I pressed my lips hard against yours
I waited for a magical feeling to come
For this spell named love
I didn't feel anything
I gave you my body
No feeling

I started to think I wasn't good enough for anyone's love
I spent years looking for love
Searching everywhere
I went around the world
I tried everything
No feeling

The people weren't the problem
I was the problem
I was looking for love in everyone else but myself
I never learned to love myself
I never learned to love the one person that would be for me forever myself
I wanted love
But I wanted love from the wrong people

Nights are a time for people to rest and catch up on sleep
But they aren't like that for me.
They became my only time to breath..
I look up at the moon she shines bright and she has her daughters with her. They  aren't as illuminating as her  but they are beautiful.
Every star a life. They watched me every night
watched as tear drops became blood drips. They never judged they Stayed and tried to illuminate  the sky. The moon is my mother and the stars are my sisters. They showed compassion and stayed when no one else did. The scars on my heart became deeper but so did the ones on my body. They didn't judge they watched in silence and listened to my crying. They illuminated the sharp razor edge and watched as it cut through a new patch of smooth skin. The razor glided through without hesitation. He also became my friend. Helped me deal with pain. I wish it wasn't like this but they were the only ones that stayed the only ones that helped ease the pain. Stayed with me at my worse

I started out a puzzle
No one took to time to solve me
They just tried to fit pieces together
People came and left
Each time leaving me more damaged
I ended up being broken pieces
I remained untouched
No one looked at me
I received stares and judgements
I was the one left in the shelf
But a boy came along
He took me home
He examined every pieces
He took months and months
He fixed the broke pieces
My broken pieces became puzzle pieces  
He left
He couldn't handle me anymore
I was too much for anyone to begin with
I went back to broken pieces

The tears flow down my cheek
onto my pillow
My pillow absorbs and hides every single one
I cry in silence
In hope of never being heard
I don't show sadness in front of others
I do not want to be weak
I don't cut
The scars would be too noticeable
I don't tell others my problems
I don't want to be an open book
I smile and walk
My face shows sunshine
But I am rain

When you see her ,
Don't tell her  not  a day goes
by without you think about her
When you see her,
Don't tell her she was the girl who
you thought was everything you ever asked for
That she showed you true love
The one that made you forget why
You had hurt so many others before her
The one who later on made your tears bounce off walls when it was over
When you see her run away
She does not deserve  to relive the pain
Dont make her eyes turn into thunderstorms
You've brought enough tears to her eyes
When you see her don't knock at her door
You're no longer welcomed
Her doors are locked
You no longer hold the key
Inside hold her tears and memories left behind
When you see her do not talk to her
You words were knives to her
You turned her heart into a graveyard
You left her broken promises
and damaged feelings  
She is learning to survive without you
When you see her
do not welcome her with a smile
For she is no longer yours to hurt