When you see the curtain falling
Don't try to peek around

Lie down

Embrace the emptiness of your past
And the absence of your future

Don't rage
Fear the light!

But whatever you do...

Don't bring the curtain down yourself

It will come in its own time

Press on and strive
To find something meaningful
Worthwhile

Sublime

I love that stump over there

I liked the tree...
     But I love that stump

So solid and immovable!
    
Well, unless I pull it

But I won't pull it

I love that stump.

Eclipse

     Shattered by your smile

Gone in a ray of light

     Flowing from you

Your eyes can light up midnight

    Turn crystals into coal

         
Intoxicating Sweetness

     Lacerated with Lust

Scorching me


I long just one more time

To be burned by you....

I can’t go back
     And make it right

Change comes too late sometimes

You said you loved me
     Then that you liked me
          Now often

You say nothing at all

I miss those words

I miss that feeling

I miss the time

When I was the best part of your world

Wishes and dreams
    Are candy in the brain
But life is never
     So simple

Flowers are nice
     But a smile will suffice

When you are feeling down

The magic of life
     Is the lips of a girl

A touch of love from your lover
    
And the sweet sensation
     Of the glow in her eyes

When she wants you

Forever

Dancing alone
     Under a midnight sky

I cry

Screaming your name
     Emotions burning
          In my mind

Searing doubts
     And blistering shame

So insane
     That someone so far away

Is so hard
To let go

No account slum town man
Over there
Pounding on a beatnik drum
So glum
No talent, but dreams
A mind ripped apart at the seams
And a soul that burns
With love
For the hot fire of inspiration
And the passion
Of life
That passed him by

Dancing at Dusk
A playful lust
Faeries weep
In the forests deep
Enchantment in the ground

Lonely Mages
Wail and moan
A weary traveler
Staggers home

Unaware
Of the magic in the night

Thistles and Roses
     Intertwine in my heart
Maddening thirst
     For your touch

Waves of desire
     Searing me sweetly
Wanting you
     Madly and deeply

Lying silently here
     With only these dreams

Tonight

Your waspish smile
     Stings me
Like a hypocritical barb from a jaded glance
     A subtle trip, within a slow dance

Alas…

Your Poison ain’t what it used to be!

The only way to know
     Is to go...
Disappear in the night
     Disappear from your life

My love lies with you
     My destruction lies within you
And seeps into me

So I must go
     I must flee

I hope you miss me.

Your kindness
     Amazes me
Your sweetness
     Soothes me
I drown in your smile
    I melt in your eyes
I’ve been in despair
    Yet you are always there
Waiting

Waiting for me to lift my head
     And know its true
That happiness
     Is always there
With you

That Whiskey bottle
Would drown me
If I let it

That Cigarette
Would smoke me
If I let it

Your Love
Would destroy me
If I let it

But I won't let it

I mean too much to me
To let that happen anymore

I don't want to read the news
          I want to immerse myself
                     In you

Ukrainian dream
My golden queen
I've wasted years
Suffered for you
Pleaded for you

Died inside
Denied my pride

Now at last
I've finally found
The pain most intense
With you around

The only one
I adore
Has shattered and broken me
To the core.

Dad, I am going to try and write this
It may be a poem
It may not
But from my heart
I miss you
I remember the last time I kissed you
Your eyes were closed
They opened wide
As I kissed your forehead
In that terrible place
So white and clean
Where people die
But you will never die
Dad
I love you so much
And you will always live on
In my heart
Forever
God, I miss you so much
It's so hard to write through the tears

The Spider under my chair
                 Wasn't doing me any harm...
                             But I killed it.

I don't know why I did what I did
                  But I know if I knew
                             That Spider under my chair
  
Would still be alive.

Weeping
Misery
My eyes burned Heartbreak Blue
Chills in my mind
Echoing visions of you

Why must love be always slipping from my grasp?
As I gasp
With tormented breath
At what I cannot have

Memories of faded bliss
A simple kiss
Why do I desire most that which brings me pain?

Insane.

Winter Girl
Icy, Naked, Blizzard, Lust
Warms me

She's so cold!
How could she know
That she destroys me
If I don't tell her?

Hate on Skates
She comes for me
Rasping shrieks
Devoid of pleasure
Collapse to the side

No way of knowing
What is real

Cigarette shimmers
Pale red light
Crushed to ashes

I lie alone.

I die alone.

Good night.

Smooth midnight black
Desecration blues
Wandering down a desolated road
With my frenzied mind
Raptured, yet empty
Longing for the end of the night
Yet fearing the dawn
And the eternity of an existence
I may never know

Dostoevsky dreams
And Pushkin lines
And rhymes...
Like Bolshevik bullets
Tear into me
Seething
Hot sleep!

Dead Tsars and Anastasia
Mean nothing to me
But I miss them
Sometimes...

Aristocratic nonsense
But tiaras are pretty
With diamonds shining
In a Russian night

As kulaks die
The diamonds glitter
A worthy reminder
Of a beautiful time

When debutantes danced
And the little Tsarina

Could dream in peace