eats you alive, slowly but so painful that
You cry start to cry empty tears
Headaches are migraines
Friends, family, lovers, are hard to please so they are ignored
Because you feel ignored
It is the empty feelings that become your mornings and nights
And it's hard to understand
No one understands that just because you had a good day
It doesn't mean that tonight you will get any sleep
No matter how positive you decide to be depression lets you know every night that it is indeed better than you
Because you are, your own enemy
We are our own enemies and who knows to hurt us better than us?
Depression you
Depression me
And no matter how positive you are
Depression will try its hardest to win
to break you into pieces
And even after you are better
a part of you would forever be a part of depression
-S.A.M.M

Is it really so bad?
My heart can't take this crap anymore
My soul is black in sorrow
***** you !
I can't eat, I can't sleep, and breathing is way too hard to do
My eyes hurt way too much from all this crying
My body aches
But is this really so bad?
My heart is broken
I can't even feel it anymore
But there are people that forget that they have a heart
There are people that do not have any sunlight or full moons
So is this really so ******* bad?
It sure does feel like it
But it's not
No it's not
There's worst
And though this might one be one of the worst
This heartache isn't the worst
Pain
We all feel it
Just like love we all feel it
But pain that's what makes us, us
Pain
And this pain
This ******* pain
This pain that is slowly but surely killing me
Is not going to **** me
Because there is worst
And no
No
No ******!
This is not the worst
-S.A.M.M