Trying to run in the dark, cold night but my bleeding feet won't allow it.
My face is covered in tears and make-up, my body's shaking in fear.
It's 3AM on New years eve.
I feel so alone and broken.
Why did you let me go?
How could you let me leave?
I chose you once again,
you let me go like too many times before.
Not even a word to show that you care if I'm okey.
I wished for 2019 to show our fate.
Three hours in, I saw it all so clear.
I'm now letting you go.
The grey area is not for me.
I'm made for bright colours,
colours that you ruin with darkness.
Farewell, my grey area.
I thank you for killing my feelings for you, at last.
Words about a night I needed to realize my worth. A night I never want to experience ever again.