the world is a machine built of scorpions and wolves, praying for sleep and
soft lullabies. the wheels and knobs turn endlessly, recklessly howling at the
stars for it's desirable solace, like ghosts stuck on earth preying on others for
revenge for being sentient puppets tangled in the strings, thrashing in their
thoughts, stuck in a everlasting cycle carrying around burdens like a courier
through dense forests and vast wastelands, burning bridges and bibles and
throwing gasoline upon the architectures built up and setting them on fire
but i feel hands of fear at my ankles, pulling me into the restless ocean
with a pulsating ache, wolves howl from the insides of my barren stomach
and making them be quiet is difficult, if duct tape worked, it would help
these knives for fingers cut through anything, but it can't cut through you
Flesh is heretic.
My body is a witch.
I am burning it.
Yes I am torching
ber curves and paps and wiles.
They scorch in my self denials.
How she meshed my head
in the half-truths
of her fevers
till I renounced
milk and honey
and the taste of lunch.
Now the ***** is burning.
I am starved and curveless.
I am skin and bone.
She has learned her lesson.
Thin as a rib
I turn in sleep.
My dreams probe
a sensuous enclosure.
How warm it was and wide
once by a warm drum,
once by the song of his breath
and in his sleeping side.
Only a little more,
only a few more days
I will slip
back into him again
as if I had never been away.
I will grow
angular and holy
keeping his heart
as will make me forget
in a small space
into forked dark,
into python needs
heaving to hips and *******
and lips and heat
and sweat and fat and greed.
My mind was filled with nothing but innocence before I met you
My heart was soaked in naive bliss before I met you
Now my mind is interrupted by the image of your face
And my heart is corrupted with your soft but piercing voice
The voice that once could put me to sleep like a lullaby
But now it's the only thing that keeps me up at night
You've etched the thought of you into the corners
And entangled it into the cracks of my now fragmented soul
What a torturous game that you don't even know you play
You show your universe to the girl with not even a star
You show her new ways of seeing your perfection
And new ways to show her to see her never ending flaws
I'm just an empty silhouette now, with nothing but hate
Hate for myself for no matter how much of myself I gave
That it would never be enough for you...
That I would never be enough for you...
I do not greet the water for I never really left its embrace
Although it evaporated from my skin it never dried from my heart
A familiar chill rests upon me as my body falls below the surface
The water rushes into my lunges like an avalanche of bliss
It fills up every corner of me anchoring my soul deeper
With the waves crashing over me and the waters arms around me
My last breath slips to the surface as I slip into serenity...into my home
— The End —