I bumped by head when I got out of bed this morning-
and not for lack of coordination.
I was late to class but still made it there before the professor,
and I have more finals than I can count on both hands due next week.
The bills are piling up, and there's nothing I can do.
Off to lunch with friends, and then to work on a project.
I haven't seen a doctor in four years, and I can't afford to go.
I rearranged my dorm so I can find my clothes easier. Now they're in rainbow order!
I haven't bought new clothes in so long that they don't fit anymore.
We took a trip to get wine today-
but we broke down on the way back and now I have to call a tow truck. Yet another bill.
It's 3 am and I'm trying to finish this paper before it's due at 8 am- something about a curriculum? I don't remember anymore. I'm just putting words on paper.
I've been off my meds for months now because they cost more than I can afford. What can I afford? $0.00
My hallmates will not shut the **** up, and I need to study for this exam.
I can't afford to live off campus so I have to deal with it.
I'm 21, but most people still treat me as a child.
I can buy my own wine but I can't make my own decisions.
I can buy my own wine, but I can't afford to.
When you come into my classroom,
I Love YOU.
Exactly the way you are, just as you walked into my room.
I don't love you more when you please me, and I don't love you less when you mess up.
I don't love you any less for who you love, or how you love. I don't love you any less for the color of your skin, where you are from, or what language you speak.
I don't love you any less for your gender, or gender- identity.
If anything, I love you even more for being who YOU are; and not anything else.
curves and lines and wrinkles and scars and bumps and lumps and
This is my body.
curves and scares and
imperfections; my imperfections.
bulbous and shiny and colorful and full of laughter
children with bright eyes and high pitched laughs
let go of the string and the fun flies away.
you spent the days by the side and the nights in my bed
but you never looked at me
you spent the days by side but
you didn't turn your head.
you spent the nights in my bed but
couldn't look me in the eyes.
you spent the days by the side and the nights in my bed but
you couldn't pick me out of a crowd.
And when you left my bed for another;
you barely took a breath.
forever doesn't mean together.
forever means until I say the end.
fragile bump inside me
unknown to most
smaller than a pin
and just as painful as you go