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Jul 2019 · 121
My Addiction
Erica Girone Jul 2019
Inhale you like a cigarette
Absorbing all your toxins
Later I’ll be full of regret
Running out of options
No better than a ******
Addicted to your lies
Spoon feed them to me
As my body slowly dies
There’s pleasure in the pain
I’ve never felt more alive
You’re dopamine to my brain
A true devil in disguise
A beast, untamed
Took me by surprise
Let them know I died ashamed
But at least I was by your side
Jul 2019 · 190
I wonder
Erica Girone Jul 2019
I wonder at times if you miss me
If you ever get the urge to kiss me
It seems that you’ve dismissed me
Or is that what you’re trying to convince me
Jul 2019 · 96
Show me
Erica Girone Jul 2019
Not alone but lonely
So don’t tell me you love me show me
Everything today seems so phony
So I need you to listen closely
I need reassurance sometimes
And most of the time I over apologize
I laugh when I don’t know what to say
And when things are bad say it’s okay
Not religious but sometimes I pray
That tomorrow I’ll see another day
Because in this life no one ever knows
When it’s going to be their time to go
Jun 2019 · 129
This moment
Erica Girone Jun 2019
Green clouds
Summer’s day
Ocean blue eyes
Glass ashtray
Everything feels alright
For once it’s okay
Living in this moment
Instead of yesterday
Jun 2019 · 90
Untitled
Erica Girone Jun 2019
When your friends become family
And your family become foes
But then your friends become distant
And you know how this goes
Yet I still pull myself together
Putting forth all effort to be strong
Telling myself it’ll get better
That this feeling won’t last long
But as much as I try to ignore it
Nothing really is the same
I’m not perfect in this I’ll admit
I’ll even take half the blame
I kept my feelings buried
I left you high and dry
And as fine as I seem without you
We both know it’s a lie
Missing you is the worst heartbreak
I need you next to me
Instead it’s a empty ***** bottle
And a sea of misery
I pray that you’ll come back
That there’s more to you and me
‘Cause I need you to be on track
And we have so much more to see
May 2019 · 307
Loveless
Erica Girone May 2019
You’re loveless
Yet I’m expected to love you
May 2019 · 152
Stuck in Place
Erica Girone May 2019
It’s hard to find an escape
While your feet are stuck in place
May 2019 · 114
Eternity
Erica Girone May 2019
Will I die tired?
Or full of fear?
Will I be alone?
Or will loved ones be near?
Will I have reached my goals?
Fulfilled the desires of my soul?
Or will I grow old
With nothing to show
Will I leave without regrets?
Or be the one they forget?
Blame it on the cigarettes
Or maybe the alcohol
A recipe for a slow death
Will you be upset?
Shed a single tear?
Now that I’ve disappeared?
Whenever that may be
I just hope when I leave
You’ll follow me
Into eternity
May 2019 · 159
Too
Erica Girone May 2019
Too
Too stubborn to let go
Too weak to break free
Too anxious to say no
Too opinionated to agree
May 2019 · 98
Forever
Erica Girone May 2019
I know you wish me the worst
Truly nothing more hurts

Because Darling
I loved you

Each time you fell apart
I’d be your glue

But once you were back together
I became whoever

And I deserve better

But I’ll still love you
Forever
May 2019 · 70
Untitled
Erica Girone May 2019
If God is a woman than the devil must be too
But she’s built like an angel so you’d never have a clue
Apr 2019 · 129
Material Girl
Erica Girone Apr 2019
Fancy liquor and sugar coated lies
Expensive habits for materialistic highs
Darling, don’t you know there’s more to life than the things you buy
Darling, don’t you know your meaning can’t be found in supplies
She’s gucci all the way down to her socks
Chanel, Versace, anything designer she rocks
Spent her whole paycheck on a pair of givenchy shoes
But can’t pay her parking ticket that’s been overdue
Apr 2019 · 143
Untitled
Erica Girone Apr 2019
Sometimes the best decision
Is the hardest to follow through
The path to finding myself
Was also the one to losing you
Apr 2019 · 116
Bad Memory
Erica Girone Apr 2019
Will I ever forget you?
It’s been 8 years of attempts
& I still find myself scrolling across your page

Would you laugh at my weakness?
Or would you just simply smile
Speechless

I would like to remember you
For the reasons I fell in love
And not the tragedy we’ve become

Never would’ve guessed this would be our end
Is that how you’ll remember me?
Even after all the good now I’m just a bad memory

Or will fate bring us back together
And apologies be exchanged?
And feelings be explained

Or is where we’re at now
Truly for the better
Apr 2019 · 454
Liar
Erica Girone Apr 2019
Liar liar
You’re what I desire
Toxic to the soul
But flame to my fire

User user
My favorite abuser
Full of empty promises
And a professional seducer
Apr 2019 · 247
Karma
Erica Girone Apr 2019
You cannot hide
What resides inside
Anger and pain
Resentment and shame
Placing all your blame
For your personal gain
But karma’s a *****
And she gets her way
Apr 2019 · 460
Untitled
Erica Girone Apr 2019
There’s something beautiful in being awake while the world is sleeping
Apr 2019 · 78
I miss you
Erica Girone Apr 2019
You haven’t called in months
Not even a text to say hey
You say you’re sorry but it’s a front
To make the problem go away
Now it feels as if I’m missing a piece of me
I’m sorry I’m putting this all on display
It’s breaking my heart if you hadn’t noticed
And I miss you more with each passing day
You haven’t even gone anywhere
You’re only minutes away
But in my heart it feels more like a hundred miles
And you’re headed the opposite way
I’m begging you to come home
Change your direction back this way
Cause my love I miss you terribly
And tonight I’m not okay
Mar 2019 · 704
Happy
Erica Girone Mar 2019
They tell me to be happy
To laugh & act care free
They tell me I’ll feel better
Why can’t they just leave me be?

They tell me to be happy
As if it should be easy for me
They tell me I’m not trying
I can’t help but disagree

They tell me to be happy
If I go to therapy they guarantee
That it will fix all my problems
Which sounds so silly to me

They tell me to be happy
I tell them I’m just fine
Sometimes there’s beauty in suffering
And I’ve found mine in rhyme
Mar 2019 · 74
Look Inside
Erica Girone Mar 2019
Soul as dark as the pits of hell
Hate flowing through your veins
Only the emotionally intuitive can tell
That you are mentally insane
The worst kind of damaged and broken
Addicted to causing pain
Going out and starting commotions
So no one forgets your name
There’s no loving someone like you
You’re nothing but **** in disguise
And even though he cannot see it
I have a wide third eye
I just like the good souls
See what I’m trying to imply
Thats why I never listen to what’s told
And always look inside
Mar 2019 · 195
Living Nightmare
Erica Girone Mar 2019
She’s a ripped page from my journal
The song I always skip
It’s not that I don’t miss her
I’m just emotionally unequipped
She still visits me daily
But never in my dreams
Only in my nightmares
Where I awake in screams
Beautiful Brown eyed girl
With a devil’s snare
She has cruel intentions
But beauty beyond compare
I wish I could forget her
Her memory tortures me everyday
One second she was my everything
And the next she ran away
Mar 2019 · 118
Sober
Erica Girone Mar 2019
Her tears run like waterfalls
Devil red eyes
Her war inside is now undisguised
My love burns like a forest fire
At her very worst I still desire
Everything about her I admire
A million lifetimes wouldn’t make me tire

So come closer baby
Let me get drunk off your kiss
Your lips are the sweetest liquor
Your touch leaves my body in bliss
The most addicting drug I’ve ever tried to resist
So I’ll never be sober as long as you exist
Mar 2019 · 692
Faking
Erica Girone Mar 2019
On the outside I’m strong
Inside I’m fading
I say nothing’s wrong
While completely breaking
I laugh along
Like my heart isn’t aching
I don’t belong
In this world of faking
Feb 2019 · 311
Untitled
Erica Girone Feb 2019
Knowing the absence of what was
Is better than feeling nothing at all
I wonder if the trees feel the same way
When the leaves begin to fall
Jan 2019 · 314
Beautifully Broken
Erica Girone Jan 2019
Shattered glass
Personalities masked
Normal on the outside
But her feelings contrast
Salt water tears
Familiar on her skin
From fighting a battle
She won’t ever win
Ripped t shirts
Bruised arms and knees
Constant reminders
Of what shouldn’t be
Beautifully broken
She smiles through the pain
One day there will be sunshine
After all this rain
Dec 2018 · 467
Self Control
Erica Girone Dec 2018
Self Control
Have I lost it?
The second I have a grip
I slip
I fall so deep
I make a home where I land
And only end up further down
Than where I began
At times I’ll get the energy
To take a step in the right direction
Almost reaching the top
While fighting off depression
But then the weakness overcomes me
Self Control is lost
And I’m back to square one
Right where I begun
Dec 2018 · 932
Ride or Die
Erica Girone Dec 2018
You said ride or die
But when I call no reply
And people wonder
Why others fantasize suicide
Just longing for a peace a mind
Or someone who thinks we’re worth the time
Takes our old definition of love and redefines
What we’ve been taught all our lives
Dec 2018 · 242
Untitled
Erica Girone Dec 2018
Half truths
Are full lies
Nov 2018 · 274
Jhene
Erica Girone Nov 2018
Never have I known
Beauty such as your own
♥️
Nov 2018 · 511
Paper And Pen
Erica Girone Nov 2018
I feel safe with my paper and pen
They’ve never let me down and are unable to offend
Never given me false promises or broken dreams
Never left me hysterically crying like that time in my teens
Never told me I love you only to say goodbye
Never left me questioning myself or wondering why
Never told me that I wasn’t good enough and deserved to die
They’ve only given me peace after a really rough time
So for anyone hurting give writing a try
It’s worth it to express what’s eating you inside
Before you let it take over and completely lose your mind
Once you let it all out you’ll understand why
Nov 2018 · 483
Depression
Erica Girone Nov 2018
I don’t remember peace
Chaos has never left my side
Not ever a sense of release
Not ever a place to hide
Watching my joy decrease
As my age multiples
I can feel myself breathing
But am I truly alive
Nov 2018 · 381
Perfect Two
Erica Girone Nov 2018
Hours felt like days
Sentences turned into stories
Finding comfort in each other’s sorrow
Allowing you into my territory

Felt something different
A feeling that was new
Should’ve known from the start
You were too good to be true

Some say I’m a hopeless romantic
So I didn’t want to accept the truth
That the person you showed me
Was someone other than you

Held onto what I knew
Until I pushed the truth out of you
Instead of a fairytale
The story of us was through

Short but heavy
Strangers but we knew
There in that moment
We were the perfect two
Nov 2018 · 3.9k
Emotionless
Erica Girone Nov 2018
Emotionless
When we touch
Not a single feeling
Not even lust

Emotionless
When we speak
Nothing between us
That’s worth to keep

Emotionless
For the very first time
Empty, Deadweight
As you kiss inbetween my thighs

Emotionless
But I wish I loved you
Unfortunately though darling
That won’t ever be true
Nov 2018 · 451
Her Love
Erica Girone Nov 2018
Her love was like a song
But this one felt wrong
With a melody entirely out of tune
And a chorus filled with gloom

Her love was like a light
But this one didn’t shine bright
In fact at times not at all
She had too many barriers and walls

Her love some how was my favorite kind
Although it only messed with my mind
I would exaggerate all the great
While ignoring all that I would hate

Her love wasn’t complete
With everyone new she’d meet
She’d place her insecurities onto
So each one ended too soon

Her love was one I’ll miss
Since I still feel the imprints of her kiss
But unless she can love herself
I’ll have to find love in someone else
Nov 2018 · 1.2k
Test Drive
Erica Girone Nov 2018
I can feel the emptiness in your smile
Don’t know anymore if this will last a while
I understand your confusion
My own heart’s in a delusion
Don’t hurt me
I know the lies from your eyes
I see the end, I can’t comprehend

I wanted you for a long ride
You wanted to test drive
Told me I was a familiar soul
I’d rather die than see you go
Left one last kiss on your lips
Suddenly I’m okay again
Clinging to false realities
Our story, A modern day tragedy

Oh, lover but you left me burned
Oh, pain but you helped me learn
Said I’d see you again but never returned
Time for my heart to come to terms
I’m on my own again your silence confirmed
I only trust myself
No more losing me to someone else

I would never let you see me cry
Won’t tell you I’m hurt I’d rather lie
So instead of explaining I’ll say goodbye
I’ll roll up my green and I’ll get high
One day you’re going to realize
Broken hearts heal over time
But you can’t change your mind
Nov 2018 · 1.3k
Toxic
Erica Girone Nov 2018
Detrimental
Opposite of gentle
Hazard to my health
Mainly my mental

Adrenaline to my veins
My favorite source of pain
Beyond insane
You stay on my brain

And even though you’re who’s toxic
I’ll take the blame
Cause only a fool
Would want your last name

— The End —