A river falls across my face
The story's mine but someone says
To seek into that dark deep place
Which held the tears that weren't in place
But locks won't lock without a key
So now I'm stuck with misery
She's made herself my company
At this dreadful table set for three
But when I peek right to my left
The empty spot has now been fed
With the souls that can't be led
Righteous paths their journeys dead
So now their lonely lives they'll shed

A river bleeds onto my face
It caused my voice to drown again
Because of this I go astray
And pave a path that I can gain
I'll walk across that endless road
And rewrite histories foul code
But blindingly I went too far
And ended up in limbos heart
Where Satan dwells and waits for prey
The trap he set will catch the fray
But when he shuts his evil eye
Our world will purge his truthful lies
With nothing but our minds insane
He reaps the sorrow that's brought shame
For judgment day has long been came
When God designed this fixed chess game
He made our lives the lowly stake
a higher price will come his way
With kings and queens on royal slings
The knights protect misguided beings
And fortress castles built of flames
Hide the bishops sins and shames
Two faced souls come out to play
When demons have their long due day
As we the pawns become their hunted prey

A rivers flows into my heart
He steals the path that i have wrought
My soul has left his web is caught
The silk I've webbed has played the part
He left a darkness I can't forsake
And everytime I try to wake
The dark abyss is hard to take
With sinful songs of things so deep
They sing the life they wish to keep
The Devil cries a silent weep
My mind is torn I won't Believe
For every black sheep wears a sheet
That masks the scent of their deceit
The eyes will see what's there to see
And leave us blind so helplessly

A river ran into the sky
And chased the angels that have died
He wrote their sins with bright white tears
Into the nights with spots of fear
Connect the dots and you will see
The stories that will never be
Our knowledge taught so miserably
For man knows only his history
But what about that vast big land
That shelters demons till the end
They sit and wait for our approach
Never knowing we have been coached
On what to say and what to do
But we take ourselves for a fool
We can't control what we can't see
So open eyes it's time you see
Emotions aren't what's really real
But what's inside can never heal
Until you've played it's all surreal

A river tired to be my friend
He told me secrets of the end
He whispered lies like they were true
And I believed and missed the clues
A foe's a friend that's never seen
What lies awaiting behind the scenes
So when you share your deepest thoughts
Don't forget who else will watch
For Devil sends his lustful crew
To destroy the ones who always do
His ***** work and that is You
So be aware of what's not there
It's the only way you will survive
If you clutch your sanity as if it lives
It becomes a piece of broken steel
And builds a wall around your heart
So the lonely you can never part
Yet like a snake it winds and winds
And chokes the life you thought was right
A wrongs a wrong that can never be
So believe the pain you stay to fight
Even though it tried to flee
The battle starts when you start to see

A river cried again today
He slashed the chains that held his pain
He threw away the good he felt
And only honor hang from his belt
The lonely man that never saw
Was kind to Evil manipulative thoughts
And even if no war was ever fought
Our sinful ways will bring the drought
And like the desert dry with bones
The rightful way is never sought
If wrongs a thing that feels so good
Then why do we blame wrong for good
Mistakenly we followed words
Of those before us that never could
Prove the history they swear was true
Prove the lessons they say we should,
Have learned from yesterday’s past mistakes
When tomorrow comes our lives at stake
And today can only come for sake
Yours or mine it’s all the same
Humankind must share the blame
The fault was yours or so they say
History coded our lives for fame
Destiny was paths we took
Led astray we fed the hook
And now our lives is it a book
One page forward write the hook
Never judge the cover or the back
You need to know all the facts
Unless you read it won’t make sense
So go ahead and take the chance

I'm lost so many ways to turn I don't know which way is Right anymore. confused so many beliefs I've learned I'm afraid my faith is broken. I'm frightened to be wrong about myself. that's life keeps me fearful of the future, concerned that I won't reach IT. worrisome as if my way is wrong forgetful at times that the past does repeat. constricted by the binds I put on myself. the chains with no locks I can't free myself the only Key is how I see myself. when I look into my eyes, I'm lifeless inside. I tried to warn myself but voiceless I cry. scream and beg and plead until I've torn my mind. the million little pieces it broken into are all traumatized. so I quickly pick them up, and store them, now I'm frozen in time. my heart never heals, it needs a chance but my pride won't give. so forever scarred is the way I live. if I let it control me, my soul is wounded, my spirit confined for all of time, and so I hurt inside. I'm hurtful when I hurt, and that causes me stress. I hate that I'm spiteful, I regret to be hateful, but I'm grieving! I'm absent. disoriented, like I'm watching a game on this limited screen. I'm limited to a person, restricted to one team. restrictions take hold become Forgotten Dreams. I'm blind When I Wake because I forgot what it takes, to dream. my house is disorganized it reflects my mind. I'm worried about the steps it takes to find, the truth I hold inside. I feel pressured by all sides, but it's my mind, my soul, my choice, my life, my will that will break these chains. one thing I am not is insane.